I'm fearful of relapsing. I feel I have gone so far this time and having seen that everything changed so much that going back to that life I had would be a major set back and for sure they (family + new friends) would never trust me anymore, for real. I think my last time sober was already when they didn't trust me already but then I am 2 years sober and my life is totally different. I was so fuc.. worried last winter that I cancelled my holiday trip last year thinking I was gonna relapse. I'm a little more confident now, but not yet sure about never ever, it's not impossible. But I don't think none of us can surely say that.
What makes you want to use? Do you like being high just for the high? Do you use to numb the brain?
Whatever the reason you know whatever good feeling you get will only last a short period then the walls come crashing down.
I realize I must look like a jerk saying that when I get high daily. I'm sorry if that's being disrespectful.
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