Funkadelica, I absolutely agree with your statement about this compounds ability to help Socially Anxious people kind of learn how interact with other life forms by realizing the things you have in common with other humans as opposed to just focusing on how you're different from everyone else - which I'd wager to say that most of us Arylcyclohexylamine heads ARE quite different and unique, but what I'm beginning to realize is that, our strangeness is here for the benefit of everyone. I view this compound as my Philosophical Learning Tool, as well as my Depression/Psychiatric Medication. Being an Opiate addict for 5 years to the extent that I was left my brain extremely Bi-Polar, and Schizophrenic as well - to the point where I was straight up AFRAID of my fellow man if I was not on Heroin. MXE has helped me re-train my brain to realize that although I'm weird and not everyone is going to like or understand me, THERE ARE MORE PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD THAT ARE GOING TO GET WHAT I'M ABOUT AND END UP LIKING ME THAN I THOUGHT when I was on Heroin. It wasn't ME that people didn't want to be around, IT WAS THE HEROIN! My perpetual Opiate use was due to the fact that, I felt I needed the Opiates to be this toned down, mellower version of myself - which isn't really the true me, and I felt that I NEEDED to do this to find my place in society, to find where I belong...........when in reality, I've now found where I belong thanks to MXE and it was not where I thought I was supposed to be AT ALL. All I ever needed to find Love and Acceptance from those around me was to Re-Discover who I TRULY AM and Discover exactly what benefits I have to offer those around me. There are PLENTY of hard working humans in this world - but one thing our society needs is a dose of FLAVOR, people not scared to live their life as they see fit and be WHO THEY TRULY ARE WITHOUT FEAR as long as it doesn't infringe on the rights of our fellow humans. Our world is actually getting pretty fucking cool these days.....age old Philosophies that are out of date are FINALLY being discarded - and I WANT to be around to make sure they STAY THAT WAY. The human race could be something truly fucking AMAZING if we all learn how to use Information and Technology together to build NEW RELATIONSHIPS with one another, and it's all just starting to happen, I see it daily - and for me Personally, a large part of my desire to GIVE BACK to my fellow humans and to Society in general COMES FROM TAKING MXE. What people don't realize, and it's something I love to explain to my fellow drug takers who prefer the Rollier side of Psychededlics for their Understanding and Love Education about humanity - yeah, I said education, because I view EVERY Psychedelic as a Teaching Class in How the Fuck to be A Human Being. I've learned valuable lessons from MDMA, and MDA like compounds, but there is one thing that I HATE about them......The Happiness and Joy that I feel when I'm on them FEELS SO FAKE to me, it's like, I know that I feel SUPER good right then and want to be nice to everybody, but I'm one of those people that as soon as I come down from a Roll, I just want to be alone and go back to Withdrawing myself from society, which is the exact opposite of what I was trying to accomplish by taking the drug in the first place.
MXE is SOOOO different in this respect. When I'm on MXE and smiling and having a good time, it's because I'm GENUINELY HAPPY, it's not just some fake chemical response like how I feel on MDMA sometimes, but MXE is very loving feeling and at one with your fellow man how MDMA feels - it's just so much Cleaner feeling and more REAL if that makes sense. I could only use MXE 1-2 times a WEEK and still feel AMAZING EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE. Right now, I'm actually waiting to get back on - in the past 30 days, I've done around 6-7 grams of MXE, I haven't had any since Sunday afternoon - AND I'M STILL IN THE MOST AMAZING MOOD, living life EVERYDAY to the fullest, going out with friends, helping out my fellow humans however I can, and I'm still being able to stick to my Tapering of my Subutex which I've been trying to finally get off completely for the past 6 months. MXE has helped me to RE-TRAIN my brain to HATE fucking HEROIN and basically Opiates in general. I see what they TRULY do to the human spirit.....they're a fucking VACUUM that sucks the life force out of us, I don't give a fuck WHO YOU ARE. Have a couple of years run with Opiates and you'll be convinced you met what Christians describe as "The Devil".....I honestly can't think of a different way to describe Opiates - and I don't feel like this because I think they have no purpose. Just like I need MXE on a regular basis, some people