(getting the most out of it prevents me from being hunched over for 9-10 hours fiending and causing permanent damage to my back-harm reduction)
it's not that, it's just when i'm high i get really neurotic about losing dope and making the most out of it.
especially when i'm trying to get a rush.
and smoking is something completely foreign to me.
my mom would only let people snort it with me, and when she went to prison i bypassed smoking and went straight to shots.
my mom was a bit of a bitch too, she always looked down on smokers as "tweakers" (coming from the lady who was high for 17 years) even though she would smoke with certain people. i think. i actually have no clue. i often times wonder about my mom's meth habits, then i think about my affinity for pornography and "dopewhores" (i know it's a crude, dehumanizing, cruel, phrase but i'm a crude, inhuman, cruel person when i do dope) and it freaks me out.
anyways, the point i'm trying to make is i'm unfamiliar with smoking, i just barely perfected my glass technique but we don't have a glass piece and my friend won't buy one and i've been a penniless transient drug addict for like three months and just barely got a job so i have no money and i got arrested the other day for stealing computer games so i'm gonna be on probation soon and i want meh rush!!
wait, is that even a point at all?
sorry.
please don't hate me tricomb.
lawl.