fivelinefury
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^Yeah, those words same ere sometimes
Im really worried about myself, im 18 and im just coming off benzos, have serious anxiety issues and drink heavily, ive been a heavy drinker for a few months, never even considered myself to be at an alcoholics level or anything, but this weekend i have drank every day and alot, and it got to the point where i stole some money for drink, considered stealing wine from the local 247 at 9ish in the morning, and even got drunk around 9:30 this morning, sobered up now sitting here at 2:30 am and ive had 2 beers and about a glass and a half of wine (and yes not my alcohol, my dads), i feel terrible, my drug usage has got out of control and now drinking is becoming a big factor and i dont know what to do, ill probably be able to get a few hours sleep after these drinks but will wake up shaking, i even had stomach pains this morning that the drink tonight got rid off.
Any advice or anything, i just dont know what the fuck to do with myself anymore, i even lost a good mate this weekend by telling his parents he did heroin with me whilst drunk, and i feel like a scumbag completely and deserve any criticism, but im just looking for advice really.
I have some pregablin coming soon which im hoping in low doses will help with any wds and cravings but still im lost completely.
thank you to anyone that can give me any advice.
4.5 years off the booze now.
Hard to believe it's been so long!
I still get anxious around drunk people though.
At this very point in time I honestly wish I could drink myself to death.
Not possible though. For multiple reasons.
Thanks man
Feeling better now, although hungover. I've been really really bad with drinking the last 2 weeks. It just escalates so steathily that I don't even realise I'm drinking that much until it's completely out of control. I have to not drink tonight but I can't trust myself that it will actually happen
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The whole blanket experience being so often so similar, minus our individual nuances and subjective tweaks, always was fascinating to myself.
I'd like to add
Protip #2: Don't replace your vices. After a few strong years of opioid use, primarily the harder ones, getting off of them was made simpler by taking up an ethanol and benzodiazapine. Now, having worked through the both classes, it was substituting what for me was a minor inconvenience to something that almost caused brain damage to quit.
A few days back in, feels good to be able to read fiction again without having to restart every paragraph.
Benzodiazepines are much more specific in their effects. Both benzos and alcohol can be range between merely inconvenient all the way to fatal. Individual differences in use and physiology are going to make for enough variation that placing them in a better or worse than hierarchy as far as withdrawal isn't all that useful.jungo87 said:Benzodiazepines aren't nearly as addictive as booze