Whatstheuse
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Nov 17, 2021
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- 26
I really think you do! I’m so glad I’ve come across bluelight, I’m learning to navigate my way around, takes a bit of getting use to.Not really. I just took a lot of interest in what was wrong with me and read everything I could. I learned a lot here on Bluelight too in the Neuroscience and Pharmacology forum where we have a lot of proper qualified scientists discussing stuff. But also a lot of serious amateurs interested in how drugs work.
So I had my assessment on the 22nd. I decided to keep my self medicating story to myself, past experience with psychs judging me an addict, with no mention of adhd, when I did reach out for help on several occasions left me very sad, full of shame and guilt, let alone the fact I couldn’t function properly without my stim.
He prescribed me vyvance 20mg, and wants me to go back early February to see how I’m going. I took the vyvance for a couple of days, but found myself with a shorter fuse than I have normally, and a little cranky.
Anyway, the psychiatrist was a nice chap, and I did tell him that I had tried many of the adhd medications, working in fashion & advertising they were easily obtainable. Said I’d tried Adderall, vyvance, Ritalin over the years, and found them a little anxty. I then mentioned trying desoxyn 12 years ago whilst living in NY, that it was smooth and I felt normal on it. He’d never heard of it (uncanny being an adhd specialist), I explained I thought I knew why as he tapped on his keyboard surprised to see yes it is an adhd medication, though understandable being methamphetamine. I told him I’d looked into it prior to attending my assessment, and that I was dismayed as to why it was not available when it received an average of 9.5 -10/10 in all reviews compared to the other adhd meds that averaged at best a 7.2. I then produced an email I had sent to the manufacturer of desoxyn asking why Australians didn’t have the option of such a drug, and if it was to be prescribed by a psychiatrist off- label, would they supply it? Btw, they said happy to if I got my prescribing dr to contact them. I then made a joke that he could be a pioneer in helping adhd patients if he were to fight the ATGA for its use……he said “interesting, I will look into it”.
There was no question as to prescribing me stims, which one would I like to try he asked. Whatever he thought best he being the expert was my reply.
I’m so glad I didn’t open my big mouth. I have suffered enough believing, and being told I had a drug problem when ever I shared my secret meth use. Telling the truth has only got me a whole lot of “ewww” judgements, when otherwise I was treated with respect and admiration.
Well, can you guess what happened next? Xx