once when I wisited grandmother i austria I had dosed nutmeg and then one full spiky green ball full of things from datura + 7full Atropa beladona berries,it was from botanical garden that was masterfully cared about so it was big fat pieces if yo can imagine it,I skip alot but basicly I didnt noticed any effects from the datura and beladona,the nutmeg wore off at the time but bad thing happened my mentaly sick,big coke addicted uncle have physicaly assaulted me and that made me run away from my house and family in foreign coutry
I walked without water,food,money,ID,mobile or anything excpet pipe,bong tube,lighter and little bit of weed from dawn to dusk without map with halucinations of my uncle and family chasing me everywhere! I was paranoid they might be in every car that past by on road as I walked on fields in night,the halucinations would come like every few minutes but It wasnt just like seeing totaly real person,I had this auditory halucinations like sounds of someone calling my name,breathing and closing in looking around where I am.
I was so scared of uncle continuing violence that I just runned and hidden everywhere,I was prone so much just hiding in total bug infested high grass shithole places.The worst thing there was no escape from them no matter how much I tried to run for safety,the halucinations were never like they saw me but like they were looking for me and were like 30-100 meters away.
so I walked so long way to another small vilage,there was some celebration going on with people with these classic dunno what it is kinda german white,green colored folk cloth? alot beer and grilled meat,so asked for help this little bit drunk men in his late fifties and he get me huge portion of grilled meet and water and showed me how can I get past borded to my home city of bratislava,I was about 85kilometers from home
so I continued to walk and got to another vilage with big lake it was and huge grape fields,this was good 16 hours after I ate that shit,it was summer,and I ate it at launch day before,I was never in this place but the halucinations of uncle was chasing me everywhere,it was like I am few meters away from being saw by him very often,I runned in crazy patterns in big grape fields around this vilage just trying to shake my uncle,I stopped and listened sounds,sounds so real,I cant ever desribe how extremly real these audio halucinations were,like there were metal wires in the grape frields holding grapes and dry air rich ground I could hear small stones hitting ground after falling from shoe of my unlce,I could hear wind shaking his t shirt gently,I could hear the wire being contacted as he walked by,I could hear him take a breath change teempo of walk,I could hear him looking around,I could hear his shoes getting deep in air rich ground as walked and this all with such realistic texture of sound across whole freqency range with totaly real position in space,like I could hear exactly where he was
I knew the grape fields will not let me run away so I runed to center of small town and there was this ville with bush walls and big cultivated grass field,but it wasnt that big and I hidden in this bush wall for like half hour while the sun rised up,i dont remember much details but I gone from there deeper to town but I had more grape fields ahead I had most sureal hallucination of my life first I heard it,the sound,it made my heart beat and run for cover,first I heard the sound then I saw smoke comming from its motors.... it was helicopter with thermal camera looking for me,I runned so much it was terror there was no escape from it,not in this field so I aimed to town,I was walking in the streets of early morning nobody there it was like ghost town but alot cars were going here
I spend hours walking and hidding behind corner EACH time I would hear car comming close,I am not sure about this but suspect most of the sounds of car comming close but never reaching my like chaning course was halucination,I am not sure becose there was no difference in quality of this sensory information from real world event,I stuffed my pacs with what I believed might be halucinogenic plant of some sort as there was few trees with these green hairy balls of some sort,but man,the cars I feard my unlce might be in one I made my best to totaly cover myself from being visible from any person in any car that got close,I was in so many ppl personal properties,so many hidding and running
I was like filling with ppl it was nice hot sunny day and I made it to this big lake but then I saw another terror,I saw my uncle walking towards me in his blue t shirt,I always spoted him like 100-200 meters away and runned,I hidden in beach toilet for four hours I locked myself here,I could hear my unlce lurking around and looking at me from like tiny holes this structure had,but I am not sure if it wasnt all in my mind,I mean the little holes that he was looking at me
I am not sure at what points I put enough courage to open the door but I did so and runned like rocket,I was like I must GTFO outa there becose uncle is proly few meters away,my eyes were fucked up I didnt know why I everything is so ridiculously blurred when closer than one meter but it was from all the thing that eye doctors use to dilate patients pupils its in datura and belladona too,like I couldnt reed anything my pupils must be pitch black huge saucers like when you thumbprint lsd b2b cocaine overdone in bat country,like I had many crazy doses of psychedelics but it never made everything so much blurry at close.
I fucked around town for hours,there was some beach part event for whole town going on in beach,being not eating,not sleeping,not drinking in hot day continously running for 20+hours whole night and day I started to feel my energy being depleted and my feet begging for relax,my lips so dry,so next time I spotted my uncle at 120 meters I surendered,I slowly walked toward him he towards me on this sidewalk with trees near beach with alot ppl with sun still on,we got closer and closer and closer I had my eyes on him and at about 25 meters distance he just completly and totaly disapeared,like insta gone and it was this very moment I first had realization maybe had halucinations in last two days,it was like my mind will be blown but
I was so dam tired and exhausted and thirsty dunno but I just was like well whatever,ok lets go home.So I find this police patrol and tell them about assault they so I return to my unlce and grandmother,the uncle didnt beat me more and I sleept well but if you managed to read this mess of too old to remember in detail cool story then you might gained little bit knowledge why datura isnt fun,there was zero euphory or feeling being under influence,being intoxicated and thats so evil about it,your like this is all reality it isnt working but it isnt,the whole thing was like dreaming in reality,its dream but so real,dreams to real but you dont lay in bed you dream and walk in real world,thats dangerous
these halucinations so real it was,the mindstates I had at moment it was.... I like to remember it becose of crazy it was,and those halucinations I will forever remember,its fascinating for me how deep they were in complexity and quality,how the hell can brain make that I have no idea
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