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The EADD Mental Health Support Thread II

That EHS sounds brutal Monsta jeez, thats enough to put anyone on edge, Can doctors do anything about it?

I had sad for years. Septembers/Octobers would be filled with impending doom but then for a few years running i didn't get it and realised i'd kind of thought myself into the depression. I was actually sentencing myself to 4 or 5 months of feeling shit when actually moods change from one day to another. Just because you feel crap in October it doesn't mean youre going to feel crap for the whole of the winter. The last time i read the science between the theory of SAD it was fairly whooly and disputed heavily.. pretty much a pseudo science.

Evenso, have you tried light boxes or just getting out in the sunshine at least once a day though. Nothing ventured nothing gained.
 
Sorry to hear that, monsta. EHS sounds awful. :(

In terms of the SAD, have you tried Vitamin D and/or getting one of those SAD lights? (Am going to see if Vitamin D helps me at all this year.)
 
Vit D supplements should help. ive got some but havent taken them for ages. i was gonna try one of those SAD lights, wonder how well they work
 
I think they're meant to work okay if you use them correctly, which involves sitting at a table looking at one for an hour every morning.. which doesn't really appeal to me.
 
http://www.sad.uk.com

Try that company Dan. Make sure theyre selling boxes with the right degree of light lux though.

The sunrise alarm clocks look good they come on early mimicking an early dawn.

Some companies allow you to take a light box into work if you're in an office. When i investigating them first about 15 years ago the things were the size of a fridge! Now they're discreet and compact, you could sit them by the side of a pc.
 
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NightsEpiphany said:
The highs for me are always hilarious i just feel so whole and myself. The pain is in the coming down. Like coming to the end of a roller coaster when you're a kid or finishing the best book you ever read intensified a hundred fold.

I tried this time to keep a philosophy of not grasping and resolved to just appreciate the (mostly) natural high while it lasted so maybe that's the reason I've not gone to far down the opposite pole. I feel content but know I'm going to miss the feeling if indeed it is off again for a season ( not sure)

They're not too destructive any-more. The first few times i had no idea what was happening and got really confrontational. I wouldn't personally want to take a chemical to kosh it down but I've been following Sams Lithium progress with interest.
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Sure, manic / hypomanic highs are the greatest feeling sometimes. Do you not find there are massive downsides to that state of mind too though?

I know that nearly every lousy decision I've made has been in the throes of mania, and it's been the cause of nearly every ruined interpersonal relationship I can think of. Your grip on consensus reality loosens and you take ridiculous risks; I know I do. To say nothing of the irritability and anxiety. Oh, and the burning need to self-medicate.

It's especially difficult to come to terms with the condition properly if you associate the periods of unusually elevated mood with what other people call 'real happiness' because it just isn't the case. Which is a painful thought initially, but it's liberating in that it keeps you from trying to chase that manic feeling, making the same fuck-ups and errors of judgement that you did the last time around.

I've not been on lithium long enough to really say it'll turn my life around. I'm still at the dose-adjustment stage, so I might well hate it at a higher dose. Though I can certainly say it feels as though it's helping. It's an amazing substance reallly.
 
<3 Thankyou so very much for your support and info guys & gals <3
To be honest, I've always been skeptical about the light boxes, but they obviously do work wonders... It's just... I'd like my mind and body to get used to it all naturally - I know that it's a bit silly of me, "buh wi used t'geh by back in t'day" ;) But I guess having depression sort of messes it up even more :?

I've got some Multi-Vits + Iron tablets but they're about 3 years out of date. Then again, they still taste just as horrible as they did =D
But I'll get some more, and I ate a meal earlier which is good. I feel much less faint and I've taken a smaller dose of Amiptriptyline so I hopefully get some good kip and I won't need 4hrs to wake up! 8(
The Diaz and Temaz have helped with the E.H.S. - The best way I can describe what mine is like is... Say you had a helmet on and you banged your head against a wall, but there's no sound, just the sensation that your ear's balance getting all weird. An explosion with no sound (sometimes I get tinnitus actually).
But yeah, I'm feeling better now :)

Infact I'm feeling fucking shattered now so I'll give sleep a go - Again, thankyou all and I hope you all have a peaceful night and wake up not feeling shite! ;)
Love to you all <3~:)~<3
 
Sammy G said:
Sure, manic / hypomanic highs are the greatest feeling sometimes. Do you not find there are massive downsides to that state of mind too though?