NEED their Opiates just so they can get out of bed because their PHYSICAL body is so beat down - BUT, I know A LOT of people who use Opiates to try and alleviate MENTAL PAIN and Suffering. Well, that's where Opiates have NO PURPOSE, because all they do to the Human Spirit is make you think shit like "Oh, Why ME"??? Why do I have to be in so much Pain?? Why is MY life so bad?? When you Disassociate yourself from your EGO the way Arylcyclohexylamines do, you realize YOU AREN'T THE ONLY HUMAN ON THIS PLANET SUFFERING, and instead of just BITCHING about it like us cry baby ass humans DO from time to time - Dissociatives help you come up with Creative Ways to actually FIX YOUR PROBLEMS instead of just masking them over. I honestly think this compound may be the most useful Tool that human beings have in our Arsenal to teach the human brain and allow it to soak in WHAT WE REALLY ARE AND WHAT IT TRULY TAKES TO BE A SUCCESSFUL, GOOD HEARTED, WELL ROUNDED, person. Not every Heroin addict or Junkie is a bad person - they're just Beat the Fuck down and have had their spirit crushed by a combination of Society not accepting them OR wanting to help them get better, Family members hating on them because they aren't living life how they see fit, and the the Drug itself is doing it's own massive suction of Happiness and Naturally Occurring Dopey Feelings in the Brain. Hard drugs like Cocaine, Methamphetamine, and Heroin bring you one step closer to and prepared for DEATH on a daily basis, both Mentally, Physically, as well as Spiritually. They kill the Human inside of the Body long before the Body dies leaving behind a SHELL of the beauty that once was. I have used MXE to reverse this process.............you could say I'm using drugs to Personally Lobotomize my Brain the way I see fit............and it's not that I'm just choosing to believe whatever I want about life - there are INTERNAL TRUTHS about life that EVERY PERSON has inside of themselves, we just have to unlock them. MXE is that key to unlock the beauty of the person you could truly be one day with hard work, LOVE, and a diligent attitude to improve who and what you are for the benefit of the entire Human Race - because If I'm doing good in life...........I can HELP YOU FEEL BETTER AND DO BETTER as well, and once we're ALL doing good - TRUE PROGRESS for the human species can be made. Call me a dreamer, laugh at me and say I'm WAAAAAAYY too Optimistic, I don't give a fuck. If NO ONE on this planet believes that we can change the situation that we're all stuck living in currently NO MATTER WHERE YOU LIVE ON THIS PLANET - we will just be forever Stagnant as a Species, never growing up, never progressing to what we could TRULY be. Someone has to have hope and be making changes, so that maybe, I hope, one day we can all be happy life how I feel when I take MXE, and even for weeks after I discontinue my use. This compound saved my life, and I'm not scared to tell you all the Beauty that I've seen. Actually, I beg of every person who's intrigued by my words to ask me ANYTHING you want to know about this compound. I still tend to be a little bit lazy at times you could say.....god damn I like weed too much.........but I have all of this information to give to EVERYONE that has been handed down to me thru MXE use and abuse. I don't want anyone else to have to go wild on their body how I have if it's not necessary, so I would rather just relay the information to you if you don't want to do the research for yourself. Each of us in our personal lives have our OWN truths that we need to find about who we are and what our purpose is, but the basic truth of being Human, is surprising universal. You are me and I am you, and deep down we are all just Animals that want to be Loved, Appreciated, and Understood - sure there are more complex emotions beyond just those that we all want fulfilled, but those are the base Emotions we all need fulfilled to be able to start making personal progress and growth.
All right, I've typed enough craziness for now. Feel free to make fun and laugh your ass off at my "Crazy Person MXE Delusions", it doesn't bother me. You're getting entertained by my silly thoughts on life which brings you joy and laughter, which in turn makes me smile, and I get feel Inner Peace for the first time in many MANY years. Feels and Sounds like a fair trade to me........so love me, hate me, laugh at me - as long as I'm making you feel something and inspiring thought, I'm down as fuck. I love this thread and I'm here to stay. Have fun my friends - or have a laugh my Enemies - even though I'd never actually consider you my Enemies........you're just cats that don't understand me yet. Much love my fellow Humans. Sorry for the Wall O' Text. Peace - Mr. Meowfish