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July Getting/Staying Sober Thread vs Birds of a Feather

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24 more down=D.. had a great day today and its been a really nice summer so far.

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suboxone421 said:
Is that like that wax crap that I keep hearing about... or is it like a tincture. I barely coinsider pot a drug, I just get paranoid when I smoke so I recently quit. Congrats on the clean time! Whenever you finalize and publish it throw some of the details up here :)
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I love pot, but I am also confused by all this wax/shatter/dabs talk. It makes me feel old. I used to be with it then they changed what it was. Now what I'm with isn't it and what's it seems weird and scary to me.

This kid I work with does some kind of butane extraction. It's pretty good. Me though, I'm cool with pot. I'm a simple man, I don't need nothing fancy. Maybe some fancy pot that is nice and crystally, but that's it
 
Butane is how wax is made, but this really isn't appropriate for the getting staying thread.
 
Just got done with best friends wedding, did it clean! Was the best man and everyone was telling me how great of a speech I did. I wouldn't have been able to do it from the heart like I did if I was drinking using. Lots more, but I am tired.

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suboxone421 said:
Have you tried splitting your doses into am and pm? Like if you are taking 20mg take 10mg when you get up and another 10mg before bed. I found that works to keep me a little more level when I am having a rough tapper
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I wish i could do that :/ my clinic isnt strict at all about tapering while dirty or other things, but the only way theyll give u a split dose is if u go get your blood levels done & theyre seriously messed up & prove you metabolize it too fast. Sucks. Id do a split dose in a heartbeat.

Right now its 3 am and like clockwork im awake :/ my sleep isnt that great lately, which doesnt help my mood. Cant take melatonin cos of my heart meds. I wish there was a good non habit forming sleep med. Benadryl has a paradoxical effect on me.

Phactor youre doing great, and I now have "Do It Clean" by Echo & The Bunnymen stuck in my head, lol.


http://youtu.be/Zg5xvDoQOhA
 
So happy to see everyone is doing so well :). Glad to be back.

Here's my stats. Still in love with my little counter =D

331 Days

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I had a bit of a toothache last night... my immediate thought: "if it gets worse to where its really hurting I could take a vicodin, cos I'd need it for the pain so I wouldn't be doing it just to get high..."

stupid opiate-addicted brain. staahhp.
 
suboxone421 said:
Is that like that wax crap that I keep hearing about... or is it like a tincture. I barely coinsider pot a drug, I just get paranoid when I smoke so I recently quit. Congrats on the clean time! Whenever you finalize and publish it throw some of the details up here :)
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Will do :)

It's more similar to wax :)

I have 221 days off suboxone today :D
 
I love NA's "Just For Today" meditation for July 19th


July 19

Fulfilling our dreams

“Dreams that we gave up long ago can now become realities.”

Basic Text, p. 71

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All things begin with a dream. But how many of us fulfilled our dreams while using? Even if we managed to complete something we had started, our addiction usually robbed us of any pride in our accomplishment. Perhaps when we used, we dreamed of the day when we would be clean. That day has come. We can use this day to make our dreams come true.

To fulfill our dreams we must take action, but our lack of self-confidence may keep us from trying. We can begin by setting realistic goals. The success we experience when we attain our initial goals allows us to dream bigger dreams the next time around.

Some of our members share that when they compare the ambitions they had when they first got clean with what they have actually achieved in recovery, they are astounded. In recovery, we often find more dreams come true than we could ever have imagined.

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Just for today: I will remember that all things begin with a dream. Today, I will allow myself to make my dreams come true.

Copyright © 1991-2014 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved
 
I'm finally off the Xanax!

I replaced it with clonazepam- a good improvement for me and I'm proud of myself.
 
Carl Landrover said:
I love pot, but I am also confused by all this wax/shatter/dabs talk. It makes me feel old. I used to be with it then they changed what it was. Now what I'm with isn't it and what's it seems weird and scary to me.

This kid I work with does some kind of butane extraction. It's pretty good. Me though, I'm cool with pot. I'm a simple man, I don't need nothing fancy. Maybe some fancy pot that is nice and crystally, but that's it
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>lets lay off the drug talk, including the pot in this thread.. thanks<
 
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Over the physical WD's from opiates now. Feelin pretty good just for that reason. I keep having these moments of "woah, I can't believe this is sobriety! i have so many things to catch up on!" and I get this natural rush and euphoria. It's what i'd imagine a person with bipolar disorder feels when manic. I catch myself and tell myself to chill out though, because it's more important to stay in the present and take things one day at a time. Early days but I feel good.
 
