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Mental Health Why do I not wanna do ANYTHING?

ChemicallyEnhanced

ChemicallyEnhanced

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[stuck living with my parents due to health issues] after days of my dad hasseling me 24/7 t clean my room, I just took trash bags up and threw everything away instead so I never have t clean/tidy it again.
Like, I'm sitting here and I haven't bathed or washed my hair or changed my clothes in like 2 weeks and I also just never ever wanna have to do those things again.
I feel like...what's the point? It's just gonna have to be done again and again and again and...I don't want to.

^No, I don't care if I smell or people think I'm dirty
 
fuckabout89 said:
Yeah I know that feeling now I'm left two choices fix my health or the other option of what you describe sadly eventually leads too except I been like that for almost a decade now. If I continue too rot away it just makes look like nothing but a bitch and I wont die a bitch or atleast fight trying.
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Sorry to hear that!
And, yeah, I get THAT option. I've even been planning VSED (maybe starting tomorrow). Even bought a mouth spray that does not contain water, but does encourage saliva flow in the mouth to prevent terrible dry mouth/thirst :/
 
Curious about your age? Have you lived on your own in the past? Would you mind sharing your mental health condition, probably has something to do with your lack of motivation...just guessing.
 
fuckabout89 said:
I'll be 30 in less than a year and still in the same place I been since I was 10. Living with my parents and no friends and never had relationship with a chick. It starts getting pretty fucking serious at this stage and the way the country is heading it scares me. First time in my life right now thinking of changing things. Fuck I dont even have money right now too even by drugs to numb the pain your just piggy backing off other people until you piss em off and they want nothing too do with you.
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I'm sorry man, I wish I could help you see what you are missing.
 
I learned earlier this year if i dont have my usual concoction of drugs its impossible for me to get motivated to even get out my bed ,it's far from ideal but what other options are there
Talking to a drug Councillor who gives you mental exercises to do at home just doesn't work for me
Depression and lack of motivation go hand in hand
 
ChemicallyEnhanced said:
[stuck living with my parents due to health issues] after days of my dad hasseling me 24/7 t clean my room, I just took trash bags up and threw everything away instead so I never have t clean/tidy it again.
Like, I'm sitting here and I haven't bathed or washed my hair or changed my clothes in like 2 weeks and I also just never ever wanna have to do those things again.
I feel like...what's the point? It's just gonna have to be done again and again and again and...I don't want to.

^No, I don't care if I smell or people think I'm dirty
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You could see a doctor about severe depression but unfortunately it's really only you that can help yourself
 
CalicoCatLover said:
It feels good to be clean. Just...shower like an animal. My advice. Try to enjoy it
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Yeh I get anxious if I think I'm smelling of BO
Because I drink to much I tend to sweat more ,but not if I take valium ,could be an anxiety issue ,something like the opposite of "The guy formally known as prince"
 
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