Hey all been wanting some advice on what I'm currently going threw and wanted to know if any others might have went threw something similiar as I'm going threw now. Before I begin just wanted to say I have had small bouts with anxiety but was never diagnosed, my fear was being in public around crowds of people and I have a issue with my leg bouncing without my sometimes noticing but I guess it helped me sooth in a way I can say, also have had depression threwout my life with things like family problems etc. In short I guess you can I say picked up a habit when I moved away to another state and found a better job and had to leave my wife and daughter back in the state I was originally from for some time but recently and now bringing them out permantly. I'm an occasional weed smoker and drink (all done now since undergoing what I feel now) and was using ecstacy without my knowledge that wasn't safe to use day after day after day for 2 week periods at times. I noticed thing differently after my last use and felt symptoms occur about 2 weeks after and began from there. It started with suicidal tendencies like if I had no will to live and the thought of jumping from a building became a form of thought although I wouldn't do it, it just felt like a reality, depressions, fatigue, loss of appetite, nasuea, left arm and chest tightness (which I felt on the drug), and I played video games which I can no longer do because it's as if my eyes suddenly became sensetive to too much light from it or rapid movement causes me to get dizzy and feels like my head spins almost like a instant zap in my brain (which I felt on the drug from playing excessively). About a week into it my depressions, suicidal tendencies, left arm and chest tightness, nausea, fatigue, have faded away. But still feel as if I might have caused permanent damage as my pulse isn't steady and different things like sitting etc cause my pulse to change, as if it's 1..2..3..4......5 and it goes that way and other ways since then. I notice then when I stress I wake up sweating (which never happens before) I have brain zaps (when more stresssed) and at work sometimes at work if I do to much (I'm a painter) it causes me to feel like I'm going to pass out but doesn't bother me until I'm about to leave and in the last 30 min. Small things I've also noticed trigger irritability and my shortness of breath which is why now I tend to be more careful on what I do and how I do it. For instance my dad sprays houses which the smell is strong as can be then the fumes sometimes mix with gas. My first episode of feeling really faint and the feeling of passing out came when I was working outside in the heat and the constant smell I think doubled up along with my physical exhaustion and triggered my irritability and feeling faint feeling. The smell of gas for a certain amount of period triggers my shortness of breath feeling and the smell of cigarettes make me annoyed more when I didn't matter. The worst feeling yet was when I was working outside and was fine drank water and kept myself cool as much as possible despite the heat, but when it came to the end of the day I lifted a few 5 Gallon buckets and when it came time to rest I felt so bad, it felt like if around my vision got black and I almost passed out, the floor beneath me felt so spaced and people seemed so distant and fuzzy. I never felt these ways before and scares me into feeling what if I did something I can't take back? Anyways guys I really thank you for your help and input if you could give me some advice or if anyone has had their bouts with ecstacy problems after using.