I did 500mg in the course of 2 weeks, ran out of the stuff the day before yesterday.
I took at least one dose every day, 2-3 doses per day regularly. My standard dose is 10mg
either orally or rectally.
The first batch I got was fluffy material, this one was in form of cloudy crystals. When I took
this new batch couple of first times, I was disappointed. The experience seemed to take me into
somehow neutral and anesthetized headspace. Where was the warmth and euphoria? It seemed almost
like some other drug, but still I recognized the "signature" as belonging to O-PCE. Oh
well, that's "batch polymorphism" to you.
I remember coming across the same phenomenon with MXE, where different batches gave wildly varying effects,
some being very mellow and euphoric, while with others the prevalent effect was kind of synchronistic magic
with meaningful coincidences. Some batches put me initially off, yet in the end I grew to like them.
Same thing with 3-MeO-pcp, which felt to me "meh" in the beginning, but soon I learned how powerful
it was. So I persisted with this patch, and sure enough after few day's use it started to become hugely euphoric.
I wonder if there is some kind of learning process for receptors, so that they need to become "attuned"
to the molecules, although this does not explain why the experience varies with the physical macroscopic
form of the product.
I did not plan to use O-PCE so often. I confess that I have fallen to its moreish lure, it is so easy
and tempting to turn an ordinary afternoon (or morning, for that matter) to a magical one, just whip out your scale
and your bag of powder. The past week felt like a continuous slow binge. In a civilized culture, O-PCE (and the other ACHs)
should be part of psychotherapists toolbox, or perhaps incorporated in some religious context (like ayahuasca) to ward off and balance
their negative aspects - addictiveness and tendency to mania. My worry is not addiction though - MXE played a
great part for me being able to give up nicotine addiction that had lasted for 3 decades, and I'd rather be addicted to
arcyclohexylamines than to cigarettes again - but it's about getting too detached from reality, or more precisely
the (rather drab and dull) reality that the majority of my fellow human beings seem to inhabit.
For my part I feel I've have almost lost fear of death, because I've seen how life and death are the two sides of one existence.
And we are all one, we are only having this grand masquerade, and will have it forever, because it is the point of the game we are having.
I have always been, and I will always be, and so will you, because our individualities represent eternal stations
in the mind and body of the divine being. The other recurring Terence McKenna-like theme in my experiences is that some massive global
change is coming and the emergence of arylcyclohexylamines are somehow closely connected with that - but I'm not that sure about whether
this represents something real or manic delusion. But this "conviction" appears very regularly in my inebriated state. (On the other hand, it
is trivially true that technology has massively changed the planet while giving us some interesting substances in the
process.)
I've become more productive than ever, and have finally engaged in certain very ambitious creative project that my
doubts in the past have prevented me from accomplishing, and this is all because of O-PCE which instantly detaches
you from unjustified self-criticism. Of course one needs not to act on impulse, because not all ideas you get while high
on the chemical are good. Or more accurately, they are not realistic at the moment. But the energy one gets can be put
into good use with some sober and rational thinking
Will order more. And while wonderful things are happening I'm continually keeping watch for negative aspects to
show up.