iamthetalker
Bluelighter
To dive in again, or not?
So, last night Muffin and I (along with two friends) took some 2C-D. (Around 30mg for them, 50mg for me. I was looking for something special.) It was greatly enjoyable, arguably a +++ experience, but at the same time I feel I came out of it empty-handed. It's the oddest discordance I have ever experienced. I always come out of a trip the next day a) having gained something (personal insight, a new look on life, appreciation for natural beauty, etc.), b) thinking "That was fun and relaxing, what a good night," or c) both. I'm left with none of that after last night. I remember very clearly enjoying it during the experience (which is why I'd still qualify it as a +++), as I'd never really ventured that deep into psychedelics for fear of leaving Muffin behind--she refuses to go beyond low recreational doses because of her anxiety/past--but today I regard it no different than if I had gotten stumblingly drunk and managed to enjoy the evening without throwing up before going to bed. I feel almost as though I've been seeking something lately, something I usually get from psychedelics--though what that "something" is I can't be certain--but have not found recently, even the first time we tripped again in ~7 months a few weeks ago.
I don't know if it's the substance(s), or the people involved, or what. Neither makes much sense to me as I never trip with people I don't like and can pretty easily ignore someone that is annoying me and occupy myself with something else (although last night one friend was a bit of a downer because she did not interact with us at all). I've done 2C-D plenty of times before and always came out of it happy that I did it, and at that time. And knowing myself, I'm shocked that I'm not happier/more fascinated by how deep I went last night. Perhaps it's because I wasn't as clear-headed as I am most of the time, though 2C-D has always been head-heavier for me than 2C-C, LSD, or mushrooms, and at this point I'm just vainly musing. Everybody says set and setting are the most important factors that influence a trip, but if the trip was good can they have an influence on the post-trip integration?? Yesterday I was almost certain I did not want to do 2C-D, but by the time we actually dropped I [thought I'd] convinced myself it would be enjoyable and even managed to get a little excited about it. (I don't feel depressed or anything by the way, just a little tired from only about 6.5 hours of sleep before work, but even that isn't too unusual. I always recover well from drugs, thankfully. *knock wood*)
What are the group's opinions? Could my anticipation from yesterday have carried over and turned into disappointment today, even though the trip itself didn't feel disappointing? Should I submit to my craving and take the 25C-NBOMe I wanted so badly to try yesterday? Or do you think I may be looking for a more specific substance, like LSD, mushrooms, or 2C-E (which is at the top of my list of psychedelics to try, but have yet to locate)? I kinda feel like I'm seeking an LSD-like experience, but damn if Lucy isn't mysteriously scarce in my area.
O-pin-ions? Also, only tangentially related but I watched this twice back-to-back last night for many lulz. Why does he seran wrap his remote??
So cheap!
So, last night Muffin and I (along with two friends) took some 2C-D. (Around 30mg for them, 50mg for me. I was looking for something special.) It was greatly enjoyable, arguably a +++ experience, but at the same time I feel I came out of it empty-handed. It's the oddest discordance I have ever experienced. I always come out of a trip the next day a) having gained something (personal insight, a new look on life, appreciation for natural beauty, etc.), b) thinking "That was fun and relaxing, what a good night," or c) both. I'm left with none of that after last night. I remember very clearly enjoying it during the experience (which is why I'd still qualify it as a +++), as I'd never really ventured that deep into psychedelics for fear of leaving Muffin behind--she refuses to go beyond low recreational doses because of her anxiety/past--but today I regard it no different than if I had gotten stumblingly drunk and managed to enjoy the evening without throwing up before going to bed. I feel almost as though I've been seeking something lately, something I usually get from psychedelics--though what that "something" is I can't be certain--but have not found recently, even the first time we tripped again in ~7 months a few weeks ago.
I don't know if it's the substance(s), or the people involved, or what. Neither makes much sense to me as I never trip with people I don't like and can pretty easily ignore someone that is annoying me and occupy myself with something else (although last night one friend was a bit of a downer because she did not interact with us at all). I've done 2C-D plenty of times before and always came out of it happy that I did it, and at that time. And knowing myself, I'm shocked that I'm not happier/more fascinated by how deep I went last night. Perhaps it's because I wasn't as clear-headed as I am most of the time, though 2C-D has always been head-heavier for me than 2C-C, LSD, or mushrooms, and at this point I'm just vainly musing. Everybody says set and setting are the most important factors that influence a trip, but if the trip was good can they have an influence on the post-trip integration?? Yesterday I was almost certain I did not want to do 2C-D, but by the time we actually dropped I [thought I'd] convinced myself it would be enjoyable and even managed to get a little excited about it. (I don't feel depressed or anything by the way, just a little tired from only about 6.5 hours of sleep before work, but even that isn't too unusual. I always recover well from drugs, thankfully. *knock wood*)
What are the group's opinions? Could my anticipation from yesterday have carried over and turned into disappointment today, even though the trip itself didn't feel disappointing? Should I submit to my craving and take the 25C-NBOMe I wanted so badly to try yesterday? Or do you think I may be looking for a more specific substance, like LSD, mushrooms, or 2C-E (which is at the top of my list of psychedelics to try, but have yet to locate)? I kinda feel like I'm seeking an LSD-like experience, but damn if Lucy isn't mysteriously scarce in my area.
O-pin-ions? Also, only tangentially related but I watched this twice back-to-back last night for many lulz. Why does he seran wrap his remote??
NSFW:
So cheap!
. If only I knew where to find it...
That could get dangerous! Thanks for reminding me not to fuck with zolpidem!
