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you're sooooo high right now and want to share? post here

First time on HBWR. Im loving it. Cant really stay at the computer though, gotta go enjoy my trip. peace.

ps. im gettin worried about Ryan. He's gonna fuck himself up with all that speed,
 
There was a big ass fight in my house that sucked ass. My dad started bitching at me and then he started yelling at my mom, and then everyone lost their tempers. LOL! I wasn't planning on doing drugs today, but I needed to calm my nerves, so I toked. :) Feel damn great.
 
Hello I'm home loll oh hello my friends that are leaving darn I'm getting low on tablets back to crushing beads but it's okay I still have some tablets hm let's see oh yeah hang on okay uh this will just be a preview since I'm not talking about the amounts but today 150mg 630am 150mg 230pm 150mg later darn kids these days dosing 150mg each time

lluckily this morning I found a way to stay alive and make all this safe seriously KOOL-AID!with sweet-n-low YES! I won't be dying from dehydration WOOOO I saved myself. wow yes yes I saved myself ah yes so what do I get? it's so clear greatness I hope one day a ll of you can over come your drug addictions I mean if I over came mine in a quick heart beat second I'm sure you can. that doesn't make any sense at all.what is wrong with you.darn kid.
 
I don't know they can get it but I guess not at the moment or something ah I am way too strung out adderall is destroying my whole entire-wrong liar-making everything perfect-except.don't start.okay.adderall completes everything.I don't need no arms around me.I don't need no drugs to calm me.No I don't need anything at all.done.done.,this is how it should be it.this style style style.done.POW motherfucker.POW *jumps* bitches love me bitches love me bitches love me love me cuz they know that I can rock done done done this is how it should be done.this style style style done.throughout the projects.Msi is so great.hmmWOAH yeah not good,I have the heat on 80,it's 78 in here at the moment,I'm in coat,zipped up,with the hood on,I'm still cold,woah shaking so much,I got my kool-aid by me though,so sure 7pm time for the other 150mg maybe I should just d0 100mg.*looks down* *is 400mg okay?* *scared* *NO it's not. but but but I'm dying faster. *you're fault.you wanted this so bad.wish granted again* *buuuut but over 400mg each day is too much* *Deal with it,you wanted it so bad,now here you are like you wanted,in the whole apartment,no parents for days,and like you wanted,it's you and adderall,like you wanted,buuut this is.......*thinks* okay I can handle it I got it under control yeah I can handle it I guess I guess I can't complain it's not that much...no it's okay STOP! shaking hands god.arghh ahh okay *breathes* you're right I can surely handle this and I'm in control and and remember this will end then you will want to do this all over again so have your fun now,okay, 300mg time to make it 400mg now then 460mg in 2 hours or something cuz I'm leaving,me alone with adderall is not working,wait NO! I didn't mean that-*sighs of relief* me.adderall,I don't need anything more,I can handle my big doses,I can handle it cuz you just want to ruin this ,and no I don't want this to end,I lied, This is great,300mg is good 400mg will be better 460mg to end the night...uh yeah I can't sleep but let's pretend, then tomorrow argh tomorrow a new day wow I guess I was serious when I said this is going to make me collapse and this fall is going to be hard..okayyy I got my death bed ready.oh this adderall is really getting to me.who can I blame? ah yes I know.No one even told me about adderall or how how it can become an addiction or or or where are the warning signs? No calm down.I'm not doing that much and I can handle it,seriously it's not that bad,and I'm still got it under control. gotta go bye.
 
Look at yourself buddy. Live your life without being on what the general drug-using community would consider absoultely *obscene* amounts of a proven neurotoxic substance. I've been there with the amphetamine addiction, but only to about 180mg a day.
I can not belive you do not desire to get off of this bull you've been clinging to for so long.
I'd even recommend doing something such as drug replacement. Get addicted to marijuana or something. But, please - giving a daily run-down list of the amount of amphetamine you''ve consumed, and ruminating over how and when you will be able to obtain more... openly admitting you're afraid to leave the house?
Trying to obtain methamphetamine instead of the "good ole' Adderall"?
Be smart about something. It's been said to you nicely, angrily, snidely, and calmly. I am giving it to you honestly.

I refuse to speak to you on AIM, as you so often claim to wish. The mere screen name you use is irony in itself - CancerIsKillingYou.
But it is not Cancer that is killing you. But you are dying.
If you brush my comments aside as ridiculous criticism of what you consider to be a successful human existence, than so be it. But happiness, as I have recently learned, does not result from the exchange of paper for pills, beads and powder.
My best wishes on your potential recovery,
Vaya
 
I spoke to him on aim because of what he's been saying in this thread. Quite a nice guy, really, just has a huge aderall problem. I fail to see how someone can get addicted to aderall really, I have to take it because I have ADHD (and I can't stand the shit sometimes) but at least it gets me good grades. Aphetamines will be amphetamines I guess. My mind has drifted as I am sober (and I didn't take my aderall) so the wall looks really interesting (have you seen the price of clouds lately?) I wanna eat a dictionary. This is the kinda stuff I end up thinking/doing/saying when I don't take my aderall (which is perscribed to me) I am insane. I was insane wayyyy before I started doing drugs (strangely enough, they make me less insane) I like pie when it flies by in the sky and hits the guy in the eye! DAMN MY ATTENTION DEFICIT HYPER DISORDER!! its a gift and a curse I suppose. Self medication is the only cure for my illness. Ryan, if you have the mental strength to quit, then I say do it while the gettins good. You can do it man, I know ya can! Remember: its nothin more than a stupid orange capsule filled with goddamn beads! I hate aderall myself. If I don't take food with it in the morning, I end up feelin like I'm bout to puke, I get cold sweats and all sorts of shit. Stay the fuck away from that shit man.
 
