Clearly, my motivation to live update all of you diminished as the night wore on. LOL. I was planning to write poetry and truly entertain all of you, but I got distracted.
To clarify the specifics:
I am a 38 year old female, approximately 130 lbs and 5'3".
The last time I rolled was NYE 2018/2019 (So, a bit over a 5 month break).
I have been using MDMA for 19 years.
Based on my notes from last night's journal...
Took 136 mg at 6:00 pm, and began to feel the first signs of rolling at 6:33 pm. I was regularly checking my eye dilation, and I noticed initial eye dilation at 6:39 pm. By 7:10 pm, I made the note, "rolling but not quite."
Isn't that the best description of MehDMA? Rolling but not quite.
I took a 106 mg re-dose at 7:15 pm.
An acquaintance of mine felt like the crystals were hydrated/crystallized with water and that the weight may be off, so I felt that the higher re-dose amt was warranted.
I ended up on the couch under a fuzzy blanket listening to music on headphones for a long time. I did not want to get up, talk, or move.
There was no significant/notable euphoria, energy, confessional quality, or sensory enhancement. Minimal music enhancement. With a really good roll, I would have a lot of skin enhancement and would be thinking about how good I felt, but that was not the case with this. (It was more like I just like I had eaten a great Thanksgiving dinner and was feeling content before a late afternoon nap.)
I was having eye jitters, and my eyes were VERY dilated. This is probably the most eye dilation I have seen from any MDMA I have used for the last 13 years.
Not a lot of jaw clenching though, and I hardly bit my mouth up at all (although I did somehow manage to bite UNDER my tongue. I don't even know how that is possible).
I felt very comfortable on the couch and content, but it was a "sleepy" contentment.
At 9:09 pm I took an 80 mg re-dose because I felt the effects waning.
So, I guess based on the math, I felt the full effects of each dose roughly 45 minutes after taking the dose, but the effects only seemed to last about an hour before it seemed like it was dropping off.
I really held off on that third dose too, because I knew it was going to be the final amount that I consumed for the evening. I probably felt the effects of dose two waning around 8:50 pm or so, but did not take that third dose until 9:09 pm.
Now, here is where this batch diverges from other underwhelming batches I have had in the past, because somewhere after that third dose it went from couch cuddling to sex, and the sex was awesome. Since one of my primary goals is sexual enhancement with my partner, this batch was way better than the last several I have tried. I stopped making notes, but the sex went on for several hours. Huzzah.
And, in addition, when I finally came down it was a very smooth comedown. No feelings of sickness like with other batches. It was just like, all of a sudden, I was sober. Not cracked out sober, but just normal sober. I had no issues sleeping. The only abnormality was a slight headache. Just minor. Could have been due to dehydration. I ate a few bites of a sandwich and went to sleep despite the headache. I do not usually have a headache after rolling, for whatever that is worth.
Now, I feel fine. I don't have a strong afterglow, but I also do not feel messed up or "off" at all. I feel basically exactly how I felt yesterday before I started rolling.
So, here is the less wordy summary:
Dose: 136 mg + 106 mg + 80 mg
Effects:
Euphoria: minimal
Empathy: minimal
Music enhancement: minimal
Eye dilation: Extreme
Jaw clenching: minimal
Sexual enhancement: Good
Comedown: clean
Afterglow: none
Sickness: none
So, overall, I would do it again. Although, I think my friend may be right about the dose being off. I would probably go for a very high first dose next time. Fuck it. Why not? One of my main problems recently has been getting sick afterwards. That just felt awful, and I don't need to deal with it. It caused me to miss too much work the following week. Even with the lack of euphoria, I'll take the great sex and the minimal comedown that this batch offered.
I find it very interesting how much variation there is from batch to batch. Out of all of them, my first DW order from last summer (the one that advertised as being safrole derived) had the most empathy, confessional quality, and desire to be social. I was never able to get more of that batch to try, but if I had, I would have increased the dose.
Seems like a lab test would be very informative here to understand the percentage of MDMA in each dose. I would guess this is probably only 70% or so, but with minimal additives/impurities. Maybe it would be beneficial to perform my own cleaning of this product and see what is left afterwards?
Another odd side-note, usually after the MehDMA, I can't drink coffee. It makes me sick/dizzy. I am a typical coffee drinker. But, after this stuff, I drank my coffee fine with no dizziness or sickness.
And, one final sidenote...I had some lab tests done recently and they showed that I have very low dopamine levels. I think this could be a factor for me in regards to the lack of intensity to the experience. This is one reason also that I think it is important to understand my age/sex. As a 38 year old female, I am having hormonal changes that can cause fluctuating dopamine levels in response to fluctuating estrogen levels. So, that is a factor I need to keep in mind as I continue my experimentation and "research."