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The EADD Mental Health Support Thread II

This has pushedv me 2 my breaking point along with . All what g'wan last 3 months.


Ny days dealing with normal people that dont do drugs n have jobs is so hard they have no fukin clue . This woman toook it pon erself 2 organise

she is so fuking long ting . they needed money for funeral dunno why cos man dem was on DLA , i said put up a just giving page i'll show ya how you will have £3000 by teh end of the day . this was very possible as many folk on 6 figs n not seen him 4 10y + .


Cos it was my idea n it was public she didn't yeah ok .....................................


i am so glad i am a drug using mental cae . A fukin sharp dressin sexyy intelligent one all be it with empathy & Heart

I have moved this from the sad thread cos it 's actually as itis the cause of a lot of what is fukin my mental state

This is about a funeral for a friend that i grew up with & was tight with but fell out with .
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Eh, Brimz <3

Organising my Ma's funeral fucked me up a bit, because there were very unecessary disagreements. Convincing closed minded people of how things need to get done, when they've got fixed ideas (of nonsense) ... meh ... not a fun one.

Keeping it together at a time like this is fucking hard too, and it's one of those times you HAVE to as well, no option.

It's a mofo of a problem, cause youre dealing with all youre own ongoing mental shits at the same time. I can identify

Good luck with it mister <3
 
nah marmz thing is i ain't organising it but teh person who is , likes to be a Leader n ting hasn't a clue , so i suggest simple things but she can not get them or maybe will not because wants all plaudits erself ?
 
Eh, Old folks tend to be stuck in their ways and new ideas (however productive) are often seen as a distraction or baffling to 'em, especially at the time of a death and funeral.

Frustrating as fuck for you tho. Especially when you can provide simple solutions to situations you know are causing worry or stress.

Happens in every aspect of my life as well. Can honestly say it's one of then most unpleasant parts of dealing with folk. My dad and sis especially. I wrote about that exact same thing in that post I wrote in the bath to you the other day in Gibberings, when you asked me how I was, but it wouldnt send for some reason.
 
Dredging up an old thread. Makes sense rather than posting in Gibberings. :p

I've mentioned before that I've had some sort of psychotic episode in the past. Well anxiety been a problem recently & I had asked for a referral because I thought there was something underlying going on. Mostly getting intently focused on interests or activities for days to weeks. (Hyperfocus)

Just had my appointment with a psychiatric nurse. Got to say I was bloody impressed. I actually got to sit down & have a proper discussion about my problems. She discussed whether these things or normal to a degree & what might be causing them. Today was the first of three 1 hour appointments. Certainly feel like I'm getting proper attention now after my GP saying he didn't think there was much point in a referral & feeling very much like I was having to justify myself with the psychiatrist I saw a month ago.

Obviously nothing has been diagnosed for sure yet but we talked about things & I did a questionnaire or two. She seemed to think that I might have some sort of anxiety disorder (GAD was suggested) & that possibly there are some mild Aspergers style symptoms. Nothing much was said about my previous problems & how they might be connected. I'll bring that up next week.

I feel like I'm making progress now, which is great. I'm a bit hesitant about medication but was told that it is particularly effective for anxiety disorders. Also will be doing some CBT style stuff after the last of my 3 appointments.

The only way is up, right. :)
 
Glad it went so positively. GAD can be a nightmare to live with, but it's one of the easier conditions to effectively treat, providing both patient and doctor are prepared to put the effort and the hours in. Pleased for you.
 
Well my anxiety isn't too pronounced all the time but it's definitely having an impact on my wellbeing. Enough to give me digestive problems & stop me sleeping properly, which just compounds the situation.

From that perspective, medication would seem like a sensible idea. I'm hesitant because I've heard that SSRIs can flatten emotions but I'm starting to think that the anxiety is affecting me enough, that it would mostly likely increase my mood overall by getting it in check.

She did say I had no signs of depression too.
 
I'd be giving serious consideration to knocking the drugs on the head for a while too. At least the ones that are associated with exacerbating anxiety (basically most of them, unfortunately).

Dunno about the capacity of SSRIs to dull emotion, but I can't imagine it's anything like that of lithium, and to be honest I'm happy to trade off slightly flattened emotions against the alternative. Your situation is obviously different, but analogous in that respect.
 
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Yeah to be fair Sammy, I've used very little in the way of drugs in recent times... In the past year I can count the number of times I've used drugs on one hand. Certainly something I am aware of.

I think you are right there though. As long as you are getting a tangible benefit from medication, the pros are likely to outweigh the cons. I will draw on my experiences in the past though & use as low a dose as is effective with the aim of tapering of them once everything has been in control for a while & I have done some CBT.
 
Well not much new news after my latest appointment today.

Essentially they think I have some sort of anxiety disorder (still) & they said I show some Aspergers symptoms & some hyperactivity style symptoms too but not the whole range with either of those. Just said we'll focus on the anxiety & see how any of those might be tied in along the way; they aren't anything that can be treated as such.

