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The EADD Mental Health Support Thread II

foolsgold you love ya music, seen all the stuff you put in the tunes thread, spammed full of proper good stuff. loads of guns n roses from the last time i saw
 
Beautiful song from Allein. I'm new here, very new, but I can tell we are amongst friends. I hope my lurky shit doesn't freak you out, but I've seen your words and your pics and your have a lot to offer, believe me. I spend most of my day communicating in two word sentences and sign language (work related, mostly) and I know what isolation can do. Keep talking...Keep being.... Keep on keepin' on. You contribute to the world in a positive way, we're all reaching out. That means something. Keep going.

x
 
knock said:
foolsgold, I love you man <3, you entertain me with head-banging music when I'm off my nut :D
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Fuck man, he says it better than I ever could. You are making people happy. This means a hell of a lot. Life is more than face to face. We lie to each others faces. What reason do we have to lie here? I can't speak for others, but when I finally speak on the internet, I mean it. I want to hear your tunes and what you have to say. Keep going.....
 
cheers but things are out of my hands as always people just wont let me live playing games at my expense to often i am burned out and like i said last time i really think its the natural conclusion to this script and this one just sums up everything from 89 to today http://youtu.be/8SbUC-UaAxE Guns N' Roses - November Rain
suicides after suicide watching lives fall apart from a very early age and when its my time for a helping hand the was is no one left any way thank you and good night you never know maybe i get lucky in the morning with a bag of nose candy doubt it not with my postie but heres hoping
 
knock said:
foolsgold, I love you man <3, you entertain me with head-banging music when I'm off my nut :D
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Fuck man, he says it better than I ever could. You are making people happy. This means a hell of a lot. Life is more than face to face. We lie to each others faces. What reason do we have to lie here? I can't speak for others, but when I finally speak on the internet, I mean it. I want to hear your tunes and what you have to say. Keep going.....
 
foolsgold said:
ive got no one thats the thing no family as such no friends ive been locked in this room basically nearly 24/7 for 14 years because of my past and not being able to have a relationship because of whats happened and some fucking nasty people in this world but thank you again <3

cheers :)
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Change doctors, I've done so numerous times, one I had just ignored my comments about feeling very low many times, if he would have listened I may not have fallen so far into the darkness.

But I stumbled on a very kind lady doctor and within 20mins has spilled, my drug problem, my drink problem and things about my mental state and how I felt I had no other option other then to end it all.

In more recent times I have had good support from Addaction, I found a nice guy there and we just talked he never judged me or even directly suggested I stop anything.

I have felt alone and isolated for as long as I can remember, having people around doesn't always help, those feelings go back way into my childhood, I'm just trying to learn to live with it, I'm sure others live with their own issues.

Try a new doc or a support agency, it might not work out but at least you tried, not all these people are the same and many are really keen to help and have a good idea of some of the things you are going through. My current doc has been prescribing Morphine and codeine for more than 12 months, we talk about my addiction issues openly and he has listened recently to my concerns over my AD medication, supporting me through coming off Venlafaxine even though he didn't think it was the best thing to do.

Don't give up on life, there is more to come, you are clearly a sensitive soul which makes things hard, but you could give so much to others in the future that are where you are now, they need you......the everything needs you, you have you part to play.
 
Allein you sound like such a lovely intellectual caring person, i find it surprising you feel so alone and isolated. depending on my mood i prefer my own company a lot of the time, altho all depends

yeah dont give up on life, its gonna end anyway, see what happens
 
ColtDan said:
Allein you sound like such a lovely intellectual caring person, i find it surprising you feel so alone and isolated. depending on my mood i prefer my own company a lot of the time, altho all depends
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Thank you, but I'm as full of faults as the next. I cannot compare how I feel to others, that isn't possible any more than I can objectively assess myself.

For me the human condition can be very lonely, I find it very hard to make meaningful relationships with others and so tend to feel let down and don't bother. It does me no good and I do try to socialise a bit, but in truth I'd never leave the house if I didn't have to. Work is another thing, it's like its not me and I can be someone else, I'm OK at getting on with people but avoid anything beyond acquaintance in most cases.

These last few years haven't been easy and I can see how I've had problems for most of my life but hidden them in one way or another. I hope that I can at least have some affinity with others suffering depression and mental breakdown. Society still can't really deal with this area well and people don't like to talk about it, even close family swept my problems under the carpet.

