hey pill - i didn't bother to look it up or anything - although I find the entymology and origins of words to be fascinating - I assumed it was something along the lines of the town crier saying "hear me, hear me..." - that type of shit when there's an announcement to be made. Like for Sumdgey to hear what NNS is saying to him.
And yeah, imnohe also, PAWS comes on later and can be dehabilitating if not recognized and dealt with with, unfortunately. I see two shrinks, cause one is the sub prescribing Dr., and he's actually the one that said "I would have described you as suicidal about a month ago..." and I had to agree, but I was relieved that I wasn't the one telling him that I felt suicidal - because I'm very aware, as Soma's story illustrates quite well, that nothing good can come out of that experience with the mental health system in this country. With the City's deficit and no answer to the growing bills and pension issues, lots of first line, primary mental health care providers in this City and State (IL) have been shut down. My mother used to work for DCFS years ago, dog rest her soul - and even at that point when there "was" money to pay the bills, they were like 6-8 months behind. I work downtown in property management and have witnessed first hand how mental health and substance abuse issues have been kicked out onto the street, for the police to deal with. And that's an endless cycle that goes nowhere. Incarceration with violent criminal types would not be my first choice for treatment when I'm having a bad mental health day.
Anyway, sorry for the tangent, it's a subject that all of us should know or care something about. After all, we are the irredeemable junkies in the eyes of the courts and all the apparatus that surrounds them to make money off locking us up for as long as possible. We are the jackpot, customers for life, if they could have their way.
I'm pissed - my insurance is refusing to pay for subs, they got a better deal from zubsolve and they're gonna take that and make me switch and there's not a damn thing I can do, except pay out of pocket if I really want to. I shouldn't complain tho - I've got a FT time to support my family and FT benefits that provide for them and all the trimmings and trappings that go along with it. I'm a long way from being homeless, couch-surfing and sleeping on trains in NYC for a few months when I have no idea of what else to do.
Peace and love to you all, brothers and sisters. I really wish life had a reset button at some points and i could go back and change the course of my personal history...
