What's going on in your life?

[Sara Tonin]

I'm sort of butting heads with my manager at work but trying to keep light-hearted about it. I've been thinking about trying something new, but I'm not quite ready to make a change just yet. Socially, things are decent. I've met some new people the last few times I've been out. I was getting so sick of seeing the same 30 people everytime I went to a club 8(

Guys aren't much of a focus right now but it would definitely be nice to have a cool guy to hang with (aside from my best bud, of course ). Just seems that the dating pool is suffering right now in general. The guys that are single bitch about it but do nothing to change it (i.e. won't make a move). These guys act very interested, yet they want me to chase them....which I refuse to do I'd rather be single and free than tied down to an ambivalent knucklehead So single for now and still fine with it.

I'm dying for a vacation! The weather here is crappy!! If it doesn't stop raining I think I might die! Not really just being a little dramatic here But truely, it's been raining all week and I'm tired of having unruly hair! I need some sun and an extra hour of daylight. I think I would function better.

So what's this I hear of neverending sunshine in CA? I'm jealous!!!! Still missin' you lucky bitches in the land of sunshine :D
All in all things are decent and aside from the gripes above, I can't really complain.

 

[MissTwitch]

Things here have been okay. I am enjoying being around my family at this time. I have completely shut myself off from all my friends here really. I am at this point right now that I am either pretty much glued to CNN seeing what is going on over seas, or really just completely keeping to myself writing to Geoff. It is all pretty scary. I usually don't let myself get into this stuff too much, but with the father of my unborn child there, I can't help myself.
I have been trying to keep in touch with his family as much as possible. His mom is rather worried herself. I miss him alot. He is cinstantly on my mind. I was lucky enough to receive a phone call from him on Sunday. Though he said that if I didn't hear from him in the next couple of days, that I probably wouldn't for a couple of months. It would be a great surprise to hear from him, and would absolutely make me very happy.
I have been battling with morning sickness still horribly. I should be over it by now, but I can't seem to keep anything in me at all the past few days. I have actually lost 5 pounds since I have been here the past week. I jsut hope it all goes away soon. I have an appt. with my new doctor on Tuesday the 25th. A friend of mine that is only a week ahead of me foundout what she is having a boy. I am getting pretty excited, wondering what I am having. :D
Hopefully I will get better soon. I am at high risk so I have to be careful, but I really need t oget out and about and find a new job. Working at Hooter's just doesn't seem proper to me now.
Hopefully all this war shit will end soon, and our lives can get back to some what normal. Then maybemy head will quit spinning about where my love is. 8(

Mariposa....thank you for the kind words, they are absolutely appreciated. I wish you the best of luck with all and please keep us informed how everything is doing. As ofcourse I will!

 

[Sweetpea]

^
You sound a lot more balanced I vote for a baby girl- I'm sure these times are scary for you Maybe you should just do temp work to have income and also the flexibility of staying home if you aren't feeling well a week or two out of the month.


My sister and I got a new apartment in Southern OC. We move the first. I'm more than looking forward to it. I will miss living close to the beach but I also see it as an opportunity to live a more quiet life. I have enough friends in the area that I can spend weeks at the beach if I wanted to. I want a bbq.

I partied my ass off all week long this week. I broke up with Jake recently and realize that I'm not open to someone else in my life. Yes I like guys, I've just spend so much damn time on them- Anytime any friend or guy starts getting to close or starts thinking he has a say in my life I freak out. None of that please. I was out the other night and a guy started talking to me. I went out to smoke and he said "you smoke?" I told him I would usually lie and say "only when I drink" but that I smoke more than socially. I had my cigarettes on a table outside and somehow they dissapeared. I thought about the guy I had been talking to and asked if he did something with them. The nerve! he said he threw them away because I didn't need them! He summed up perfectly why I don't want a boyfriend.

My work is taking me to a show with them in Washington DC. It happens to fall on my 26th Birthday so I'm excited to see a new state.

I've finally started taking small steps to take care of debt I have. It's actually not that bad. 8( ugh tickets...I have a lot of tickets- most of my trouble comes from irresponsibility and misplaced priorities. I want to clean it up.

 

[nephil]

...so many good things are happening for me right now, i dont want to jinx it by talking about them...

i am happy for everyone else who seems to be experiencing some up-time as well...it seems to be a trend lately

lets hope it lasts!

 

[grapeape]

yay for the pea!

sweetpea- good for you!! i'm so glad things are starting to fall into place for you. You need to e-mail me and let me know where you ended up getting a place- closer to me hopefully!

as for me- same 'ol same 'ol. still want to find a different job- i feel like my brain is going to waste. the economy sucks so bad right now and with the war i'm sure it's not going to get any better. i'm sure things will fall into place for me as well someday....i'm just patiently waiting for that day.... *sighs*8)

 

[Flea']

Good to hear Nephil.

My lifes also coming together, more and more. Really happy about that

 

[MissTwitch]

Sweetpea...so glad to here that things are looking up for you sweetie. Best of luck with your move, please let us know how you like it! It is always so much easier to just put things aside, but getting your priorities straight always does seem to help. Yes, I am a bit more balanced here and only with a little time to get used to things. Plus my hormones seemed to have chilled out a little.

