GenericName12
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jun 5, 2013
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*sigh* one minute hopeful, the next I"m down...
I found out today that my dose dropped to 20 (from 22) yesterday... no wonder it felt like it wasn't as strong yesterday, I thought I was tripping. I guess my counselor put the order in - I have no idea why he dropped me two at once, I wouldn't have done that, but since it's the 2nd day already I'm just going to stay here. Thing is though, I can definitely feel the difference, even though the nurse said "oh you shouldn't feel a 2 mg drop". Maybe not if I was at 50, no, but I'm on 22, so 2 mg is around a ten percent drop. YES I feel it. Really really down.... I feel like crying but I have to take my phone to Apple in a little bit cos there's something wrong with it and I don't want to ruin my makeup.
I hate this feeling, so much. I just feel like my life is empty and there's nothing good in it and nothing is ever going to work out, and I have no one. I hope I stabilize on this dose soon.
I feel for you. We all know that feeling. Try to stay strong and remember that even though it seems hopeless it will pass. Focus on the longterm! You can do it!