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I don't have ready access to rigs, so I wouldn't see it being an issue. I also don't have any form of income and am just getting student loans. This is why I'm feeling ballsy with my self-control. If I can beat a meth addiction, I can beat any addiction. When I go through opioid/benzo withdrawals, I don't do everything in my power to get out of them, I just ride them out.

I know famous last words, but I'm feeling confident.
 
I don't have ready access to rigs, so I wouldn't see it being an issue. I also don't have any form of income and am just getting student loans. This is why I'm feeling ballsy with my self-control. If I can beat a meth addiction, I can beat any addiction. When I go through opioid/benzo withdrawals, I don't do everything in my power to get out of them, I just ride them out.

I know famous last words, but I'm feeling confident.

I'm also living on a student loan and don't have particularly easy access to rigs, doesn't stop me from finding a way. I thought if I could beat a huge benzo addiction I could beat any addiction but turns out maybe not. I'm just saying...everyone says that. Be the smart one and don't try in the first place please :(
 
Well, to change the topic to something a little lighter, I'm going to get a new tattoo sometime in the next week or so. :D

It's going to be a 3-D molecule of Lysergic acid diethylamide on my right shoulder about 4/5''x4/5''.
 
iv seen a couple if my friends who got molecule tats (2 of which have the LSD molecule) and all of them turned out to be pretty dope.

anyways I'm just cookin a pizza, having a pint of beer, and smoking a bowl of that dank ass tree. (wishin I was nodddddin. I'm still pretty sad about my dog :( but anyway how's everybody doing today??
 
pally congratulations. seriously. how long have you been going now?

i'm on the computers at my treatment place. been watching breaking bad, and i took the dhc i kept.

FUCKING SEASON 5, EP 4 - MOST EPIC OPENING SINCE SEASON 1. the whole episode was pretty slow though, opening, i will remember forever. i was laughing my head off and even had to rewatch it twice. brilliant. worthy of applause.

it's working to some extent but not to what i remember it used to being, on its own... i wish i had some dexamphetamine, i've taken my daily dose i'm allowed... eh

i'm also kind of disappointed/upset/annoyed at myself. someone who helped me out with drugs when i was really in need i owe money to, and i don't have any idea how to get it to them, as they weren't like usual dealers. and they are annoyed at me which i understand and i never intended for..

also witnessed a guy get removed pretty harshly from this "joint-living room" bullshit we have here. he took out a needle and injected in there - obviously they didn't like it and came storming into the room and pulled the guy off the sofa who didn't look that bad actually after he did it, maybe it was drugs or maybe he had diabetes or something and they dont want people to see him use needles... could have been a sadistic bastard.
 
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Lol they don't care what he shot up...that's trigger central for a treatment center. At my inpatient facility all the diabetics had to be injected by the nurses with the doors closed. Im surprised you have computer access there. We wren't allowed cell phones, computers, tablets, ipods and no T.V. until 5pm everyday. Luckily they were lenient during sundays so we could watch the patriots play at 1pm. Honestly at first I hated that we couldn't watch t.v. till 5pm then I really enjoyed it because it forced us to socialize and play games and stuff instead of just staring at the t.v. in between all the groups
 
Well yeah no tv and stuff till 4.30pm and in the morning (8am-9am) applies here too. We have some structured day around therapy and talking to each other, exercise and whatnot. It's relaxed because I'm not in an intensive ward, the lower one or whatever, dont get checked for stuff and are allowed to leave when we please etc. first few days were rough though - no contact with the world, I sneaked on to BL with my phone which I shouldn't have had etc. meh.

I guess it's triggering as hell... Probably shot up some gear to be honest. I've spoke to him before and he's there because that's it really. He doesn't want to be here and I guess he wants to get kicked out, not very successful though so far, he's probably strapped up in his room or been asked to leave (the latter I guess is what he wanted).
 
Lol synth, breaking bad is like a drug, I'm on season 5 too, its a great show!

Tentram what you been up to digss, I'm going to plan a trip to down under lul. I am going to move there, fuck Georgia!


I'm feeling Gucci as fuck right now, just did an hour of cardio and weight lifting. Andi met this sexy little thing at the gym today, she wants to work out with me tomorrow, who knows what that will lead to? ;)

Eating some cheezits duoz (parm and cheddar) and they are literally one of the best things I've put in my mouth, besides well, I'll leave that your imagination...
Fucking sooooo delicious, drinking green tea and smoking a cig. Spring is finally here! Chyea boi!
 
i finished the last episode of season 5... i honestly don't like where it has gone. it's lost far too many of the original characters. i won't spoil anything. but by the end of this half, it's just another show altogether. i guess they wanted that to happen, but its too radical.
 
