Where I am at now.
Let me give it a go...currently I order 40 to 50 Grams of tianeptine every two weeks and manage to consume all of it before my next shipment arrives. I have one small dose of tianeptine sitting in a parachute to my left and a good 48 hours until more arrives. Thus, the tia withdrawal will be knocking on my door soon and I cut down so much that I didn't sleep last night already. Work the next few days as well.
I am out of the sober house. Moved into a friend's place a few months back, but at the end of this month her lease is up and it's looking like I'll be moving back to the Northwest.
Anyway, tia has basically been a mantience drug this entire time, but if you do that math I am taking upwards of 5 Grams a day. Insane. When I run out the WD is no joke and nothing weak can remotely touch it. Kratom, nope. Even lope? Nope. Yes, I've attempted to fall back on lope to stave off these WDs, but I get nothing. No matter how big a dose I try. I gave up on it. I haven't had lope do anything for me since tia entered my system. It'll be tooth and nail the next couple nights/work days.
Do I ever feel happy anymore? Not really. I have a whole new demon to document here.... Don't be like me, kids.
There is hope.
There is always hope.
Skodeo knows that, for some like himself, you can do hard opiates for years and try to wean off with lope or tianeptine or even kratom and find that you're still constantly stuck in the cycle of addiction. Honestly, I can't imagine life with or without opiates....the jumping off place as they say in AA...AND HE WILL KNOW MISERY AS FEW DO.