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that's a good reason to keep on going, man
I think about that most days
good luck, its good to have you around
I think about that most days
good luck, its good to have you around
the only reason i'm glad they saved my life is the fact that they didn't have to lose me i know they would have been devastated
I hope everyone is hanging in there. I've been feeling pretty low lately. I've never done it before but my mind keeps turning to self harming. I just want to hurt myself/don't care about my well being. I think I'd be too scared to do it though because if people found out I was like this it would be too much to deal with
the only reason i'm glad they saved my life is the fact that they didn't have to lose me i know they would have been devastated
I hope everyone is hanging in there. I've been feeling pretty low lately. I've never done it before but my mind keeps turning to self harming. I just want to hurt myself/don't care about my well being. I think I'd be too scared to do it though because if people found out I was like this it would be too much to deal with
i just applied at the local junior college in the culinary arts i'm pretty excited maybe this will give me some lust for life and not be so suicidal
To be honest CH I'm not comfortable talking about these things with anyone I know in real life. It's all about keeping a good face, I couldn't imagine talking about this stuff in real life. Thanks a lot for your offer & concern, I will PM you later today. I need to get out of the house.Why don't you reach out to some friends/family? You can always PM me if you would like.
The only thing that's kept me going at times is the thought that my mum has already lost her husband, parents, her closest brothers and sisters. I can't let her lose her son also. She doesn't deserve that. Sometimes reasons like that are enough. They get us through the darkest patches and keep us going, hopefully long enough to get past them.
This is similar to me. I just couldn't do that to my siblings.
You know where this is coming from Eric? Is it a kind of lesser of two evils thing compared to a suicidal instinct, or something different you think?
Anyways, be strong guys. Lots of us suffering of late, we can get through this. There are better days out there, if we can only hold on long enough to find them. Keep on reaching out.
To be honest CH I'm not comfortable talking about these things with anyone I know in real life. It's all about keeping a good face, I couldn't imagine talking about this stuff in real life. Thanks a lot for your offer & concern, I will PM you later today. I need to get out of the house.
The most rewarding and interesting real lives are the ones with the most challenges and hardships in them. Sometimes we don't realize this and lose sight of what we are struggling through all of this for.
I'm sick and tired of my miserable existence. I long for human affection but I just don't feel like I belong.. anywhere. I hope the ones here who care about me won't miss me too much because today I just want to cease to exist completely. I give up.
i guess i'm here because this sort of thing is accepted and because of that i am feeling very free to talk about my own thoughts at the moment. i am feeling very suicidal at the moment and there is a huge conflict within myself. the fact that i have a deep feeling that is scarily pushing me to do it. the feeling actually proposes the fact that i should do it and it has escalated more and more the past month. today is a bad day. i am however going to go out in the back garden and do some writing just to give myself some time more on this planet. i was just on the phone to my brother. i can't bare to talk to my family when i am feeling like this because i automatically burst into tears. i don't want to hurt them but my action (if it ever happens) won't be to hurt them but it will be a very personal decision because i actually don't want to be on this planet anymore. strangely it feels like a mutual agreement with myself but it is not myself that would want to kill itself. it feels like a total different entity is giving me the go ahead. i just feel like i am a walking contradictory towards life. i think the only thing that will ever truly save me after years of torment is close intimacy with someone else. i have a lot to offer and can actually be happy, i just can't remember the last time i was truly happy. i don't know anymore but for some reason suicide is becoming more and more realistic everyday.
i wish i could off myself without anyone caring