On 12/21/2012, at 00:00, I was passing through a town called Shoals, IN, on the way to Jasper (or, on the way back). Shoals is a very small town. It is known for it's free-standing table-rock formation, which is called
"Jug Rock". It's the only one East of the Mississippi. There's a gypsum mine and plant there, as well.
On 12/22/2012 at 00:00, again, I was passing back through there, to or from Jasper- I forget. I don't ever hit the same place at the same time, hardly. I was looking for something to be cool about 12/21/2012, I guess, considering that I had looked forward, even though I knew it was 99.9% or what, that "nothing" would happen out of the ordinary. I saw it as like the end of a year, in some sense. But I don't know. Anyways, this is where I found out about the Jug Rock, desperate for something cool, and found it cool enough. Though, simply being in the same place at 00:00 around the date twice, framing it in one town, was cool. A lot more might be cool.
I looked forward to that date, also, because one ex and I (name Marilyn) ended 2300 days from it. After my being one of those people, to look to it, this hit, especially considering what I considered, and still consider alignment, already around. She gave me a watch for Christmas, which stopped on 23 seconds, at some point or another, after we broke it off. I later found that after Donna, 203 weeks remained until 12/21/2012, which correlated with my already drawing/seeing/feeling parallels with my mother, with her. It stuck. And some time after this, I decided to calculate what 161 weeks before her was (why, in a second), which came out to around Christmas (23rd), 2005, when Marilyn- my ex, gave me that watch. At my birthday, 161 full days have passed, and again, 203 days remain, in the year. These times correlate with this, with Marilyn being a beginning of a year, or that time she gave me the watch, Donna being a new birth, and/or death, of sorts, with the resonance with my/a mother, and then parallel in time after, as in the end of a year, 12/21/2012, from her. Marilyn also has something with my mom, or what my mom has something to do with, she does... As do the others. Individually (more in some than others), and as a group. Donna's seemed to be one of the strongest.
I have associated Donna with a somewhat prophetic dream that I had, back in 2003-2004. The energy matched. The feeling. And what occurred mirrored what I can remember from the dream. The dream involved finding her, being afraid to fall, and knock her over, with me as I did, off an edge. I felt weak, and felt like I should feel strong. I left her, to regain my footing, with friends, and came back to her, but she wasn't there. She had gone with her mother, somewhere. I searched the room, which was very red, in color. This had been some social place, where I had seen her, but it is all blurry, and red. I did see one girl, with red hair, against the wall, in my search, among many others. I got to her, and as the blurry character came into focus, I realized it wasn't her.
Then, I was in another place. The best I can describe it, it wasn't local. It was in space. It was around some celestial objects/stars. Perhaps it was just the Earth and the Moon. I saw a blue ball, and a smaller ball, outside of a rectangular doorway, with no windows, or discernible barriers. This was the one window to the outside. A girl and I were playing, or it felt like we were children, playing, and I remember looking out the window, with her near, and being kind of afraid of falling out, and seeing this big blue object to the right and above, and smaller white object move out of view, somewhere below. The room I was in seemed square/a cube, of sorts, but it may have had some other architectural ways about it. The color was red-gold-orange, and some pearl like, or glass like features. Even the red-gold-orange-yellow seemed kind of like glass, in parts at least. Maybe that was just some of the tiles. The walls were mainly orange/red, the floor had more gold and white, with some warmth of red/orange. The ceiling I think was more yellow, but I forget. Tiles. Uneven. Different shapes and sizes, but all rectangular/square. And despite that they were different, they appeared ordered, and balanced beautifully.
I felt like I was in trouble, for a moment... Like I had done something wrong, in regard to the girl. And I was instructed to do something, and honestly, I felt suggested. I felt asleep. I have said that I felt kind of drugged. I just walked in a way, around the smallish room we were in (or "ship/vessel"), beginning sort of at this girl, who was against an orange/red dominant wall, with very small tiles (like fire, here), and moving the direction she was facing. She also seemed to be rendered into this half-sleep state, and was in some kind of trance. It felt sort of like a high, to me. She also seemed mad, at me, for whatever I had done. This, though, wasn't even the first one, that I met... Or at least the feeling wasn't there, and she didn't look like it. But I had been looking for her, the one that I have since felt might have been Donna. Anyways, so I was moving, and being directed, or just knew where to go/what to do. I moved in a pattern, a straight line around a room, as if I was being filed in to a position, like you file through the lines, guided by the rope barriers. Beyond where the girl looked, at the corner of the room, was another female, looking down, in some kind of prayer posture, or something or another. She was wearing all black, and had dark hair. Then on the next wall, to the right if I am looking out the one window (girl, red-hair, opposite the window), is a man. But I only see what looks like water color being painted through, and only in gray colors, and only parts of him are seen in any second, only enough to make out that it is a bi-pedal thing, really... swaths of this gray and black and hints of lighter gray/white dancing about. He seems like he is at a control station of sorts, or I don't know. Where he stands is slightly elevated from the rest of the room, by about half a foot, or so.
Where I find myself instructed to stand, is in front of this cube, of some green mineral/rock. I hear that "This may hurt a little", at some point before or after I felt like I was tripping, and enjoying it, but at some point, it did hurt, a lot. I went through a period where I experienced the layout, and the people, as a computer system... A very simple, easy to understand, primitive/ancient, but the top and the bottom, perhaps... It was more advanced than anything we had, like our smart phones are more advanced than our computers, and with reference to their size being so small, the seeming "well how does it work" factor of this was like that. It just seemed too simple, and clean, but it was like it was the most powerful computer ever built. And like the process was simply by it's arrangement. Like someone figured it all out. It was complex, and simple, and my words don't do it justice, at all.
Then I was back in my body, and then it began to hurt, in the form of falling through the floor of the vessel, and how some describe being around/pulled into a singularity. I felt my legs being stretched into spaghetti, as they say, and my body contorted, and my jaw as it went through... This is when I began to scream. Or tried to. "On the way", I saw a lot of stars, like the typical hyperspace image, but then I notice that they are symbols. Lots of symbols/characters. Then one comes into focus, near the end, and I understand it. It's "perfect", and I know it means love, but in a way that I can describe it... And I want to share it. After I finished screaming (loudest I have, ever) myself awake, I held onto the feeling, and the meaning, but it faded, how to say it/explain it. It was so simple. I had this girl on my mind. It wasn't like it was a dream. Even now, I remember the direction she felt, besides being up. And this wouldn't be untrue, at all, if it was actually her. I wanted to go back. I was also confused, probably. I just remember, she looked like her. She felt like her, that first night, and losing her, felt the same. And I keep coming to, I just need to tell her, this. Not that it means we need to be anything. That's unconditional love. Sure, I am human, and imperfect, but I do feel that, at the end.
Donna was into stones, and crystals, and spirits, and things "new age", and spiritual. The connection with 203, to the date of 12/21/2012, with her, and being in the location I was, on my way to Jasper... The cube was green. It may have resembled Jasper. One reason I haven't thought it was, was because most pictures I see are sort of dull- the Green varieties. In the dream, this cube went from dull in color, to very bright, in a flux back and fourth, before I saw it all as some computer/top-down schematic momentarily. Somehow, in the dream, it may have been this, Jasper. I don't know. I have been wondering, what it was. But it could make sense, if it was. But I've had other ideas, but the fact of this timing, and some other things, makes me think it might be, really, Jasper. Why is it important? I don't know. I know it was important to many ancients.
I guess I am processing. I've written it down a lot of times, but I just now tried the connection of the center stone being Jasper.