Thanks for the answers. I know I am being an absolute tard, but I am in fact suicidal and am willing to do anything to numb this dark mind of mine. I have knowledge of the opiate game, heroin is just the only one I have never done. I have know exactly what I am getting into as I have been addicted a long time. My current tolerance is just what I have tapered down to and I have felt the hell that is withdrawals. Even from opium tea, which is certainly the worst withdrawal I have ever experienced.
Man I HATE coming off as preachy, but be very very careful what you're getting into. I've seen heroin break men. a friend of mine just recently died from cardiac arrest secondary to needle use. He'd been 3 years clean at this point.
You're depressed and heroin is not the answer. I know it doesn't matter what we say. I've been in this game since I was a kid. If you want to use smack, you're going to use smack. The way I used to judge my lines (with tolerance) was the width of a sewing needle and about an inch long. That's what you call a "pin line". Start off smoking, not snorting. Snorting is one of the most dangerous ways to use h and it's deceptively potent.
I'm gonna reiterate the point. Be very careful wading into this metaphorical bog you're about to wade into. It's easy to get lost, and it's also easy to fall in a home and drown during your adventures.
You may think that oxy, hydromorph, morphine, etc. compares to heroin. But nothing else even comes close. This is something you will soon realize if you take that ride.
I would never suggest someone put this demon of a substance into their body, especially as an escape drug. It's a recipe for disaster. I know because that was me. I suffer from bipolar type 2, severe depression, suicidal impulses, attempted suicide twice (once with rope, again with drugs). I used to escape into the bottle, the coke and the heroin regularly.
It will not solve any of your problems and only make you worse. If you still wanna do it, and you still think you know what you're getting into, be very very careful. Be too careful. Be so careful you doubt you'll even get high.
Trust me when I say there's no drug on this planet that can hold a candle to heroin. I haven't had any in 4+ years and still think about it almost daily.
Edit: and you're not being a tard. Don't ever call yourself that. You're human like the rest of us. If you can't shake the depression please seek help. Especially if you're feeling suicidal.