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How are you in one word ver. Feelings left between the pages

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I spent the day running around the city taking photos with a friend I've known since childhood. He lives across the country now and is only in town a few times a year. Things never change between us. It is so nourishing and uplifting to have friendships that span decades, but are not changed by time.
 
Nevermind this post if you read the pre-edit.

I just feel depressed right now. FUCK mixing alcohol and benzos. It's pathetic and my parents probably lost all hope in me ages ago anyway. Even though they don't seem to give a shit.
 
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accomplished. I have been working in my garden for three days after work and then all day yesterday. It actually looks good and this morning I got up with the birds and just sat in the sun enjoying it.
 
Tired -
Made the bet of the dry weather and went round to my parents to repair my fathers greenhouse that got damaged in the winter in the high winds.
 
Happy.
Scan showed that the chemotherapy is working well and I only have to go through another 2 cycles and that will be it done for the time being.
 
maxalfie said:
Happy.
Scan showed that the chemotherapy is working well and I only have to go through another 2 cycles and that will be it done for the time being.
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Thats great maxalife!! <3 You will be better in not time then.
 
I'm feeling: better

Physically I'm okay. RLS is acting up, mostly in my left leg. It like RLS makes my legs hurt so much that after a while it's not really RLS, it's more like they're sore because if the RLS. But mentally I'm much better. Not as depressed cuz I get to see my fiancé AND daughter tomorrow and that makes me feel a lot better:)
 
HUNGRY!

I've ate a sub, chips, fruity pebbles, ice cream, apples; all in the past couple hours and I'm still going hahaha

Zwanya said:
mellow

read and rested by a pool for a few hours. hot tub later. :)
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Oh shit! I wish I had a hot tub. I'd be in it all day durring my detox to help with the RLS and the chills. I haven't taken my hoodie off in 5 days(except to shower) cuz I'm always freezing and it's been quite warm recently where I live. Just another symptom I fucking hate
 
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Anxious.

Worried about going to get a chest x-ray tomorrow in addition to other shit I'm trying to take my mind off of.
 
Right now I can only explain it in two words: Mind Blown

Watch "Journey to the Edge of the Universe" on National Geographic and you'll know what I'm talking about
 
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