This is my 1st response after finally making it thru about 300 replies so far. Wow! Did I say Wow! So much repeating and over and over! Groundhog Day Anyone! First I am on Suboxone it has helped save my life! I've had 7 surgeries on my body so far. I have made it up to the ladder of Opiates all the way to fentynal. Benzos and Sleeping pills. Not all at once. Underlying conditions include: PTSD, OCD, Depression, and grew up without parents. I have been in counseling and groups for over 6 yrs. straight. I take Zoloft to help. No more opiates I said. I took the lopermide route, but it scared me with all the potential side effects. That said, "How on God's green earth is my man Skodeo going thru what he does? Something does not compute! The constant repeating, "Groundhog Day!" He's afraid of strike 3? Taking all these multiple substances with very little quality control is Strike "3" your out! I am baffled that his parents who have spent all this money helping would not help him the right way with tried and true medications? The enormous damage to his body? No way shape or form should you be chasing every step of the way. Without a true plan there is no coming back i hate so say. What is the end game? You have made a lot of people rich I see. Something is way off here. You don't have any help from Family,work or friends? Whats this GF stuff? How can you keep a GF? You said you have a on line shopping addiction. What are you buying? it would seem all you spend your money on is wishful thinking. Plus your sleep could be helped with melantonin. How can you be happy and ok and then a disaster? That doesn't make sense to me either. Plus getting your deliveries at your half way house and you said sometimes they check? You must get 5 or more deliveries a week? That would be a major red flag! Sorry if this is all true. but I am completely blown away in so many ways! No disrespect but this reminds me so much of a Twilight Zone " Series!