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Misc whats your honest consensus of this

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sorry for TL:DR - i think it might be worth your time, i don't lie



seeking an opinion as i don't know what of this experience. there's a lot of mental people, social status seeking, etc all utilizing the same devil sword of deception to get over on everybody, so i just wanted to say even though it'll sound crazy, its what i experienced, i don't have a use for dishonesty



yesterdays context;

my boy came over to chill and give me some coke cus we always favor each other hard. blessing. he threw me some meth and i thought well who wasn't like meth? it just destroys you thats all! kidding

now keep in mind, i have hallucinated from bad meth before, but thats why you bring out your camera and if you record it, then observe both now and later.


so we part ways, i eventually stand up and crank out a 40mg nosebanger, stand my computer chair to go to the kitchen for a snack. i walk across the kitchen from fridge to place trash in the trash can, which is beyond the basement door.

when i'm walking back to fridge i hear tinkering/clanking in my brothers room to the left, door to his room. he hasn't lived there in 3 years, nothing should be there. the lights were off in the kitchen and his room, so i snuck to the sliding door of his and covertly covertly peekd without setting off red flags. continued tinkering/etc so i grab my kabar knife and i sneak around into the laundry room, i wait to hear one more clank and then i charge out knife 1 hand phone the other.

when i cut the corner, all i could see was a super shiny/slick black dog that was running SUUUPER fast. my only thought was ".!?!?" maybe the dog is bait to confuse me from someone hiding on the side(i know i took meth but umm? i dont think).

thing is, i go back inside and its happening again, so i go to record it on my phone. in the initial recording, it was showing his blinds moving, bending, swaying slightly, they even banged on the window twice, annd sometimes the plastic control rod thing that dangles down, would zoot left and right like magnetism, it would be in a fixed position, then jolt to the right and maintain that one. even during this time in recording of everything, you see distortions, darkness that looks like its a waterfall seeping more darkness... not just "black". almost like an alive darkness


its crazier dude. after like the 4th time, my brothers window was literally fully open. i called the cops 4 times and it is simply the fact that i was on meth that they didn;t believe this stuff was happening, and infact detained me for slightly yelling. now my neighbors think i was a twackadoodle but i have evidence on video... i wanna post it here if i could.

just makes NO sense to me! 80mg meth? last hallu was 500mg and in crashout mode. but both are irrelevant; because in real reality that was all happening, its was recorded.

and i wasn't deprived of anything, i hate, woke up at 9 am (it was 3)


thanks for the read, and apologies i ate all the coocoo puffs. if its allowed here i'll upload them.
 
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It sounds like the meth hit you hard. I think it was probably a hallucination of some kind. Were you sleep deprived?
 
sounds very psychosis-like tbh, shrug

or maybe it was the black dog of helldoom sent by god to scare the shit outta you and put you off meth for life?

or it was some kind of bad juju -

also - you told the cops you were on meth? they detained you? for 'slightly yelling'?

Hoping you've had some sleep since then friend
 
Im debating why i have always wanted to try meth, cant get it where i am in uk. Would love to get an oil pipe and beast out a shard or two
 
Im debating why i have always wanted to try meth, cant get it where i am in uk. Would love to get an oil pipe and beast out a shard or two
i don't know after this shit i feel like its a demonic substance. i don't even know how to convey that experience because it sounds psych ward af. also my eyes seemed unreasonably sauced for the dose i was on. like other good shit would probly take 300mg to get my eyes that big. even now far after i'm hearing weird shit in the house, camera distortions and random pops. i set up my other phone downstairs in a skype video call to monitor cus i kept hearing shit and there's a random beam of light sticking out the wall:

 
sounds very psychosis-like tbh, shrug

or maybe it was the black dog of helldoom sent by god to scare the shit outta you and put you off meth for life?

or it was some kind of bad juju -

also - you told the cops you were on meth? they detained you? for 'slightly yelling'?

Hoping you've had some sleep since then friend
most definitely blackdog the doomslayer himself when i first heard those noises i was just expecting maybe a knife or gun encounter at worst, or dumb kids, and when i tried to ambush i didn't expect what looked like a dog running 200mph away. i didn't tell him i was on meth, my eyes were just sauced and he was a dumb cunt whose attitude was basically "dont call me if hes gone when im here, and dont chase after it either". then he refuses to look at a video of obviously someone shutting my brothers window and latching it. so i got pissed cus its just all unfathomably retarded, he won't watch 58 seconds of video, tells me not to call and not to chase. lol. smfh
 
most definitely blackdog the doomslayer himself when i first heard those noises i was just expecting maybe a knife or gun encounter at worst, or dumb kids, and when i tried to ambush i didn't expect what looked like a dog running 200mph away. i didn't tell him i was on meth, my eyes were just sauced and he was a dumb cunt whose attitude was basically "dont call me if hes gone when im here, and dont chase after it either". then he refuses to look at a video of obviously someone shutting my brothers window and latching it. so i got pissed cus its just all unfathomably retarded, he won't watch 58 seconds of video, tells me not to call and not to chase. lol. smfh
Just to clarify, who is “he” that you’re referring to? The dog?
 
Im debating why i have always wanted to try meth, cant get it where i am in uk. Would love to get an oil pipe and beast out a shard or two
Honestly, my best advice to you would be to never try meth and to thank yourself lucky that you don’t have that battle to deal with.

You’ve mentioned that you deal with some mental health issues (who doesn’t eh?). Obviously I’m not a professional and my opinion really doesn’t fucking matter… but meth is just… it’s a disaster waiting to happen for people who already struggle with certain mental health conditions.

You’re a big boy. You can and will make your own decisions - as you should.

Just be aware that meth would very likely ruin your fucking life. I don’t know many people who are able to have a “responsible” relationship with a drug like meth.

I’m saying all that with the best intentions. Truly.
 
answering ageing's question on if i told the cop i used meth
Okay, understood ❤️

I know it’s infuriating when you feel so misunderstood and people tell you you’re experiencing “psychosis” when you feel there’s no god damn way that could be true.

As someone that’s been in a drug induced psychosis, I have to agree with what you’ve already been told here. I’m not trying to sound patronizing in any way… I’m just trying to say that if you put the meth down.. things may start to make a lot more sense to you once you’re rested.

Take care buddy. <3
 
Okay, understood ❤️

I know it’s infuriating when you feel so misunderstood and people tell you you’re experiencing “psychosis” when you feel there’s no god damn way that could be true.

As someone that’s been in a drug induced psychosis, I have to agree with what you’ve already been told here. I’m not trying to sound patronizing in any way… I’m just trying to say that if you put the meth down.. things may start to make a lot more sense to you once you’re rested.

Take care buddy. <3
i hear you i appreciate the love. its hard to create discernment with this.

this was still happening through the night:



i live alone. none of those noises were me, i was standing still with knife. my brothers room, has sliding glass windows, and nobody i know did that and it kept happening. i moved forward since it sounded like he was about to appear. what should i think haha
 
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