Stop the Boozing and Let YOURSELF become the Good Person you Deserve to be
On Friday I had a hunch something was bad going to happen to me, in that I'd be done with drink driving, what happened next totally blew me away.
That day was like any other, I'd drink and drive to a friends place, only to go to anothers in a drunken state - yet after doing this for years and not being caught except for once over 5 years ago I had this feeling that it was good to go only at the back of my mind I knew today wasn't my lucky day. I ended up driving back home from the second friends place and had a car suddenly break in front of me to turn right with barely having the indicator on, this lady was turning right as her house was across the road. In my situation I was faced with 3 options - run into the back of her, turn left and smash into another car or go right over the median strip and so I smashed into the back of her car.
Now low and behold this would of all been fine and my insurance would of covered me and her for this unforeseeable accident however it was not to be. I registered a high range and made the bad decision of not choosing to go to the doctors for a different reading which probably would of shaved some months off my loss of license but I accepted for what I did was wrong. In the end when I ponder about it, I drove to save $30 for a cab which I needed to take in the end any how as the cops couldn't drive me home.
So what's the damage?
Loss of license - 1 - 3 years
Negligent driving fine - $1100
Drink driving fine - up to $3300
My car totalled - Loss of $1000 (Lucky I wasn't driving a $80,000 car and totalled it because my insurance wouldn't of payed for this)
The other ladies car - It was still driveable and didn't get towed away so it's possible the damages could be up to 7k?
In total it was my decision that night which made this situation for what it is and now I will be paying the price dearly.
So what have I learnt?
- Don't hang out with drinking friends because they aren't real friends (the next day these people who I drove to the other persons house so that they didn't have to pay for a cab didn't give two shits bout what happened to me and I learned a long time ago not too because they are just drinking friends and don't know how to be a real friend without the alcohol.)
- Simply don't drink and punish yourself
- Look for a different crutch if things are shit (jerk off 10 times a day if you need to make yourself feel better, it's probably safer)
- Don't think you're above the law
- If you haven't drunk in days and you have broken your drinking cycle where you always feel sober don't even think about stepping into a car.
- Accept what's coming to you and end the problem once and for all and kill the beast that lives inside.
And on that note I leave you guys with this quote which I pondered on the day before my accident:
“An old Cherokee told his grandson, “My Son, there is a battle between two wolves inside us all. One is Evil. It is anger, jealousy, greed, resentment, inferiority, lies and ego. The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, humility, kindness, empathy and truth.” The boy thought about it, and asked, “Grandfather, which wolf wins?” The old man quietly replied, “The one you feed.””