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Vent/Rant Thread vs I'll tell you how I really feel (Triggering Content)

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Second day of waking up to remodeling being done where I live. Wouldn't be a big problem if I had a normal sleep schedule but waking up to a belt sander rattling through the entire walls at 9am is a bit like having a root canal when you didn't get to bed til 6.

I know, first world problems...
 
I'm so pissed!! Peope so inefficient! ! So it was supposed to be my first night in class but the school district or someone in the school district did not update the website stating that all diploma programs are going to be discontinued. Not only did he/she missed to put that information but she also did not ship my text book to the school, so I rushed to go home to pickup my binder for nothing!!! If she was only efficient, I would have just stayed over time at work and I could have finished some paperwork so I can train our newly hired shipper with ease tomorrow. Arghhh!!
 
Carl Landrover said:
Im in a similar boat but im in debt and im 28. Even though I'm not much older I'd love to be almost 24 again.

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That was a response to Oxy Ghost. Not sure how to go back and copy in a quote on my phone
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I didn't mean for this to sound like "Oh yeah if you think you're bad, you should see me! My dick is twice as long!"

More along the lines of I'm in the same boat, and it's not all that uncommon for addicts in their 20's to have to start all over. It's a daunting task and one that I haven't fully prepared myself for yet.


I'm super down lately. Really down. A good friend of mine killed himself about 1.5 years ago now and I can't help but feel that the wrong person died. He wasn't a waste of life before he died, not like I am. I'm more of a drain on other people than I am a positive influence of any kind.
 
Fuck my work... seriously... I work a shift that nobody else wants and have worked every public holiday for the last 2 years (mostly selfishly because they have to pay me a lot of money for it) and they are refusing to give me Easter weekend off when I have an event planned. All because nobody else wants my shift...
 
neversickanymore said:
dont make a problem were there is none is what i say.. if you can keep it to a beer or two a day then whats the problem?
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I really don't know honestly.
They say for people to have a glass of red wine at night with/after dinner because it's supposedly good for you.
I know red wine has other things in it that beer lacks, but it still contains alcohol. Why do my Dr's frown upon my drinking?
It's gotten to the point i feel guilty after finishing just one beer.
 
Friday night.
Even in my boring rural neighborhood, I hear all the people with social lives and their friends coming over and the bass music from their trucks as they come and go.
Sitting here drinking coffee and trying to plan out how I am going to pay my bills, and generate enough capital to make some progress.
Already 4 months into the year. I have managed to get over my anxiety, and to increase my fitness level by a huge amount from what it had declined to over the winter, but I am still disabled and my body still doesn't work normally. Life is really terrible. Been like this for 12 years. Somehow I am still confident that I will be able to generate some significant income and eventually have some enjoyable years. Even having a positive outlook, it is still torturous day to day. Extremely frustrated and jealous of others right now.
 
^You're not the only one..

I've been getting kicked in the balls for 30 years..
 
Corazon said:
Friday night.
Even in my boring rural neighborhood, I hear all the people with social lives and their friends coming over and the bass music from their trucks as they come and go.
Sitting here drinking coffee and trying to plan out how I am going to pay my bills, and generate enough capital to make some progress.
Already 4 months into the year. I have managed to get over my anxiety, and to increase my fitness level by a huge amount from what it had declined to over the winter, but I am still disabled and my body still doesn't work normally. Life is really terrible. Been like this for 12 years. Somehow I am still confident that I will be able to generate some significant income and eventually have some enjoyable years. Even having a positive outlook, it is still torturous day to day. Extremely frustrated and jealous of others right now.
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E-mail/PM me anytime, ok/

Being a single Mam, I understand how it feels when everyone else is partying but me.
For five years, I'd sit there, on Facebook, listening to people bragging about it - while I was alone.
I know that feel, and that resentment.... and when others don't - and angrily tell you, move on.

Here for you anytime, ok?!

Evey xxxx
 
Corazon said:
Friday night.
Even in my boring rural neighborhood, I hear all the people with social lives and their friends coming over and the bass music from their trucks as they come and go.
Sitting here drinking coffee and trying to plan out how I am going to pay my bills, and generate enough capital to make some progress.
Already 4 months into the year. I have managed to get over my anxiety, and to increase my fitness level by a huge amount from what it had declined to over the winter, but I am still disabled and my body still doesn't work normally. Life is really terrible. Been like this for 12 years. Somehow I am still confident that I will be able to generate some significant income and eventually have some enjoyable years. Even having a positive outlook, it is still torturous day to day. Extremely frustrated and jealous of others right now.
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Every one of us is getting tortured differently everyday, whether it is about money, anxiety, work so yes, you are not alone in this one. I have been struggling too about so many things but hey better to be alive than dead. I can still find some things to make me happy even just simple things.
 
HdoubleODeezy said:
I really don't know honestly.
They say for people to have a glass of red wine at night with/after dinner because it's supposedly good for you.
I know red wine has other things in it that beer lacks, but it still contains alcohol. Why do my Dr's frown upon my drinking?
It's gotten to the point i feel guilty after finishing just one beer.
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I think one beer per day isn't that bad if your liver is ok. beer can even be good for you, because it contains minerals and vitamines. maybe try an alcohol-free beer ? so you can still keep your beer-drinking ritual and enjoy the taste without feeling guilty :)
 
I am so fucking depressed, ashamed, and hopeless right now I want to die.
 
plmar said:
I am so fucking depressed, ashamed, and hopeless right now I want to die.
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No you don't.
You're a good person from what I can tell on this site, why would you wanna take that outta here?
PM me if you wanna talk.. I'm not much of a motivational talker but I'm a good listener and can relate to a lot of things in life.. i've been to hell and back.
 
I'm new to blue light, and am thankful this forum exists.

another day of dealing sadness and grief. no one died. but i feel like a part of me is dead since i've been clean. it really feels like a hole in my chest. 10 days sober from opiates,coke, and alcohol. on days like this, "one day at a time" is too much pressure... more like a minute/hour at a time.
 
I want to scream and break things, but I can't scream or make a lot of noise in the house I rent, and I'm not healthy enough to break things without risking damage to my arteries and heart.
 
Corazon said:
I want to scream and break things, but I can't scream or make a lot of noise in the house I rent, and I'm not healthy enough to break things without risking damage to my arteries and heart.
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I am thinking of getting a punching bag at home so when I am super frustrated I can just punch the bag as many times as I want.
 
i was on my way to work but now i'm in the parking lot if a hoodass white castle, waiting for a tow. and they are backedup. the auto body shop said they'd give me a ride to work. they gonna come downtown at 5 and pick me up too? then we can sit in rush hour together. i might be taking a sick day, which sucks because that's really just working from home. my car's broke.
 
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