Hey so after benzo withdrawal my back has been fucking killing me. It's cause I've been skipping yoga though and I suppose all the stress.
I'm going to be trying CBD oil pretty soon not only to try and cut back on the grass as it is controlling me if I have to go to a dispensary daily and smoke all of my weed no matter how much I spent that day except for one bong rip for the morning so I don't freak out. It would be real nice if I could find a dose of cannabis oil to take in the morning, that would hold me over for the day, and then only smoke at night. If I can get myself on a benzo taper after taking a plethora of messed up and different benzos and stabilize a little I am pretty sure I can do this too.
I am going to try pure CBD, and pure THC, and combine them in different ratios. I notice a 70% indica and a 30% sativa plant is miserable to me. They just put me to sleep it's so damn annoying, I need pure indica. Weed is such a finicky drug but that allows it to be used for so many purposes. That 70/30 would be great for someone else but it makes me feel retarded and depressed instead of focussed and happy like the pure indica hindu kush. I've noticed this consistently among different strains it's worth exploring. The effects can make it like multiple different drugs.
I'm just assuming at least some of you have tried medical cannabis for this. It helps me with every single symptom in some way except I get depressed if I use it too much. Anxious if I don't use it enough. So yeah if one strain of weed doesn't work they actually have drastically different effects. I have sworn off 70/30's lol it's trial and error. I like pure indica because it helps with my adult ADHD unless it's recreational. Then tropical sativa all the way.
I personally believe I developed that ADHD-like symptoms (not diagnosed but I have friends with it I know I have symptoms of it) - I feel that they came out because I couldn't concentrate for so long due to the pain. So I forgot how to concentrate, same with the panic attacks, and above all, the depression. All of that absolutely damaged my IQ. I waited 2 years before even starting treatment (I had to, for a specialist) and I was left alone with those issues during that time period. I had what I would refer to as a psychotic break and I've never been the same. My friend was saying it almost sounds like PTSD. I have to wait 2 years to get into a psychiatrist as well (actually, they won't even put me on a waiting list unless I threaten suicide or something) so I am thinking of paying for a psychologist but I'd probably end up wasting weed money and getting into a very serious confrontation. Borderline folk are notoriously difficult in therapy.
Yeah I'd love sleepy time tea I have chamomile should start drinking it if I get 4 hour sleeps most nights, around that much. It became the standard so I don't really notice anymore but I think that might be contributing to how depressed I am.