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Not much better than last night. Miserable.


My boyfriend drank too much last night, and I had to practically carry a 230 lb man swaying uncontrollably 1/4 of a mile home from the bar in heels. I led him into the bathroom. He fell on me and I fell into the tub, all his weight on top of me. My neck snapped back and my head slammed against the wall. I'm almost positive I suffered a concussion. He got up and sat on the edge of the tub, unaware that I was even behind him. I got up and left him in the bathroom while he vomited all over the floor and rug. A short while later I tried to guide him to my bed but I couldn't lift him. I just cried. I finally got him to the couch, where he puked on himself and on me when I tried to put a bowl underneath him. He pushed me away, hard.. Tried yet again to carry his weight to bed. He made it to the foot of the bed and fell again and refused to let me try and lift him up onto the bed and pushed me away again. And vomited. I ended up leaving him there passed out and decided to try and sleep on the couch. I live in a studio apartment so the entire place smelled like bile.

I've spent all day sleeping (I've been barely able to keep my eyes open), with a massive migraine and horrible nausea. :(
 
modelskinny said:
Not much better than last night. Miserable.


My boyfriend drank too much last night, and I had to practically carry a 230 lb man swaying uncontrollably 1/4 of a mile home from the bar in heels. I led him into the bathroom. He fell on me and I fell into the tub, all his weight on top of me. My neck snapped back and my head slammed against the wall. I'm almost positive I suffered a concussion. He got up and sat on the edge of the tub, unaware that I was even behind him. I got up and left him in the bathroom while he vomited all over the floor and rug. A short while later I tried to guide him to my bed but I couldn't lift him. I just cried. I finally got him to the couch, where he puked on himself and on me when I tried to put a bowl underneath him. He pushed me away, hard.. Tried yet again to carry his weight to bed. He made it to the foot of the bed and fell again and refused to let me try and lift him up onto the bed and pushed me away again. And vomited. I ended up leaving him there passed out and decided to try and sleep on the couch. I live in a studio apartment so the entire place smelled like bile.

I've spent all day sleeping (I've been barely able to keep my eyes open), with a massive migraine and horrible nausea. :(
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I'm so sorry to hear about what you went through.

I'm doing just fine. :)
 
^that's terrible model :( I'd get to see a doctor about that, concussion isn't something you should try to ignore. I hope it's all ok though.

It's terrible having to watch a partner do that to themselves. Was anything said when he woke up? Does he even realize what he did?

I'm {content}. My cat is laying on my lap using my arm as a pillow and getting angry at me trying to type :)
 
modelskinny said:
Not much better than last night. Miserable.


My boyfriend drank too much last night, and I had to practically carry a 230 lb man swaying uncontrollably 1/4 of a mile home from the bar in heels. I led him into the bathroom. He fell on me and I fell into the tub, all his weight on top of me. My neck snapped back and my head slammed against the wall. I'm almost positive I suffered a concussion. He got up and sat on the edge of the tub, unaware that I was even behind him. I got up and left him in the bathroom while he vomited all over the floor and rug. A short while later I tried to guide him to my bed but I couldn't lift him. I just cried. I finally got him to the couch, where he puked on himself and on me when I tried to put a bowl underneath him. He pushed me away, hard.. Tried yet again to carry his weight to bed. He made it to the foot of the bed and fell again and refused to let me try and lift him up onto the bed and pushed me away again. And vomited. I ended up leaving him there passed out and decided to try and sleep on the couch. I live in a studio apartment so the entire place smelled like bile.

I've spent all day sleeping (I've been barely able to keep my eyes open), with a massive migraine and horrible nausea. :(
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Ugh that really sucks :( I hope he apologized when he came to? And you should really see a doctor if you think you may have a concussion, although I very much hope you don't...

I'm feeling drowsy, nostalgic, sad, overwhelmed, confused and hated. Can't really find one word that incorporates all of those.
Would have been our 4 year anniversary with my ex today, needless to say a lot of painful memories are coming back to me.

kace - I've tried melatonin many times but it just doesn't work for me :( will definitely ask my doctor about propanolol, thanks a lot.
 
I'm Craving. Hard.

Also stressing like hell. I screwed up and indulged a couple weeks ago, the issue being I'm on probation. Last I checked I was still pissing dirty, and I have an appointment in two days. I have another dipstick test, gonna check again in a little bit. If I'm dirty come Wednesday there are no second chances, back to prison. Which, I'm willing to accept my accountability, just mad at myself for being so stupid.
 
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Toz said:
Maybe Propanolol could help, it helps people with PTSD that have nightmares (and other symptoms ofc) and it's probably alot better as a long term solution than benzos are.
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It does. I have a script for it. One thing to note, though, Pagey - younger (under 35) women have a tendency toward naturally low blood pressure. Propanolol is great in that it stops the physical symptoms of anxiety, but definitely don't get out of bed or rise from a seated position too quickly until you know what it does. Slowly! I had to cut my doses in half or else I passed out. Shrink explained it as 'orthostatic hypotension'. It's normal. Propanolol is also used to treat stage fright in public speakers and performers.

Trip, hope the dreadies worked out well, pics pls :)

I'm better today. It's still so hard to think about someone I loved and trusted deeply rotting in jail, even though he most definitely deserves to be there. :(

*edit* Psychlone Jack, I don't know the nature of your offense (was it drugs if I may ask?) but I don't believe in incarcerating good people. I hope things work out in your favor. I don't think smoking a doobie is a crime.

And I can say this about now-former bestie: he is alleged to have committed a violent assault, possibly with a weapon in a surprise attack on a woman smaller than he is. The woman was taken by ambulance with serious head injuries and an open laceration. She's expected to be OK, but she needed emergency surgery. She pressed charges and he will either plead guilty or go to trial in front of a judge. I expect he will be convicted.
 
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Ive had a long weekend and im pretty tired, but things in life just keep looking up.
 
gotta piss!
been holding it for over an hour as I got a drop for drug. only about 30 min til I can pee!
 
^lol

Very much relieved. I'd really been dreading today as it marks what would have been our 4-year anniversary with my ex, but turns out it went perfectly fine. In fact, I barely thought about him at all. Sure sign that I'm FINALLY getting over him so that's pretty wonderful :)
 
Pagey said:
^lol

Very much relieved. I'd really been dreading today as it marks what would have been our 4-year anniversary with my ex, but turns out it went perfectly fine. In fact, I barely thought about him at all. Sure sign that I'm FINALLY getting over him so that's pretty wonderful :)
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:::::hugs Pagey:::: <3
 
^That's awesome to hear. :)

I'm extremely relieved as well. I've been waiting for my student loans to come through, knowing that I need to pay my enrollment fee for health insurance and wondering how the fuck I was gonna pay for it. I swallowed my pride last night and called my parents and they did end up coming to the rescue. I'm paying them back as soon as I get my loan money, but yayyy. I'm finally insured again and can see my therapist. :)
 
I can't think of a proper word to fully encompass my state of being at the moment. But it's not good. At all.

The best I can come up with... miserable...
 
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