I met the shadow men! And a invisible alien.
first of all this is only the second time taking meth but man was it an experience. I am scientific by nature and try to think things through even when I did acid with shrooms. What happened last night blew my mind. At about 26 hours the discomfort of the drug set in--- body feeling crappy--dehydrated--no real caloric intake--so you have like tricked your brain into thinking you have ate------ we'll at 26 hours I started drinking to try and come down and feel better--I drank 12 beers a wine bottle of mimosa-a fifth of buttershots- and a fifth of vodka -- zero effect - i was still stone sober --- While finishing my last vodka -- i felt the paranoia kicking in----cops gonna raid the house -- they know I am doing a felony drug--- crap crap---- kept looking whenever a car drove by-- and on a semi busy street (you look nuts peering out your window every 10 mins wide-eyed). That was basically Stage One.
I tried to think of how to combat the paranoia aka fear instead of delving deeper into it --- so I said screw it and just went outside (at this time it's about 10pm) and set up a chair to face down the paranoia to actually watch the watchers lol. We'll as soon as the paranoia leveled off the visual hallucinations started. The first one was actually terrifying---I had went back inside to bed to try and come down---I look over and this bony/stick like 2 foot long hand on a long arm reached out of the closet and started pulling a jacket Laying on the floor towards itself like so so slowly--i have the instant feeling this thing is an alien that are usually invisible to the normal human scope of vision---I am about 8 feet from this entity and heart race increases even more than it already is from meth-adrenaline kicks in and flight or fight kicks in--I start to run out of the room but stop in kitchen and say to myself this is not real it can't be so I go back in (with my east wing hammer and super sharp "as seen on TV" knife just in case I was wrong)--keep it mind the only light is from my flat screen so I can see but not in like corners--I look back at closet and hand is still there gripping my jacket and still pulling it in but what freaked me out was my actual jacket had obviously moved a large amount and was almost entirely in closet now--I know the jacket is real (so how is this happening) ---I sit watching and finally get up the courage to get my jacket back -- as soon as I pulled (yes it had tension on it!) the hand sucked back into closet wall---I laid my jacket on top of my dresser and went outside completely freaked out--as soon as I get outside I see a young girl standing between two sheds (in like a summer dress a young girl would of worn 40 years ago with) and real white shoes. I just watched from like 200 -300 feet -- whenever I looked at her she would look at me and smile, buckle her shoe,stand back up,look back at me, smile again, and then look away - still standing very still--I had a inner feeling that she was somehow standing there waiting on someone to come back. I dared not go approach her because one I didn't want to be the crazy guy chasing ghosts in a neighbors yard two I didn't want to after my hand in closet experience and three I didn't want to bother her( see how I am making her even more real by empathy with her feelings lol) Next I started to see lights about the size of a half-dollar popping in the sky - not often just about every few mins and from a distance - they were purple-- getting annoyed by this I went carefully back to my bedroom - I sat on my bed - looked at closet and the hand was was back out of the wall laying there just motionless -- what the fuck!
We'll at least your not getting my jacket you fucking hand! Moments later I look over at my dresser and my jacket is being pulled towards the window behind dresser where I have my Ac unit-- I say this can't be happening! I grab a tape measure set it on its end extend it 10 inches and place on an angle kind of next to jacket - so I can gauge for sure if it was moving -- I watched and it was slowly being pulled by some un seen force (or maybe by its own power -it maybe wants away from me lol). I went and sat on edge of bed and As I'm watching it move two pure shadow people appear one to left of jacket and one to the right of the jacket.(I felt the presence not of evil but of utter difference) Left one had a old man like face and the right one was like a typical cartoon ghost two eye holes but very very skinny. They just floated there -- moving back and forth at this time I was just in a state of disbelief watching these things and my jacket slowly moving. ---- while watching the jacket finally fell on the floor and when that happened I ran into kitchen - My bedroom plugs don't work so my plan was to look at these things better so I took an extension cord,a surge block and some lights set them all up around 6 feet from these things around my grounded jacket now inching towards wall --- I hit the switch on surge and as soon as light came --- the the things disappeared and the jacket stopped moving ------------I took two trazadone and because of all the alcohol earlier I was out quick -- keep in mind it usually only takes 1/4 of 150 mg but because of power of meth I had to take 8 times the amount to stop my over reacting brain. Mixing drugs like this can be very dangerous for some people so anyone younger than me 35 should take it easy. I never thought I would live to be this old.
Sooooooo
Here are things I want you to consider.
I am a cynic skeptic lol but one thing I don't get is the jacket literally moved it moved first by the drug induced invisible alien hand into the closet and second from being draped over the open top drawer of a dresser and raged slower up to top of dresser all along the top and fell on the complete opposite side of where its beginning position was at --- I could accept all the other things were hallucinations if the jacket did not really move ---soooo
Did I imagine the whole thing like a waking dream but because of drug I am remembering now as real when it was actually a dream. (I am 100 percent confident it happened). I believe in most all scientific theory that we know. But who knows what science is yet to be discovered.
I don't plan on ever doing this drug again -- I was only terrified at first but just like acid you got to face your fears and increase your awareness and acceptance of whatever your experiencing. --- The reason I will never do this drug again is because I sense it can cause brain damage (actual dead spots in the brain ) and two some people can't accept the experience and I believe have a very high chance of going permantly psychotic--- with acid and shrooms I had tripping experiences and bad trips objects kind of fluctuating, feelings of insignificance and grandeur, but this drug induced in me (13 hours ago)
Much more "real" images kind of like acid 1080ppi and much more fear or mystery oriented. seems to tap into a very strange part of the brain and maybe the soul(case is still out on that)---when the shadow men and the others come and the shit starts going down a giant rabbits rabbit hole--- you have to take control and experience the situation and remember to question everything ---and most of all laugh--that can be the biggest savior. If you can!t laugh at even a bad joke stay away from this stuff
Now where did the Invisible alien Jim Bob leave my jacket.