I know that nearly every lousy decision I've made has been in the throes of mania, and it's been the cause of nearly every ruined interpersonal relationship I can think of. Your grip on consensus reality loosens and you take ridiculous risks; I know I do. To say nothing of the irritability and anxiety. Oh, and the burning need to self-medicate.

It's especially difficult to come to terms with the condition properly if you associate the periods of unusually elevated mood with what other people call 'real happiness' because it just isn't the case. Which is a painful thought initially, but it's liberating in that it keeps you from trying to chase that manic feeling, making the same fuck-ups and errors of judgement that you did the last time around.

I've not been on lithium long enough to really say it'll turn my life around. I'm still at the dose-adjustment stage, so I might well hate it at a higher dose. Though I can certainly say it feels as though it's helping. It's an amazing substance reallly.
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Rushed response sorry ive got to do shit ;/

My highs actually feel very clean, spiritual and natural. I just go whooosh up. Wake up in a morning and life looks different, beautiful and loving. I stop taking drugs rather than chase them and theres no irritability just other peoples.

Its when it goes the drugs come out.
 
NightsEpiphany said:
My highs actually feel very clean, spiritual and natural. I just go whooosh up. Wake up in a morning and life looks different, beautiful and loving. I stop taking drugs rather than chase them and theres no irritability just other peoples.
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That's the nature of (hypo)mania though, isn't it? If it didn't feel so 'natural' then people wouldn't generally have such poor awareness of their symptoms. As for the irritability, if you tried to tell me a year ago that I was acting irritable during one of those periods I'd have been mortally offended (and probably would've become irritated, because I was always right). It's all too common to see other people's reaction to your behaviour as the problem.

Which is not to say the above is necessarily true of you, though maybe it's worth thinking about. As for the drugs, you seem to abuse your prescription constantly. I'm really surprised that a doctor would prescribe you those drugs. Though that's your own business I guess.

Had a psych appointment on Monday and we decided to aim for a lithium level of around 0.8, which is at the low end of the therapeutic concentration. I was at 0.4 last time I had some results, and that was on a 400mg dose. Not feeling any adverse effects, so all's well.
 
lol Last year i wandered into eadd after some time away, feeling a bit shy and anxious because most had expressed overt hatred for me. I said something benign like 'hi' and you went off on one ' its her bringing all her negative poisonous' vibes causing all the trouble'

So I thought fuck him i'm digging my sodding heels in here now. ( fletcher christian) :D


but yeah its good to see things from another perspective.


Trying to get off the pills as it goes. Doctors around here only help with more pills.

Glad yours are seeming to be ok so far. :)
 
NightsEpiphany said:
lol Last year i wandered into eadd after some time away, feeling a bit shy and anxious because most had expressed overt hatred for me.
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You're sounding like Bodda now...

NightsEpiphany said:
I said something benign like 'hi' and you went off on one ' its her bringing all her negative poisonous' vibes causing all the trouble'
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Can't remember the incident in question, but it's not unlike me (on a bad day) to react like that. Then again, I've seen some equally extreme overreaction from you in the past.

NightsEpiphany said:
Trying to get off the pills as it goes. Doctors around here only help with more pills.
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Good luck with that. Are you considering other medication at all, or are you just going to see how it goes?
 
I just want to be unchained of all chemicals including diet coke, nicoteen and what have you see what its like..if its shit i'll turn to plan B ie' Reality is poo get rat arsed daily
 
Well, plan A is possibly over-ambitious, though it won't do your state of mind any harm.

As for plan B, haven't you done that already? It never really works, y'know.
 
I have been so fuking strong these last 3 months .

If i had known what was ahead i woulda probably said book me a place up hill view . I have got through it but i have used an very large amount of Opiates , Crack , Even fuking Stims , benzo'son topof script . I have the lodge on speed dial, last night i thnk i may have gone skipped itif i didn't have a few Qps to hand .
 
Im crazy. Really a special guy. I could see it really today, while with sum friends. Damn im loco for the "normal-living-people". Thats for sure. hah :) But im still a lovely person. But damn there is a long way to go for me to get a good livin.
 
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