No worries; I wouldn't have mentioned it if I didn't want anyone to know about it! That's the thing with Bluelight, it's the one place where I refuse to censor myself or act like I have something to hide. Could be why I like it so much and can't ever seem to ditch the place
You pretty much hit the nail on the head though. I'm beginning an IOP soon, and they drug test three days out of the week. Plus I have to show up almost every day (6 days a week) for the next four months. Needless to say, screwing around in this program will NOT be an option. It's also my last chance. I can either do this program and be successful at it, or I can find a nice comfy spot on the streets to live. I figure if I have to do it anyway, whether I like it or not, I might as well choose to like it and put my all into it - "you get out of it what you put into it" and all that jazz. I've just gotta have faith that it will be enough for me to get it right this time.
Regardless, I have a few days of kicking to look forward to. However, I'm definitely hella grateful that I have a few things to make it easier (like a roof over my head!)... and benzos.
Among a few other things that will make it a bit more comfortable, if only slightly - Immodium AD, Advil, Seroquel, and a couple Neurontin pills. I also have Suboxone, which SHOULD be my # 1 life-saver... except for the fact that I only have one and a half of the 2 mg tablets, and only one of the 8 mg films. Still, I suppose it's better than having no Suboxone at all, and I should be alright if I hold off on taking them for tomorrow (which, if any luck, the Seroquel will help me sleep through anyway). Then I can take the 2 mg I have on Day Two, save the 8 mg film for Day Three which is always hell, and take the other 1 mg on Day Four.
I'm pretty much planning this out as I go along and write this by the way, so don't mind me and my tl;dr post.
But how are things going for you? Sorry for jacking your thread, how incredibly rude I'm being. I think I read that you drank some tea yesterday, so I guess that would mean you're on Day One... and a half? Or something like that, depending on what time you took the tea yesterday, of course. How are you feeling?