I know what you mean, it feels like a different show! And is kind of repetitive...

I stopped watching it and moved onto the Walking Dead....this show is truely special, it is amazing!

Definitely recommend this one
 
yup.. i'm up to date on the walking dead. it's a good show as well, similar patterns as breaking bad protagonist -> antagonist main characters are featuring and they seem to get their minds bent at certain points bringing them closer to their original protagonist stage but never hold thus the character propels forwards into his dark own world. i wonder why that's so popular at the moment?
 
Well some ass hat in the UK is talking shit about me on his blog. Basically I used to a big wig at the company that used to make the software this website runs on, and when I heard we were begin bought out I left for "personal reasons". Part of those reasons begin that at the time I was putting a lot of oxycodone up my nose (it was back before the OP Oxycontins came out).

The other part was I was working for free, in line for a job, and my boss kept promoting all the people below me that I'd spent months training...which means I would have to replace those people with newbies that had to be re-trained like every 6 months so we could never finish any of the projects we were working on for the "modification community".

Anyway, came back years later and of course people were asking me questions about where I'd been. So I told 'em the true story of why I left the company (the management was pissing me off too) and about my drug use.

Well Mr. Asshat decided to turn it into "H&LSD got fired for begin a pill popper" a long with a lot of other shit that wasn't true. Though I guess the "I did twice the work that everyone else did while I was nodding out" didn't help (I worked from home, and didn't even really get paid so its not like I was doing this at my real job).

Anyway, everyone hates Mr Asshat because he's constantly trying to stir up shit. I didn't even have to get into an argument with him because about 20 people came out of the wood work and tore him a new ass hole for me. :) So that was kinda fun to watch, he's since deleted his entire website (he does it every 6 months anyway...like I said the entire community hates him).

BTW you guys are welcome because I see a ton of my code begin used here at BL...if not my code its stuff I made that has since been rolled into the actual software. :p

Didn't see my grandfather today as planned...ended up sleeping all day....and that my friends is why I shouldn't be allowed to have xanax. He's doing okay though, called Grandma a little while ago.

Hope everyone is doing well. I too am craving a nod but I won't go further than that because I know Pikachu up there (sorry can never remember your name dude) is trying to kick. Best of luck to you Pikachu! Give the bupe some more time and I'm sure it'll start doing its job soon.
 
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nice one Headphones on creating the code to create forums, I've made my own forums before using borrowed phpbb code, you probably wrote some of that too I guess.

Sucks what Mr Asshat is doing though, I say go and spike his drink with some LSD and then send him to work.
 
Haha well he messes with a friend of mine that lives like 20 miles from him constantly, I've always joked with her that if I do come and visit I'd make sure to go knock on his door and mess with him. I wouldn't have to get violent....just want to pop up and let him know that he's easy enough to find if we ever wanted to handle it "good ole boy" style (aka beat him out back with a stick xD).

I can't take credit for phpBB but I have done tech support for people running it and wrote a couple of modifications way back in the day.

Well guys I gotta go, my friends just showed up. We're off to eat pizza, smoke bud, and play some video games. Y'all be good.
 
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Well I'm going to take some more bupre tonight, 0.5mg plugged. I'm sure it's still in my system but I'm curious to how this will work out.

Just installed my new power supply and graphics card, now running crossfire HD 7850s =D Yea, it's fast graphics wise. About to redeem my code for some free games, tomb raider and the new bioshock, though bioshock isn't out yet unfortunately.
 
i finished the last episode of season 5... i honestly don't like where it has gone. it's lost far too many of the original characters. i won't spoil anything. but by the end of this half, it's just another show altogether. i guess they wanted that to happen, but its too radical.

Well the series is coming to an end; all that's been released is the first half of the last season. The writer wanted the show to take place over 5 seasons in which the viewer is rooting for the protagonist in the beginning, to despising/rooting against or having mixed feelings towards him in the last season. I'm just really curious to see what Walt's 52nd bday is all about, and am really curious about how what comes about from the cliffhanger of the last episode that's aired. I'm still really into the series and can't wait for it to start back up on 7-14-13.
 
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