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You Right now V3 - A new Dawn, A new Bromance

The crack hermit is unexpectedly going out...into Storm Dylan
Got to walk the long way around rather than through the woods as I don't want to be one of 'those' people tragically crushed to death by a tree on NYE
(Though preferable to being one of 'those' people found dead surrounded by drug 'paraphernalia' to be fair)

Hope you don't shit yourself again Sadie...get well soon <3
 
Just chugged down 25g of cacao powder in milk. Fuck me, I assumed loads and loads of chocolate would just be a total treat. Clearly not.

Out for a buzz though, eh?
 
Omfg, how does anybody just do BL on their phone?
You bl phone people, I SALUTE you!

Well, I was on my phone downstairs, looking for a 'What you're watching now' thread in EADD and got balls deep (5 pages in) & couldn't find it (though that isn't to say it wasn't there & I missed it) so came to this thread to confess (& because it was what I was doing RIGHT NOW (that was then, RIGHT NOW I'm over-explaining what I was doing RIGHT NOW about half an hour ago)
I tried to write the post from my phone & it posted half way through my meanderings, then deleted when I tried to edit

So... I'm upstairs on my laptop now...I just wanted to confess that I'm rather obsessed with 'Police UK: Bodycam Cops' on 'Dave' at the moment

I don't watch any TV live - I record everything so I can fast forward through the adverts & not have to sit down for longer than half hour at a time
I have films, documentaries, drama series, but all I go to on my recorded list every night when I eventually get to sit down, is 'Bodycam Cops'
There's even a fucking hipster cop for gods sake

That is all
 
Just got given some extra pain meds by my doc, although the pharmacy screwed up, gave me 24x10mg oxy IRs when its meant to be 56. Not having that, of course, but got the phone call waiting for my doc about getting on memantine, so if it isn't fixed before then it should be then.

Hopefully........hoping to fuck this is the day I finally get that memantine script that I've been after for years.
With a little bribery of a sort, and over half a decade of keeping on about it, I reckon they've realized that I am not going to shut up about it and go away. But, my personal assigned GP has finally given me the go ahead basically and just wanted to tell a specialist, given its usually an alzheimer's drug and I don't have alzheimer's disease. But the stuff IS life-changing for me, and does about 6-7 different and all useful things for me, its less killing two birds with one stone, but finding a flock and cutting loose with a bunch of autocannon firing raufoss shells, or just launching a thermobaric warhead right into the middle of the buggers=D

Memantine is..well if god himself was a drug chef, his archangels would have blown the glassware personally and sent the heavenly host to deliver it, god'd be in the lab and jebus would be making with the stirring and handing out the celestial gas-masks and goggles=D

My GP has agreed he wants me on it, after I explained to him what it does, how it does it, and the number of things it does for me, and told him I have a great deal of experience with it. A little explaining binding kinetics, etc. and a few other things like its initial memory impairing phase due to nicotinic alpha7 type acetylcholine receptor antagonism, before adaptation occurs and a reverse-tolerance with alpha7 NAChR upregulation causing further nootropic effects, its effects on nerve pain that I was given gabapentin for but which did sweet fuck all on a bike, and which opiates don't touch, memantine more or less lets off a tactical nuke, right up its ass ring. Brain fog vanishes, opioid tolerance already present gets stamped on and further tolerance acquisition is cracked down on, and HARD. The only thing it seems like it can't do, is go rob a bank for me and bring me back a fortune in gold bloody bars.

That, I'd have to attend to personally if I ever were so inclined=D


Hope your feeling better now Sadie darlin' *hugs* (carefully and with your arse pointed towards the face of the nearest pig)
 
Sick of going to shitty depressing nightclubs because of social obligations such as friends' birthdays. You think you're happy until you enter those cattle markets.

I can listen to shit music at home for free, and deal with shite people at work out of necessity.
 
Just pulled an on site weekend shift after eight lazy days on holiday.

Fuck me I wanted to insult people/hit people/quit.

Ultimately, I smiled and got on with it and am home with a spliff and 5mg diaz heh.
 
Lying on my sofa underneath a cosy blanket, spangled on beautiful MDMA and listening to 90s trance. Bliss...


...and fuckin gagging for fag, but all I've got is this bastard e-pen :sus:
 
https://youtu.be/BjT9ZG0X6xA

YouTube just reccomended this, it reminds me of the time I stuck three pills up my arse. I just remember when I came round with the vague notion that I'd just spent the past few hours of my life totally off my dish. The music sounded like electricity and it was this track.

The way my jaw was going I was half expecting N Power to pop round and ask me to power the national grid.
 
drug seekers miraculously usually get well immediately after getting the script.... only to have a relapse after the last refill... you know; slip and fall, working in yard, domestic dispute... They never follow thru on the treatment plan EXCEPT when the refill appointment is... or they are out of town and need the script refilled and they call the dr office and he writes it. My neighbors wife had no idea that her husband was hooked on xanax until the pharmacy, YES THE PHARMACY called her and asked WTF is going on here... rut row... your binge has just ended... in patient rehab, 60 days.
 
Lonely.

Recovery is hard. Especially when you are as adverse to 12 step shit as I am.

Please don't be lonely; you've got your good self to keep you company when you get comfortable with that & there's more than one way to skin a cat as they say (ie, the 12 step shit isn't for everyone & isn't the only way to recover - says hypocritical me who spent years in recovery clean & sober, worked the steps, still credit them for changing the way I think & act in life, yet have returned to the drug & alcohol crutches - apart from heroin though thank fuck)

PM me if you want a loneliness antidote (re a load of well-meaning waffle) and keep on recovering <3
 
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