A few people really helped me out, my old doctor, some nurses in a secure facility and others since, they took the time to reach out and interact on a deeper level. The first time I ever went to see a doctor about me mental health she stopped all her calls and cancelled her appointments, she told me that although things seemed hopeless and dark now they would be better one day, not perfect but better, she said I may end up feeling like this again but that I would know better days were ahead.

Those words stuck with me, I couldn't have been lower at the time, a bottle of whiskey a day had been going on for a long time and I had lost touch with reality such was my derealisation, I was broken and scared in a way I hope I will never be again.

I try not to feel sorry for myself, as self loathing is my worst enemy and I have little to feel sorry over.

My genuine thoughts go out to anyone in mental anguish, I wish I could take away their pain but its not that simple. Suicide is never the answer, wait for tomorrow and see what it brings, there'll be time enough for dying you don't need to plan for it.
 
Can relate to that. over the years ive become a bit distant, had anxiety and depression all my life, given up on life many times. im more at peace these days but still cant really be assed. the worst times were lacking sleep all week and hammering meph all weekend, sent me around the twist. mental health is a shitter. and a bottle of whiskey a day is harsh. suicide is sometimes the answer, we're all gonna die anyway, if somebody wants to end it then fair enough to em
 
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Yeah exactly. but no matter where you are your still stuck with yourself. having the motivation to do that stuff whilst seriously depressed aint gonna happen, some people struggle to get out of bed
 
i wish the was a maintenance program for stim addicts like coke/crack/smack addicts get ive used for 20 plus years last 8/9 years very heavily almost daily and some of the stuff i take is stupidly strong stuff i mean going through 10g of mpa or eph in one sitting is nothing i did the same with 2-dpmp but doctors and rehabs have no idea what this stuff is christ 2 or 3 g of mdpv would be nothing to me but tell that to a doctor i may as well say ive got a problem drinking coffee .

but im going to look into some of the things you lot have said if not today next just sadly need that baggie to drop today to get into a place to do it
 
foolsgold said:
i wish the was a maintenance program for stim addicts like coke/crack/smack addicts get ive used for 20 plus years last 8/9 years very heavily almost daily and some of the stuff i take is stupidly strong stuff i mean going through 10g of mpa or eph in one sitting is nothing i did the same with 2-dpmp but doctors and rehabs have no idea what this stuff is christ 2 or 3 g of mdpv would be nothing to me but tell that to a doctor i may as well say ive got a problem drinking coffee .

but im going to look into some of the things you lot have said if not today next just sadly need that baggie to drop today to get into a place to do it
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Some folk WITH STIM PROBLEMS CAN GET A Dexamfetamine Sulphate ( DExedrine ) script , it's not common but if you were to get a decent Psychiatrist/ GP it's not impossible .

Sounds like the best thing for your current position .

Stay safe brother.
 
FG, "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem". Things will get better.

Tbh mate the way youve been hammering the substances its no wonder you're felling a bit off. Have you tried anti-depressants for a start? Maybe laying off the substances for a few weeks will also help, in fact Im sure it will help to stabilise and lift your mood. Youve probably depleted all your serotonin and other feel good brain chemicals.

Your GP should be able to provide you with info about all sorts of different support groups, even though you're not a drug addict as such (or are you ?), drugs support group offer a great range of services, from counselling, you get a key worker to support you too, and group work, where everyone in the group supports each other (ok theres sometimes the odd arsehole there that isnt 'with the program' but you can have a quiet word with the group leader if theres any1 in the group you have a problem with, and they'll sort it out. Theres also 'mental health intervention workers' and 'dual diagnosis teams' for when things are really bad. The MHIW are fuckin brilliant, they work with you on your thinking and activities.

Just simply having someone to talk to, that listens and understands, can make all the difference. Fuckin vent on here all you need, that can help too. Just clear your head of all those thoughts that keep running round. The best way of doing that is to talk to someone, but just posting on her to vent a bit can also help. It gets the thoughts out of you head to stop the endless depressing loops of thinking you may have.

It would be a terrible mistake to end your own life. I know things are bad now, but the thing to remember is that they can, and will improve, you have to get the ball rolling yourself though.

Look at all the support you've had here. If you think no one cares then you're clearly wrong. People would be falling over themselves to help you at a drugs support place too.
 
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