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Mental Health Why do I not wanna do ANYTHING?

ChemicallyEnhanced

ChemicallyEnhanced

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[stuck living with my parents due to health issues] after days of my dad hasseling me 24/7 t clean my room, I just took trash bags up and threw everything away instead so I never have t clean/tidy it again.
Like, I'm sitting here and I haven't bathed or washed my hair or changed my clothes in like 2 weeks and I also just never ever wanna have to do those things again.
I feel like...what's the point? It's just gonna have to be done again and again and again and...I don't want to.

^No, I don't care if I smell or people think I'm dirty
 
fuckabout89 said:
Yeah I know that feeling now I'm left two choices fix my health or the other option of what you describe sadly eventually leads too except I been like that for almost a decade now. If I continue too rot away it just makes look like nothing but a bitch and I wont die a bitch or atleast fight trying.
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Sorry to hear that!
And, yeah, I get THAT option. I've even been planning VSED (maybe starting tomorrow). Even bought a mouth spray that does not contain water, but does encourage saliva flow in the mouth to prevent terrible dry mouth/thirst :/
 
Curious about your age? Have you lived on your own in the past? Would you mind sharing your mental health condition, probably has something to do with your lack of motivation...just guessing.
 
fuckabout89 said:
I'll be 30 in less than a year and still in the same place I been since I was 10. Living with my parents and no friends and never had relationship with a chick. It starts getting pretty fucking serious at this stage and the way the country is heading it scares me. First time in my life right now thinking of changing things. Fuck I dont even have money right now too even by drugs to numb the pain your just piggy backing off other people until you piss em off and they want nothing too do with you.
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I'm sorry man, I wish I could help you see what you are missing.
 
I learned earlier this year if i dont have my usual concoction of drugs its impossible for me to get motivated to even get out my bed ,it's far from ideal but what other options are there
Talking to a drug Councillor who gives you mental exercises to do at home just doesn't work for me
Depression and lack of motivation go hand in hand
 
ChemicallyEnhanced said:
[stuck living with my parents due to health issues] after days of my dad hasseling me 24/7 t clean my room, I just took trash bags up and threw everything away instead so I never have t clean/tidy it again.
Like, I'm sitting here and I haven't bathed or washed my hair or changed my clothes in like 2 weeks and I also just never ever wanna have to do those things again.
I feel like...what's the point? It's just gonna have to be done again and again and again and...I don't want to.

^No, I don't care if I smell or people think I'm dirty
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You could see a doctor about severe depression but unfortunately it's really only you that can help yourself
 
CalicoCatLover said:
It feels good to be clean. Just...shower like an animal. My advice. Try to enjoy it
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Yeh I get anxious if I think I'm smelling of BO
Because I drink to much I tend to sweat more ,but not if I take valium ,could be an anxiety issue ,something like the opposite of "The guy formally known as prince"
 
ChemicallyEnhanced said:
[stuck living with my parents due to health issues] after days of my dad hasseling me 24/7 t clean my room, I just took trash bags up and threw everything away instead so I never have t clean/tidy it again.
Like, I'm sitting here and I haven't bathed or washed my hair or changed my clothes in like 2 weeks and I also just never ever wanna have to do those things again.
I feel like...what's the point? It's just gonna have to be done again and again and again and...I don't want to.

^No, I don't care if I smell or people think I'm dirty
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ChemicallyEnhanced said:
[stuck living with my parents due to health issues] after days of my dad hasseling me 24/7 t clean my room, I just took trash bags up and threw everything away instead so I never have t clean/tidy it again.
Like, I'm sitting here and I haven't bathed or washed my hair or changed my clothes in like 2 weeks and I also just never ever wanna have to do those things again.
I feel like...what's the point? It's just gonna have to be done again and again and again and...I don't want to.

^No, I don't care if I smell or people think I'm dirty
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I'll share my situation if that helps. I'm almost 32, unemployed and miserable. I receive 900 a month from social security disability for schizoaffective disorder diagnosed at 25, although I think if I'd avoided the heavy drug use during my early college years, I could have avoided it. I'm also slightly on the autism spectrum. Anyway, I tried taking that 900 a month to Latin America to try living off of it and it wasn't sufficient even for that. I always ended up back living at my mom's place in the end, appalled with myself.

My mom is a good person but I'm disgusted with myself for not having proper autonomy and I hate the town where she lives. It is full of retired, entitled MAGA Trumper types (I'm not political and didn't vote for anyone). Very fake people all over, and a lot of meth and opiates in the surrounding towns, although where she lives is all very elitist rich people. Nearest proper city is Tampa, almost two hours away, which I don't like either.

Anyway, I definitely understand the powerless feeling. Stuck in this cycle because I have no financial independence. You start wondering what the hell is the point. I don't like people and sure as hell wouldn't want to work someone, but the result of being stuck like this is worse, so I'm still trying.

I would look at hygiene as a self respect thing. I don't care what other people think of me but I like to keep my body in good shape for me and me alone.
 
washingtonbound said:
I'll share my situation if that helps. I'm almost 32, unemployed and miserable. I receive 900 a month from social security disability for schizoaffective disorder diagnosed at 25, although I think if I'd avoided the heavy drug use during my early college years, I could have avoided it. I'm also slightly on the autism spectrum. Anyway, I tried taking that 900 a month to Latin America to try living off of it and it wasn't sufficient even for that. I always ended up back living at my mom's place in the end, appalled with myself.

My mom is a good person but I'm disgusted with myself for not having proper autonomy and I hate the town where she lives. It is full of retired, entitled MAGA Trumper types (I'm not political and didn't vote for anyone). Very fake people all over, and a lot of meth and opiates in the surrounding towns, although where she lives is all very elitist rich people. Nearest proper city is Tampa, almost two hours away, which I don't like either.

Anyway, I definitely understand the powerless feeling. Stuck in this cycle because I have no financial independence. You start wondering what the hell is the point. I don't like people and sure as hell wouldn't want to work someone, but the result of being stuck like this is worse, so I'm still trying.

I would look at hygiene as a self respect thing. I don't care what other people think of me but I like to keep my body in good shape for me and me alone.
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Yeah man same situation honestly think this might be the end of the road for me, only so much a guy can take. Winter is coming too which means your completely isolated if you have no friends and those are terrifying for me now I get filled with such dread this time of the year.
 
fuckabout89 said:
Yeah man same situation honestly think this might be the end of the road for me, only so much a guy can take. Winter is coming too which means your completely isolated if you have no friends and those are terrifying for me now I get filled with such dread this time of the year.
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I have no friends at all and haven't for some time, but thankfully in Florida it doesn't get too cold and dreary this time of year.
 
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