After too much drugs in general on NY morning, i.e. yesterday I started accusing the girl I've been getting with for general flirting and shit with other guys. As some of yous know my ex of 3 years, who I spent pretty much every day with basically ditched me for a mate slowly over a few weeks and I watched it happen, she denied it and instead made me feel drugs were making me paranoid. That said ex also tried to 'chat' shit out last night too, so it was on my mind the entire time.
So think I'm naturally just a bit paranoid and iffy on it all. Well, I blacked out and remember fuck all but apparently started accusing her of doing the same, got a bit aggressive at stages and just Wouldn't drop it. Fucking raging as I really like the wee girl and it just all the drugs/recent head frys that caused it, just ended up taking it out on someone who was the opposite. Was with a few others in the taxi including her and she certainly didn't come home or chat to me...
Had an acid trip recently that made me really feel that a lot of people are fake to my face and really don't give a shit, which is completely true and it's been really playing on my mind and I was getting similar thoughts here. Honestly think I should maybe take a break from the drugs as it aint fun.
Edit: Also just found out it's Wednesday so what I thought was one day of partying has been two, missed my NY family dinner. Fuck sake.