11 Months since I removed the toxic habit of using etizolam in my life and sought help from a doctor for real anxiety medication (Klonopin) :)

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I said at the start of this that this was a 2 step recovery. The first was to transition from Etizolam and onto a prescribed and controlled medication. That part has been completed.

Step 2 will be the beginning of a taper and finally abstinence. For these 11 months I have accustomed myself to my dose, refused to go over that amount and have glided along. It's become routine.

Seeing as this is my 11th month I think it's about time I make a solid commitment to begin tapering at my 1 year mark so that hopefully by the time I reach 1yr11months next year I will be clean and sober of this ball and chain I call Klonopin.

I will address my anxiety as I go along but I want to taper down and focus on using other natural/mindful resources to deal with my anxieties.

<3. Keep it going strong guys.
 
stardust.hero said:
11 Months since I removed the toxic habit of using etizolam in my life and sought help from a doctor for real anxiety medication (Klonopin) :)

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I said at the start of this that this was a 2 step recovery. The first was to transition from Etizolam and onto a prescribed and controlled medication. That part has been completed.

Step 2 will be the beginning of a taper and finally abstinence. For these 11 months I have accustomed myself to my dose, refused to go over that amount and have glided along. It's become routine.

Seeing as this is my 11th month I think it's about time I make a solid commitment to begin tapering at my 1 year mark so that hopefully by the time I reach 1yr11months next year I will be clean and sober of this ball and chain I call Klonopin.

I will address my anxiety as I go along but I want to taper down and focus on using other natural/mindful resources to deal with my anxieties.

<3. Keep it going strong guys.
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That is a hard step to make... Congratulations on all of the steps in the right direction. I stopped abusing phenibut and am still prescribed lyrica and have about 90 caps left and 6 months worth of neurontin. I have not fully kicked the etizolam and went from all the above and anywhere from 1-6mg of etizolam plus my subs down to 1.5mg of sub and anywhere from .5-1 and I have used 2mg of etizolam once or twice in the past few weeks at a bbq I threw. I have real anxiety and rage and my body is used to being sedated because I was on up to 1000mg of seroquel with depakote for years as a kid. I was misdiagnoised and I am just a psycho and do not use psych meds... quit them plus ativan and norco 3 years ago in california. I almost killed my neighbor with a kitchen knife and was literally very scared for mine and others safety for months but It has been years since that horrible cocktail from asshole doctors who capitalize on angry kids with home problems. I need to get off the etizolam and thought about using lyrica or neurontin which I have legal scripts for. I do not know a good tapper to come off a max of 2mg etizolam and a consistant doseage of .5-1mg. I can tapper opiates with no sweat but benzos scare me. I have 90 300mg lyricas, and 180 600mg neurontins. Can anyone please help me figure out a tapper.... Today is a good day I just am getting my daughter again in 2 weeks and it seems like her mom does not want her so I need to be level and legal soon. I am almost there I just cant drop this last step. any advice please :)
 
stardust.hero said:
11 Months since I removed the toxic habit of using etizolam in my life and sought help from a doctor for real anxiety medication (Klonopin) :)

i6nxzf815.png

I said at the start of this that this was a 2 step recovery. The first was to transition from Etizolam and onto a prescribed and controlled medication. That part has been completed.

Step 2 will be the beginning of a taper and finally abstinence. For these 11 months I have accustomed myself to my dose, refused to go over that amount and have glided along. It's become routine.

Seeing as this is my 11th month I think it's about time I make a solid commitment to begin tapering at my 1 year mark so that hopefully by the time I reach 1yr11months next year I will be clean and sober of this ball and chain I call Klonopin.

I will address my anxiety as I go along but I want to taper down and focus on using other natural/mindful resources to deal with my anxieties.

<3. Keep it going strong guys.
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I am so proud of you; keep up the great work! <3

I know what you mean by 2 step; I feel like stabilizing on suboxone was that first step


Now I have 223 days off suboxone and I couldn't be happier about it :)

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74 days!

Took this yesterday

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That's beautiful!!!
 
Phactor that's a great pic :)

I'm going to tell my counselor I want to go down another 2 mg starting weds. No time like the present.

eta: I feel better today. Its like 5 pm and I don't even feel sick. Usually by now my dose has worn off a lot. Maybe I'm getting used to the 2 mg drop? Last time it took me like 3 weeks to adjust, now it's been like a week and I'm better? I mean, I'll take it, it's just confusing me, lol.
 
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