I'm going to be having another two 1 hour sessions focused around my anxiety now & I'll be starting on 10mg of Citalopram next week.

I decided medication is worth a shot... it's quite possible that I've had these problems for over 10 years just they happen to have got bad enough now to take notice. I'm hopeful it'll make a noticeable change...

I think as with many mental health issues, you don't realise how badly they are affecting you sometimes if they are long standing.
 
I think things like anxiety disorders are very situational, so if you're constantly within your comfort zone you're not really gonna notice it, and only when forced out of your comfort zone does it become more noticeable. I think thats the case for me at least, i have 'dealt with it' for some time by avoiding things that are uncomfortable, or resorting to one type of self medicating or other, obviously neither of which are very good ways of dealing with it. :\
 
True.

I think that everyone should aim to manage their problems without medication where possible. I don't think people realise how much effort that can take though... they try to make small changes & complain they aren't making a difference. I've tried lifestyle & diet changes. They definitely help but my anxiety keeps returning regardless.

I've been out my comfort zone a lot more recently & that seems to be what is bringing it all up all of a sudden. I've not been in many social situations with people I don't know for a long time but recently, I have. I also think finishing University & going out into the real world (albeit not properly yet) has meant that I am exposed to a lot more stressors.

Also, these problems have only largely come to light since I stopped smoking, drinking & taking drugs regularly. Clearly I've used these in some respects to self-medicate / mask my problems for many years without realising it.

I try to look at these things in as good a light as I can though. Watching that Dirty Pictures documentary on Shulgin was very insightful in that respect... these things are a part of me whether I like it or not & I should learn to see them as part of who I am rather than some terrible affliction.
 
Chatative said:
Well not much new news after my latest appointment today.

Essentially they think I have some sort of anxiety disorder (still) & they said I show some Aspergers symptoms & some hyperactivity style symptoms too but not the whole range with either of those. Just said we'll focus on the anxiety & see how any of those might be tied in along the way; they aren't anything that can be treated as such.

I'm going to be having another two 1 hour sessions focused around my anxiety now & I'll be starting on 10mg of Citalopram next week.

I decided medication is worth a shot... it's quite possible that I've had these problems for over 10 years just they happen to have got bad enough now to take notice. I'm hopeful it'll make a noticeable change...

I think as with many mental health issues, you don't realise how badly they are affecting you sometimes if they are long standing.
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I had two exes with Asperger's Syndrome. Here if you ever need to talk.

Evey
 
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I had two exes with Asperger's Syndrome. Here if you ever need to talk.

Evey
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Thanks Evey. :)

It's more the anxiety disorder that is a problem at the moment. The AS side of things is all fairly mild... more like a personality trait on the whole than a full blown problem. I've gone 26 years without anyone noticing after all! I think just understanding how it affects me will help in itself.
 
Wow. This thread's gone quiet. Not surprising really, given the highly personal nature of the subject matter.

I'm still insane, by the way. Very much so, and dreading the next meeting with my psychiatrist because she'll ask about Christmas, which was not a good time, and there's no way I can spin it to look like anything but a regression to self-destructive nonsense.

She'll probably identify it as manic defence / a mixed state and want to raise my meds, which she wants to do anyway, but hasn't been able to justify so far for various reasons.

I'm really afraid to tell her about some things because she'll be convinced I'm becoming a danger to myself, thinking magically again and possibly developing a near-psychotic doomed infatuation.

She wouldn't be completely wrong about this, but it's been good to feel again. I enjoy being the machine too, because it liberates me from all the crap which my fucked-up brain would try to torture me with, but I wouldn't want a lifetime of it, and another 200mg Li will take me awfully close to that territory. I feel I'm being groomed for a life on the margins, or rather further out on the margins, purely out of concern for my capacity to destroy myself.

We'll talk about (constructive) ways in which I can get out of this situation, and I'll have to wonder what the fucking point is. I've seen what's out there, and it's not as bad as I once believed, but to be honest it ain't worth the hassle of learning to live again in your 'early' thirties (which fucking sucks, btw).

This post may (silent chuckle) self-destruct soon. Just needed to vent, and had nobody I wanted to burden with that rubbish.
 
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Sweetheart, you're just coming out the other side of the xmas episode. This is to be expected. I agree, probably need your meds reviewed, but ask for something else to help. Lithium on its own sometimes just doesn't do the trick. I'm on 3 different ones now and I'm getting there - Though I could give you a run for who's maddest.

Sorry for not being in touch yesterday. I slept 18 hours and the pain from this back, leg injury is making me crabbit and horrible and greet a lot! This is what happens when you abuse pain killers then you need them grrr. You should have called. I'm here x

Time to be kind to yourself again, get the routine back and fucking eat you and drink less and as for the "other" start tapering off it its not going to help.

Nag over =D Love you <3
 
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