@Invegasucksx: did not realize i misspelled your name as well, i fixed that. not sure if you were talking to me or zack365 with your last post but i'm doing good thank you, still fully healed. no anhedonia or libido problems is great, the two shots were most likely the starter dose. they are 234mg followed a week later by 156mg here in the states. scared is perfectly natural. anyone who has taken the poison and suffers from it is scared, it's because you've never taken a substance like invega before, it's a whole new experience. plus the side effects/withdrawal symptoms are heavy hitters and last for a long time on top of the hope being temporarily removed. in time you will heal like everyone else has. it's hard but i believe you can get through this. the delusions come back when you are close to or are fully healed. everyone is different and some have welcomed them back over the suffering the poison causes. not sure which fluorides you are referring to but i will link two site that do mention it at the end of this post. i hope this helps.
@Yeshuah: don't worry about the third eye and fluoride. it goes back to normal once you are healed. the numb feeling in your groin gets better too. it just takes what seems like forever but when it comes back, please don't get every woman on the face of the planet pregnant because you are so excited. yes, very intense. yesterday i lit up worse than a christmas tree when i was feeling better after being sick for a few days. it was almost like the first window all over again. haha. and your welcome. don't worry, things change, it's one of the only constants in this life. things will sort themselves out soon enough. remember to focus on your healing first. the thread comes second and everything else in the world comes third. your doing good Yeshuah, keep it up.
@Nvegasux: nice posts with letting people know where they can read and do more about what's being done to everyone.
@Rosi71: very hard to describe what atrophy is. i've only experienced it one other time in my life and that was mostly physically. here is one definition that seems to be accurate: "gradually decline in effectiveness or vigor due to underuse or neglect." it's not like lethargy where it's a crushing or overwhelming feeling. it's more like fatigue like when you push your muscles too hard and they feel weak that way. except i feel it in body, mind, heart and soul. the thoughts start up and can get tired out easily but luckily we use our brain a lot during the day so it's natural work out. the emotions begin like normal as always but then they run out of gas too, instead of going into bad emotions they just go blunt for a lil while before going back to good again.
the soul is a lil more complicated, it's a weary you slag off by earning it. you can't give in, you make all choices like you use to. it's about %50 or less like i told zack365 and getting better everyday. matter of fact i had walking pneumonia and my body seems to have fought it off so far in two days and still resisting it becoming an chest infection. very good thing unlike while still suffering from poison where i would have had it for a week then another week or two of chest infection guaranteed.
it's a very good thing you can listen to music and feel happy. when you first started posting here you could not be that way. i'm happy for you.
@Healed: well said. thanks for sharing some more useful resources on top of what Nvegasux has contributed.
@germanbackyard: your welcome, no worries. there is also a member who posts in the mental health forum by the handle jammin83. sorry i forgot one. and by the way, good reminder to the thread with your post cause the doing is in the trying. even if it's not the antidote just finding something that helps ease the suffering or make this healing process quicker is way better than what everyone experiences now. the antidote would be nice though.
@Neuroleptuique33: (Je vais demander a zack365 de traduire cela afin que je ne le gache pas.) i'm doing pretty darn good thank you. good feedback on what you told I_Want_To_Recover. wells said to Rosi71 as well. your just full of hope aren't you?! thank you.
the no thoughts and emotions are the zombie phase, it lasts about 8 months and then you hit your first window and it's way better than anything else you have ever experienced. after that windows and waves start happening. windows aren't as good as the first one but are better than suffering, waves are like suffering but not as bad. they keep switching back and forth until one day you wake up and are fully healed. you will get there soon and leave this all behind you like some bad nightmare.
you don't want to kill yourself, only escape what your going through. it's understandable, we all go through it and it wont last forever, i promise.
@I_Want_To_Recover: speaking of the first window i think you just hit yours. your about 9 or 10 months off so this should be your first one. i think what you and i talked about a couple months ago was that you went through a tiny one, kinda like catching your breath. this is one reason we say we all heal differently. anyway this is a good sign. congratulations on your first window. like zack365 said, it's got it's ups and downs, there is no "supposed to be this way" in the healing process cause nothing is written in stone. we kinda go through it and figure it out on an individual level as we go along. you had everything else but sexual problems go away for one full day, that's a huge win. don't worry about the sexual problems, those will sync up with the rest of the healing progress in time. your not the first one to experience the window but having something else slightly different. those who have as well also fully healed and you will too.
@Empty1128: hook me up with some of that Lourdes water. maybe we could get it from zack365 and Neuroleptique33 with a xeplion discount?! XD (@mods/admins, i'm just kidding and not sourcing. it's holy water from france, not drugs)
@SkavrsXeplion: sorry my friend, we cannot tell you what to try. only our experiences. i will ask that you stay away from invega/xeplion, zyprexa/olanzapine, abilify/aripiprazole, haldol/haloperidol and risperdal/risperidone as these are the psych meds that people suffer the worse from if they are unlucky enough to have negative interactions from it. i'm sorry this has been done to you, focusing on your healing comes first and you will in time fully heal, promise. if you want to do it via meds that's an option. please read the mental health forum for some people's experiences on what works and doesn't. best of luck. and no, they are not fully despondent. they are temporarily shut down, they need something to wake them up.
sex is all back to normal. i try not to have a lot of it in the last couple months. it's easier to control the impulse too. all sexual side effects/withdrawal symptoms have gone away. it's just like you remember it. you'll get there soon enough.
@awesome31311: welcome to the thread, i'm glad you found your way over here. what you are experiencing is called andhedonia - a loss of emotion or emotional numbness. lethargy, void of thinking, loss of hope and a few other things we have practical names for but also there are medical and scientific fancy names for. like zack365 is saying, give it time. there is no guarantee when it comes to the poison so please take it one day at a time and make choices that support your healing process in a good direction. remember your healing comes first above all else right now. hang in there.
@zack365: would you please translate my post to Neuroleptique33 so i don't screw it up, if you don't mind that is.
wow! progress, progress, progress. plus your an inspiration and a big help to people here, looking up to you. very nice and i'm happy for you. any day now. your full recovery post is next.
links:
https://www.caymanchem.com/msdss/15556m.pdf
http://datasheets.scbt.com/sds/eghs/en/sc-478257.pdf
https://toxnet.nlm.nih.gov/cgi-bin/sis/search/a?dbs+hsdb:@term+@DOCNO+8148
