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Goals for your 2014?

Good luck to both of you I hope you succeed.
My goals for 2014 are to try to appreciate everything that I do have and to make more of an effort to visit my mum & sisters more often as they have been such a help and given me great support lately.
 
mydrugbuddy said:
1. quit bupe dependency
2. quit e-cigs
3. quit benzo depenedency
4. Get a job (any job)
5. Get a job I'll actually enjoy and find rewarding.
6. That's all.
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I cannot believe ive achieved goals 1 and 2 allready and so easily. Obviously the important thing now is to hold out and not relapse. Im pretty sure i wont have that problem with goal 1 as i have to be clean for the forseeable as i have to be ready and able to take international flights at a moments notice.

Goal 2 im taking day by day.

Goal 4 am i ready to face the constant knockbacks all over again, its grim, but everyone tells me, and i do believe that perserverence will pay off, sooner or later.

Goal 3, extremely difficult, not even contemplating atm.

Goal 5, might have to postponed for some time.

I find it amazing how quickly things have changed, and what looked like 2 insurmountable barriers have been broken easily. 8o
 
Congrats on knockin the bupe on the head MDB, how long have you being without now?

A mate of mine has been on maintenance for over 4 years now, think hes still on 4mg to.. Cant see him stopping them for a long time either.

Im trying to give nicotine up, its not going brilliantly however ive cut down significantly. Giving up smoking fills me with more fear than giving up opies. So well done on that to :)
 
thanks, only since last Thursday, but Im determined to see it through. I might dabble in a little kratom in a month or 2, but i cannot fall into a habit with it. I found it easier to give up cigs/nicotine by switching to ecigs first, they do seem to be much easier to stop. I only had 2 bouts of mild fleeting cravings when i stopped. It really was very easy.
 
mydrugbuddy said:
thanks, only since last Thursday, but Im determined to see it through.
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Brilliant MDB. Be proud of yourself.

ScotchMist said:
Im trying to give nicotine up, its not going brilliantly however ive cut down significantly. Giving up smoking fills me with more fear than giving up opies.
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It really was very easy.
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Giving up smoking filled me with fear too. And it was all bollocks. The fear I mean. Like MDB says, it really is piss-easy, specially compared to what you think it will be like.

I smoked for 30 years. I'm really not holier-than-thou, just trying to be encouraging. If people want to smoke, then smoke, I have no problem with anyone smoking. But I do have a problem with the industry that surrounds packing up and the 'fear' instilled in us by it.

It really is, as MDB says, very easy.

BTW, cutting down is bollocks too. I cheered myself with that thought for 6 months or so. Cutting down tobacco really means very little. Give up. If you want to, you will. And if you don't want to, you won't. It's that simple. Good luck, and don't batter yourself with concepts like 'failure'.
 
yeah i read it about 5 years ago. It helped me stop and stay stopped for a while. I cant remember how long. I have stopped smoking dozens of times during my life. I've struggled to stay stopped.

Hopefully this time i will finally stay stopped, i dont know how much more evidence i need that smoking reduces your life expectancy; one relative dead at 50, one at 62, the ones that didnt smoke lived and are living well into their mid 80s and beyond. Smoking doesnt even really have any benefits at all, its really quite an insane habit, risking your life for nothing much, and paying a fortune in taxes for the priviledge.
 
mydrugbuddy said:
yeah i read it about 5 years ago. It helped me stop and stay stopped for a while. I cant remember how long. I have stopped smoking dozens of times during my life. I've struggled to stay stopped.

Hopefully this time i will finally stay stopped, i dont know how much more evidence i need that smoking reduces your life expectancy; one relative dead at 50, one at 62, the ones that didnt smoke lived and are living well into their mid 80s and beyond. Smoking doesnt even really have any benefits at all, its really quite an insane habit, risking your life for nothing much, and paying a fortune in taxes for the priviledge.
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My Nain n Taid lived until late eighties but both smoked like chimneys x
 
You must be Welsh Eve ? i thought you were American to start with ? There are exceptions to every rule, but statistically and in general it is proven beyond all doubt that smoking kills 50% of smokers.

I dont know the current stats about life expectation, but it used to be that smoking tobacco reduces a persons life expectancy by ten years, when everything had been averaged out.
 
I did a highly non scientific and gimmicky 'how long will you live' test on facebook, according to that i should have died about 4 years ago. I think ticking yes to taking drugs every day and smoking tobacco and eating shit all contributed.

I think the drugs thing knocked about 30 years off my life, but its averaged out, we all know of the keith richards, iggy pops, david bowies of this world that have had heavy habits but still survived long enough to be OAPs, and we also all know about the many tragedies when teenagers of people in their 20s have dies, and the deaths have been in some way connected to drugs.
 
My main goal this year is to sack the downers and rekindle the affair with my first loves - stims & psychs.

I'm not normally one to set personal goals because I know only too well that I'll eventually let myself down! But after having had a couple of really crap years with an ever increasing dependence (and tendency to binge) on booze & benzos, It's finally dawned on me that I'm seriously affecting the people I love as well as myself. I've lost two decent jobs in the past two years, directly due to alcohol/benzo abuse, and have found myself starting yet another new year on the dole. So I seriously need to give myself a bloody good kick up the arse, find some motivation and get more productive - which I can't do while downers are still part of the equation (with the possible exception of heroin, which does actually make me more productive, but as I've not touched any for over 12 months now it would be stupid to go back on it in my current financial situation). Also, I turn 50 at the end of this year, so it's about time I grew up a little; and my advancing years are starting to show the damage caused by past heroin & crack abuse (damaged optic nerve, damaged veins and nerves causing poor circulation and coldness/numbness in extremities, bad teeth etc.). Therefore, the last thing I need is to compound these issues by bashing the booze & benzos.

Unfortunately, I've been a poly drug abuser for so long now that I feel I need to have something in my system to alter my consciousness - which is why I intend to start taking amphetamines again for productivity, with occasional use of psychedelics for mental clarity. I also need to find myself a decent score for good weed/hash for daily relaxation purposes instead of the booze I've been increasingly reliant upon.

So far, so good - I've drastically reduced my booze intake (I went all last week without a drink and intend to keep it to weekends only), I've not ordered any more benzos and I'm reducing my methadone slowly - which I hope to be off completely by the end of the year. The hard part is keeping the momentum going for longer than a few weeks...
 
All you can do is take things one step, one subtstance at a time, one day at a time. Last year i was dependant/addicted to no fewer than 5 substances; modanifil, SSRIs, bupe, nicotine, etizolam.

I am now just on the SSRI and etiz. I have a massive challenge ahead of me to get my etiz consumption reduced, but i'll be taking it day by day, week by week, a quarter, or half or 1mg at a time, depending on how i feel.
 
i allways spell modafinil wrongly, except now on this occasion ive spelled it correctly. I was also taking phenergan and diphenhydramine on top of my bedtime etiz as i had blown out my tolerance. I cannot believe how far i have progressed, and i feel so much better, if i can do it, truly anyone can.
 
Thanks for the good wishes Eveleivibe :-) But as to whether SSRIs are addictive depends upon your definition of 'addiction' and 'dependence', which is currently being discussed in another thread so I won't go into it here.

MDB, sounds like you're doing really well ATM. Keep it up feller!!
 
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