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i think the difference between myself and the more conservative /secretive people on here is that i use this place to explore what is going on within me and openly document and discuss the experiences warts and all.

. Hence " Quote Originally Posted by mydrugbuddy View Post
i only had about 12 mg of phenaz, compared to my usual 50 phenaz, 2 zopiclones, 2 cocentrated valerian root, largactil, hard liquor. promethazine, and phenergan, and lest not forget etizolam.

I wonder why people here think im mad."

i dont really care if some ppl think im mad, they dont even know me, let alone understand me, i believe some people unsderstand my agenda, and thats enough to keep me going.
 
mydrugbuddy said:
listen poachy when youve been unabkle to seleep for 12 nights you may have a little bit more insight than that.
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Relax mate. I just thought it was a funny quote and I still do BUT I'm not trying to give you a hard time or anything. Make light of the situation maybe but that's all.

Anyway, I'm a long term insomniac myself. I've had enough smack and benzo habits to have done a few 2-weekers myself and I know it's grim as hell, so you have my sympathy mate. At least, by the sounds of it, you have a doctor who'll give you something for it. The last thing I was given was Trazadone and that worked for a while but then it stopped putting me to sleep and starting doing it's job as an anti-depressant. I wasn't depressed (much) so it just started making me feel zany, with a short-temper and so, I've stopped taking them and I have nothing else. I realise that I'm currently doing subs, so I'm getting a sleep every night at the moment but in a week or two when my subs run out, I'll have insomnia and PAWS to cope with.

When I'm at the end of my tether and I haven't slept for a week, feel free to have a wee laugh at my expense too. You have my permission.
 
MDB, honestly, I would stop telling us how little you care about some people's opinions and just get on with enjoying the forum. No offence intended, just an observation :D
 
mydrugbuddy said:
i dont really care if some ppl think im mad, they dont even know me, let alone understand me
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I don't think you're mad. Misunderstood perhaps.

Anyway, since I'm new round here, I've been reading some of the past posts etc. and you seem pretty bang on the ball as far as I can tell.
 
Tangerine Dream said:
I turn into a bastard on too many benzo's too. Tried to use my mates car after getting back from a club, to go pick up drugs. Threatened to slit another mates throat, as he was trying to stop me from drink/drug driving. I don't remember it that well :/
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Paradoxical reaction is a noted side-effect of benzo use in some people.

snolly said:
Just turns me into a nudist, fortunately.
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Pix or it never happened :sus:

mydrugbuddy said:
can we be each others gunea pigs ? lol

i have a degree in psycholgy (not saying to boast but because its releavant) so i could write up proper studies with abstracts and all that bollards....
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Well I have a GCSE in psychology and even with that I could have a field day with the suggestion of mutually guinea-pigging jizz-starched protective clothing ;)
 
Shambles said:
Pix or it never happened :sus:
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That's roughly what I said when I was finally informed what happened after just going about my business for a few days thinking I'd somehow gained a few stone cos my dressing gown was too tight. Turns out it was my housemate's identical one which he'd loaned me. There have to be photos, given the nature of that house.

Fortunately I'd already flashed them all months ago anyway and my other housemate bested me instantly by getting blind drunk, getting someone to photograph him standing on top of a car with his knob out, then uploading it to Facebook.
 
Poach said:
I don't think you're mad. Misunderstood perhaps.

Anyway, since I'm new round here, I've been reading some of the past posts etc. and you seem pretty bang on the ball as far as I can tell.
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<3 my self esteem just risen about 8 notches. =D It sounds dreadfully prententious to moan about how misunderstood you are, but it it really is one of my biggest burdens. If a big group of girls or something appriach me ansd smile, i freeze up inside due to shyness and insecurity. They think im being a snobby cunt and hate me for ever more. Poor me. This is why i might be in personal centred counseeling for ever, or until my counsellor leaves. She's fuckin brilliant. She understands evrything i say, ive aslo switched to a new key workrr who also seems to have me sussed, but i gety a feeling she may be a hard taskl master as far as reducing drug consumption is concverned. :\
 
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gayorstraight said:
MDB, honestly, I would stop telling us how little you care about some people's opinions and just get on with enjoying the forum. No offence intended, just an observation :D
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no offence taken. I have a very limited repertoire of comebacks, i need to learn some new ones. Perhaps soomeone coiuld pont me somewhere (no not the exit door lol)

Is that a bit of "reverse psycholgy" youve just done on me there or ive been doing on myself ? By pointing out the lengthst i go to to say i dont care, it in fact means that i do care far too much. Or is that total bollocks. W/e i wont mention it again.
 
mydrugbuddy said:
no offence taken. I have a very limited repertoire of comebacks, i need to learn some new ones. Perhaps soomeone coiuld pont me somewhere (no not the exit door lol)

Is that "reverse psycholgy" youve just done on me there or ive been doing on mysel ? By pointing out the lengthst i go to to say i dont care, it in fact means that i do care far too much. Or is that total bollocks. W/e i wont mention it again.
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I just think you're more fun when you're not worrying about others not understanding you etc! I like it when you just join in the inane convos that are happening about cats v dogs and chimps raping frogs =D
 
mydrugbuddy said:
Is that a bit of "reverse psycholgy" youve just done on me there or ive been doing on myself ? By pointing out the lengthst i go to to say i dont care, it in fact means that i do care far too much. Or is that total bollocks. W/e i wont mention it again.
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I can't help but wonder if maybe the psychology training and longterm therapy might actually be working against you at times, MDB. Is great to have insight into psychology but can be taken waaaaaaaaaaaay too far to the point you start seeing concealed meaning in everything. There may or may not be hidden meanings in what people say at times but I honestly don't think it helps to fret too much about it. You (generic "you" - I include myself and probably most people in that "you") just end up chasing your tail and getting all worked up over what was almost certainly nothing.

Not having a dig by any stretch. I am certainly very guilty of doing just that much of the time. I've tried hard to stop all that in recent years. Still prone to reading stuff into anything and everything - trying to winkle out the real reason why somebody says something, why they word it in that way, what they are actually thinking and all that. It gets you nowhere but stressed in the end. When it comes down to it, you've said it yourself: this is a forum of essentially strangers. Yes we do all get to know each other a bit but ultimately most of us are never gonna meet each other or have any direct involvement in each others' lives beyond words on a screen. This thread, like pretty much all threads, will be lost in the bowels of the pages that apparently exist past the first one and be forgotten about.

Is good to care what other people think about you to an extent, but it can become harmful if you get overly caught up in it. You know you better than anybody else does. You know you are a fine fella. Many people here know (as much as we can know anything about an avatar and words on a screen) that you are a fine fella. I'm sure some people must think you're a bit of a nob too. Same goes for every single one of us on BL and in every other aspect of life. Try not to let it get to you so much - cos you really have nothing to worry about <3
 
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