Vaya said:
Look at yourself buddy. Live your life without being on what the general drug-using community would consider absoultely *obscene* amounts of a proven neurotoxic substance. I've been there with the amphetamine addiction, but only to about 180mg a day.
I can not belive you do not desire to get off of this bull you've been clinging to for so long.
I'd even recommend doing something such as drug replacement. Get addicted to marijuana or something. But, please - giving a daily run-down list of the amount of amphetamine you''ve consumed, and ruminating over how and when you will be able to obtain more... openly admitting you're afraid to leave the house?
Trying to obtain methamphetamine instead of the "good ole' Adderall"?
Be smart about something. It's been said to you nicely, angrily, snidely, and calmly. I am giving it to you honestly.

I refuse to speak to you on AIM, as you so often claim to wish. The mere screen name you use is irony in itself - CancerIsKillingYou.
But it is not Cancer that is killing you. But you are dying.
If you brush my comments aside as ridiculous criticism of what you consider to be a successful human existence, than so be it. But happiness, as I have recently learned, does not result from the exchange of paper for pills, beads and powder.
My best wishes on your potential recovery,
Vaya
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100% true. not even I can brush your comments of reality aside.I can't think of any thing to say to get around what you said.I can't think.of anything.no excuses or lies that can get me out of what you said.you got through the wall that not even friends or ex friends or best friend or ex best friend in real life. I can't get around your post.I am seriously trying to think of ways and believe me I can usually think of something.I have no sort of come back at all or any reason I can think of to make you wrong.usually the posts to me I can brush off or deny or ignore the truth.especially if I am on a lot at the time and comments are directed to me I can ignore them as if the person didn't know what they were talking about.not even 460mg can get me out of this.

I think if I knew you in real life,you could make me see and realize and probably even help. Funny how your words,did something so many tried to do,in real life or internet,you only said it once. others tried numberous countless wasteful times to just get blocked off at my wall that's so high up.I thought it was unbreakable.I thought I could always get out of the truth of it all and make other's people comments sound like nonsense but not this one.

I don't know how or why I couldn't think of something.the ones who cared,didn't get to me,the ones that hated,didn't,the ones that were trying and really trying and offering their help,didn't,you didn't crack the wall,you broke it to pieces,I have nothing to fight back with.

I think I'm going to save your post on my computer.this is the most dose of reality I had.probably since starting around 2 years ago at 20mg.no one could get through even when it was more likely if I would of listened I would of stopped.no one got through at 100mg or 200mg or 300mg or 400mg because once it got at 100mg+ daily there was no chance then when I started getting higher,I was unreachable.how you got through to me at 400mg with 1 try when none could at even 80mg-100mg is most impressive.

I thought I was unreachable,unbreakable,super-human,the smarter one who could stomp out any dose of reality and just ignore all comments,love,hate,anger,worried,sad,confused,why, whatever way people tried. Not this time.You collapsed my wall that over towered everything.You did something impossible.I am going to save this.it's 1 in a million post.

I tried to twist your words around but there's no place to start.nothing.You are impressive.I bet if I knew you in real life,you would be the one that could make me slow.stop.realize.see.accept. that what I'm doing is harmful and I won't be the one having the last laugh.when 'too much' happens and then it's too late.is all this worth it? that made me feel regret and it's just words.was it really all that fun?all worth it?
how smart was it to climb up,to see how much,you became on top,for what? and was it worth throwing away your life? and destroying your body from the inside out in a game? you are in the lead but death will be at the finished line.too much never comes right?never enough right? hope you're ready when too much comes.
 
I'm preetty dam high rite now off sum enice weed, holy an di only smoked like 1/2 a singlke paper....wow

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4 hours later now. i jus came back from bunnin a nice L..im feelin mighty stoned rite now omg hax! 8o
 
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im so fucking high right now......I made some cannabutter for the first time and got damn i ate that ish at 10:00pm last night and its 2:35pm and im STILL FADED!
 
Monday jan 10th
1pm-100mg adderall
8pm-200mg adderall
8:30pm- 20mg adderall
10:30pm-90mg adderall
2am-3am-90mg adderall
coasted through the night on that, 500mg
jan 11th tuesday
12:30pm-1pm-90mg adderall
3pm-15mg adderall
9pm-90mg adderall
it's 2:42am wednesday jan 12th now and it's time to sleep,but I'm not tired,so I will be saved by sleeping pills again,understandable 695mg in 2.

yep yep and then I dosed and then I redosed and then dosed again and over and over again fun fun though I hung out with other people for these 2 days who were on adderall too around 200mg finally disappeared from my other friends or best friend- for these new speed friends who supply and yeah new friends more connections then their friends ah I'm connected again,new friends,connections,more fun,was it worth it to waste almost 700mg in 2? sure I still have more so I can go back to normal. everything is great until the speed runs out.... who knows when though
 
smoked some nice hash, its been a while since ive posted on here due to the fact that i got kicked out of my house, and am currently in the process of getting a new place. it sucks not having a computer thats set up at the place where im staying temporarily. soo im using a computer at a public library.
 
Smoking dank with a bunch of keef on top I've been storing after sifting out my bags. Also drinking a tea made from 6g of superkratom put into a mesh bag and brewed twice. Feeling good :D
 
dude, am I the only one who--while I can enjoy adderal at times, thinks it is a complete waste for such huge numbers to be consumed in such short periods of time. Ryan, I wish you the best--are your parents still away....

swybs
 
i havent slept in who knows how long, and continually seem to drift into either being stoned or twacked every couple of hours
 
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