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Goin to the beach with my gf and her sister, gotta pick up train tickets while im down there (yeah sounds wierd right? Pick up train tickets @ the beach) but thats the only place that issues em around here otherwise i gotta take a 40 min busride.. Fuck that Still in the glums a bit but really gotta try and paint that smile on i dont wanna cause any upset today. Wish me luck folks imoa need it, this place i have to go is fucking gunna be PACKED fulla fatass tourist assholes with thier fatass stupid kids in there stupid gas guzzeeling 4wd's oh the joys of holidays.
 
You will be fine, it will o you good. Get meditating and practise breathing exercises.

I hope you have fun, tis weather is killing me, been offered to be taken to Spain but I am not allowed to travel in my condition, the altitude and/or boat trip over will kill me. Not that my drs aren't having a right good try at that. It is the governments answer to the population and debt crisis, kill off the poor, infirm and elderly...totalitarianism springs to mind? The y may as way just start pumping zyklon b into the water system....
 
Todays mission for a good day.. total fucking fail, back to the point of going fucking nuts. It always has to be something i turn my back for 10 mins and theres a shitfight of some kind or another or attitude or trying to play the sympothy card. Wonder why sometimes i do all these things for her then right after i get shat on in the face after the reward. Fucking sick of it. Hope everyone elses day is goin betta than mine.
 
I can't say mine will be much better.

Calm down and try to eat, getting all riled up will make your stomach worse Hun, I have eaten twice in 14 days and have had to really force it down when I have even though it has caused much more pain. I need to get more complan I have none left anditnis expensive :S dr best sort me a script out with better meds and food replacement asap before my mum ends up going tiger style on them ;)
 
goddamn chain smoking seems to be the order atm bad due to the nature of my lungs.. eatings out of the question for the time being, real messed up...Feel on the verge of a complet nervous breakdown. cant add much more.
 
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goddamn chain smoking seems to be the order atm bad due to the nature of my lungs.. eatings out of the question for the time being, real messed up...Feel on the verge of a complet nervous breakdown. cant add much more.
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Mate I'm sorry to hear you're struggling this week :( I hope today is a much better day for you. How are you feeling? Take care okay? <3
 
Today seems like a rough day for many. Half my office is either sick or on edge, and it looks like more than a few of us in TDSland are having a rough go too. Much strength to my brethren and sistren here-- tomorrow will be better. If there's going to be a bad day in the week, it surely won't be hump day, will it?

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Hope you can take it easy S.M.F.G. I've also taken up heavy smoking...looking forward to the day where it no longer remains part of my routine. A time for everything, I suppose.
 
Sad times atm, ive been hurt yet again by someone i love.. I got the train tix but today so been out of the house, leaving here friday coming back saturday, if i had the $$$ id stay up there on the beach for a couple of days but its impossible atm wil have to tr for jan. I'l be glad to get out of this fuckingplace for 24 hrs even though im heading to another shithole, il try make the best of it:\
THeres nothing i hate more than being lied to, goddamn trust issues are bad enough to catch said person fucking lie to me lookingme in the eyes...:!
I got love for this one but shes bein shady and was plain caught out by me yesterday over stupid shit if it were innocent... which leaves me dissalusioned as to how much of what has been lies.
Fuck there i go buggering the social again... whats every1 else upto? i plan on little, she said call me if u want to see me but i just dont know, im lonley without her but have some big trust issues atm. So i dunno if its a good idea:|
 
So I finally just got out of the emergency room. I went in for chest pain which I had for a week but got more painful last night. My blood pressure was 160/90 so they put me right away into a room and then I had an ekg. Showed my heart was beating really fast. So then they took chest xrays and gave me ativan and three advils then took tons of blood. Ended up it was probably all anxiety so they prescribed me more of the benzos but told me they're very addictive and he doesn't like giving them out. Also they're checking my thyroid as well (?) I think.... Anyways crazy night and I'm not too happy I got put on a benzo. I mean I need it but addiction wise /: it will suck.

Lol smoking crack probably didn't help my chest pains but luckily nothing was said about that and I didn't even bring it up. They asked if I smoked though and I'm like occasionally my nurse was like you have to quit blah blah blah. And my mom was over there agreeing even though she's been smoking since she was 13 smh.
 
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shit dude i hope you're feeling better soon, my heart always has tons of pressure on it from my medical conditions so i know how you feel. wishing you a speedy recovery.

tonight i am going to try and eat some cantonese food and chill with a film if the seizures stay under control.

hope everyone has a good night :D
 
Mmmm. Cantonese food = teh yummeh. I just had a vegan buffet with a couple of friends; mostly pan-Indonesian fare. My only complaint: I'd love if they would give even just a small takeout container. The buffet's not cheap, but I'm really trying to not overeat right now, and I just loves me some leftovers.

xstayfadedx-- I used to have really messed up blood pressure due to my anxiety. Once, when I went to donate blood, they actually refused me because I had an insane BP. It was something like 190/75. General anxiety on top of social anxiety on top of white coat syndrome. My record was actually around 220/80 in my late teens. I'm probably going to be in for some troubles when I get older...

Thankfully that's mostly behind me. Gave blood a couple of weeks ago, and hit <140 systolic in a clinic for the first time in well over a decade. If I'm at home it's usually closer to 125. I figure that once I get properly in shape again, I can get it even lower. Here's hoping-- I need to make up for many years of horribly high BP.
 
^^ Good to hear man :)


Went to see my baby nephew get baptised this morning, he was SO good!! Didn't cry or make a fuss at all! But, he is a very well-tempered baby so I'd be surprised if he did make a fuss :)

Religious ceremonies are so bizarre to me... (absolutely no disrespect to anyone who is religious, of course!). And what is even more bizarre to me is that out of me and my 4 siblings, 3 are atheist, 1 is christian and the other 1 is catholic. Both of my parents are christian, my father particularly so. How did we all end up with such different beliefs??
(not that christianity and catholicism are very different...but, you know what I mean)
 
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^ lol, Woog you are a gem. <3 :D


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^^ Good to hear man :)


Went to see my baby nephew get baptised this morning, he was SO good!! Didn't cry or make a fuss at all! But, he is a very well-tempered baby so I'd be surprised if he did make a fuss :)
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Ah cool. Poor little mite.:)<3

...on the down side of him being such a good tempered little thing though; sure it would have been entertaining if he screamed for Oz and puked on the priest! ;)



Randomness :)
 
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