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Snoo version 6 - Shiny Spring-Summertime Snoo!

See, beaches and seaweed? It's a blessing. To say nowt of the seals. And eight's just jammy.

Not that I don't like the sprawling urban traffic-jam that is Manchester, but it's at least a twenty -minute journey if you want to be surrounded by things that aren't grey. :)
 
Very funny.

I suppose "See; beaches and seaweed" would have removed the ambiguity. That's what I meant.

Fuck off. I do this on the fly and on drugs. ;)

I hate it when I get edited / corrected competently and justifiably. You're just bitter because women can't be poets or summat.
 
I send him the sea mod telepathically every morn Marmz...don't fret, the salt gets in his hair and works with the Bryclreem just fine lol

Thats why its erect. true story
 
^^ hah! Probably helps it get that Emin textured look to it!

SamhainGrim said:
Very funny.

I suppose "See; beaches and seaweed" would have removed the ambiguity. That's what I meant.

Fuck off. I do this on the fly and on drugs. ;)

I hate it when I get edited / corrected competently and justifiably.
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you also just fisted in another thread, rather than firsted I think. It probably means that whatever's been shoved up your arse this evening is doing its job ;p

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'kin 'ell ... just browsing a few threads and tonight's postings are littered with your abominations. It's probably a dickie keyboard or summat, so let's draw a line under it and let it never be discussed again, 'cos it's rather destabilising
 
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Marmalade said:
you also just fisted in another thread, rather than firsted I think. It probably means that whatever's been shoved up your arse this evening is doing its job ;p
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Go and burn youself, witch. :D <3

My typing's going to get worse. I just plugged some MXE. Beautiful.

I feel like I just picked up from Spring!
 
We're a tad late on the autumn equinox, but hey mother natures allowed her bad week so yep babe - tonight is auspicious <3

Do you know on one of my projects the buddhist lama set an auspicious date for something to be done, I had kittens cause concrete, tides and planning permission etc etcdont work like that - I tried my best but I failed the lama :(

this is a true story. he is ok with me tho lol
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really nice man <3
 
I'm not a keen critic of others' approach to addressing their own spiritual needs, but I prefer to go direct to Kali when the shit hits the fan.

One-on-one, like, and she's usually pretty reasonable. Maybe its the eyes.

Brilliant photo though, gotta say.
 
He looks like a lovely chap Kate. Beautiful laughter lines.


Brilliant for getting the tax rebate Spade. I got one this time last year. What are you going to spend it on?


My Snoo is coming home and finding the kitchen cleaned beautifully by P and potatos peeled for tea. xxx<3
 
SamhainGrim said:
My typing's going to get worse. I just plugged some MXE. Beautiful.
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SamhainGrim said:
I'm not a keen critic of others' approach to addressing their own spiritual needs, but I prefer to go direct to Kali when the shit hits the fan.

One-on-one, like, and she's usually pretty reasonable. Maybe its the eyes.

Brilliant photo though, gotta say.
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You didn't plug that much MXE though did you?
 
Well hes chatting to Kali.^

In your new business Spade?

I have to say I squandered mine somewhat.. I did get a shed though. I'm shit scared the bailiff fuckers are going to dismantle it though. :/
 
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Back in this thread. Don't worrry, I'll try to be brief. Or at least hide any formless waffle.

Basically a key to the transition from a cycle that's been happening for the last seven (slight fib), ten (getting there) or whatever years, not really drug-related or mental health related but with both playing their part in helping / hindering / pissing on any progress, clicked into place today.

Not going into the specifics as they're both boring and embarrassing but they've more or less shaped my (gloomy) outlook for years and excuses were either going to get more and more ridiculous or run out. Same thing? Kind of. Depends how creative you're feeling.

Something so small, so ridiculous in the grand scheme of things, nowhere near the troubles of a sleeping baby in Beswick, let alone a boy soldier in the Congo. Yet its done. And while the overriding sensation is disbelief rather than elation or relief, something really insignificant but really important happened today, so I posted here.

To the future... :)
 
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You're really in to her though ay?

I really fucking empathise with that Sam. You want her too much though I reckon. Until you stop wanting people, in that kind of way, they are just a bit too out of reach. Then when you give up reaching they suddenly start firing after you like you're some kind of demi god or somethink.

My two penneth there chuck. Its yours whether you like it or not ha. :D
 
YellowPolkaDotHalo said:
You're really in to her though ay?

I really fucking empathise with that Sam. You want her too much though I reckon. Until you stop wanting people, in that kind of way, they are just a bit too out of reach. Then when you give up reaching they suddenly start firing after you like you're some kind of demi god or somethink.
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Nah, there's none of that here.

Don't forget we've not been together for over a year now and our relationship was very dysfunctional 'experiment' gone wrong, and that's disregarding my boozing, manic phases and eventual breakdown. Though thank you for reading.

I'd almost forgotten about that very-personal rant, but it was kinda 'cleansing', at the risk of coming over all new age.

Like I said, it's all about the future now. She'll be part of that future, but will no longer play the central role she's played, both as girlfriend and unpaid semi-carer. Which was a role that was unsustainable and was threatening to ruin the bond I hope we'll always have.

She's done a lot for me, yeah, but as a girlfriend she was totally rubbish. Or at least very incompatible emotionally, sexually and otherwise. Brought out the worst in me and reinforced a lot of negativity and self-doubt too.

Incapable of self-criticism and all-too-capable of being self-centred beyond belief. Everybody has their flaws of course, but I need someone who'll help me rebuild my confidence and sense of direction, not chip away at it. Not that she did so consciously (at least not the whole time), but the fact remains she did.

No amount of 'talking it through' (as if!) would ever get the message across. Any criticism was an attempt at 'manipulation', and that was just the tip of the iceberg - the iciest iceberg I think I've I've ever hit.

The love of my life she certainly wasn't. The most troublesome one, maybe. I blame the excessive proportion of Nordic genes, I do. ;)

Anyway, we're going all deep-personal again and none of it is all that relevant to my snoo. The sentiment's appreciated by the way, but from now on there's no looking back. Feels good.
 
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I don't see the 'too much' thing from what he wrote Yella ... into her, yes, without doubt.

What gives the clues about too much?
 
StoneHappyMonday said:
Because true epiphany will/does feel good, and do good. I wish you luck. Really.
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Unless there's a punchline due, then thank you very much for that.

And yeah, it was like waking up to a new world this morning. One where the horizon isn't a sight to be scared of but a host of potential opportunities. So much so that I'm annoying all my colleagues with my positivity.

Next stop: functioning adult? Well, give it time. :)

Marmalade said:
What gives the clues about too much?
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I think she's totally misunderstood the post but in fairness you know quite a bit more of the story. But yeah, the point is our lives are now less intertwined and codependent, for anybody who a) missed it and is b) remotely bothered about my state of wellbeing.
 
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shhush

lol not you sam.. that was for her ^

Edit: I am joking. Let me just think Marmalade.

Btw Sam do you want more analysis here?

Edit: I might have misunderstood it you're right there. I really empathise with what you are saying there but I could be projecting my own stuff on to the post.
 
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