Besides that I heard from Geoffrey's mom lastnight, and she a brief phone call from him stating that he is okay. So that makes me feel tons better! Besides that I have jsut been taking it easy! Took some belly pictures to send to him, I thought he would like them!

I too am hoping a little for a girl, but as long as it is healthy, that is all that matters!

Glad to see things are looking up for so many! Let's jsut hope it stays that way! :D

 

[faithfully dangerous]

i havnt ever replied to this thread before, but i need to let some stuff out... so i figured it would be a good time to reply now!

i've been working on getting my life together lately. just on the broad scale- asking myself questions and getting input from friends and family, as well. my best friend, who sometimes i swear knows me better than i know myself, tells me that whatever i decide to do with my life, i need to be doing something creative and in charge of something. i know what my dream is- to get out of ohio, write, and open my own record store/coffee shop... just so long as i can incorperate my two loves- music and words- into my life. so basically, i know what i want to be doing with my life, i just don't know how to get there. i've scheduled an appointment with my advisor at the university i attend so we can figure that out, and also schedule classes that will transfer easily! (i will NOT be in ohio for three more years...)

i just dont know whether i want to pick up and go before im done with school, or wait until after... i don't know if i'll ever get out of this godforsaken state if i don't go SOON. i guess its just timing... and of course, money.

meanwhile, i'm also working on getting my stuff published alongside my workshop instructor. i'm also working on getting my GPA up- but with sociology, biology, and two heavy writing courses, the stress level is high. i just completely bombed a what-was-supposed-to-be-easy theatre midterm, but for some reason i just didn't care. i should CARE about grades but all i care about right now is getting out!

all in all, i have had a WONDERFUL past couple weeks... i am the happiest i have ever been and can only give credit to my friends for that. "i've never been so alone, but i've never been so alive"

 

[Ima_ swEEtcandE_ravEr_2_79]

My life

Picutre this.... A few months ago you meet this amazing person and you start dating or what not. Things seem to be going really really good with this person. Anytime you go out with them you have a great time, there was nothing boring about the date. After the dates you had back to your palce and things get hot and heavy with out the sex.
You are compleatly happy and this realtionship to you feels so natural and has nothing you have experinced all your life. All of a suddenyour S.O getts really realyl sick so you become patient, understanding of giving of that other person's needes. After all all you want is them to feel better.
Then there is a turn of events..... Your S.O has to pack up and leave by the other of their parents to go home and take a acadamic quater off. But your person dosn't tell you, or harldy anyone for that matter, so you have to hear this information from your friends that happend to live in the same bulding they do. AND It is the wed before Valentines day so all of your plans are shot! And then lets say this person lives 400 miles north from where you where at. But since you really care for this person that distance is just a bunch of silly numbers.
2 days after Valenties day you recive an e-mail from your S.O that they have moved up north for the quater due to their health, but as you read on they end this great realtionship you thought you guys had. Your heart breaks into a million of peices and you start feeling depressed. You understand why they had to do it, but that was not something you where expeicting. In this e-mail you recive it did not metion anything them comming back and getting back with you. So you resond to the e-mail right away so you can have your say in the matter too.
A week passes and you still here nothing from now your ex-person. So you decided to write an e-mail explaning the fact that you think it is time that you really sit down and talk about this....
You recive a phone call and there is your ex on the other end. During the converstaion they tell you more detail of what was "really" going on... stuff they could have told you in the realtionship but DIDN'T and you then try with all your might to convisce your ex that more time was needed and that it should be givien another chance. Your Ex seems to beging frustrated with you and it is hard for you to hide your emmtions and you just let your ex say what they have to say hang up the phone and cry cry cry.... That night it is hard to sleep and it is hard to eat.
Since that time your ex blocked you off their AIM buddy, but unblocked you and you talked for a litlle bit on-line. But you still feel like a DZ.
Time goes by and you have school, work and horeses to ride, finales to get ready for and take so you try to move on with your life the best way you can with out thinking too much of what just happened to you. Some days are good. and then those are those days that you feel so lonely and heartbroken you do not want even to get out of bed. But deep down inside you are still hopeing for that change things can still happen, and you can get back in to this realtionship and start off where it stoped. After all you both have learned from this experince and what better way to apply what you have learned.
Well I know this was really really long, but that is the story of my life as it is right now...

 

[andyh]

still struggling with all the grand questions... trying to keep my philosophy in a world that is becoming computerized and run by bodies in suits.

still struggling with sexuality, trying to believe that my parents don't know, but really thinking that they do.

still struggling with friends... friends who are here, friends who are there, friends who are no where to be found. right now i'm losing a friend who became the only one in the world to truly know me, and i don't want to lose her, but i think it's inevitable. things change, times change, people change... and it all happens so fast.

i go to raves, and, sober or not, i feel better... but then it all feels as if it doesn't matter, because raves end and then it's time to go home. it's the only place where everything is understood... where you can be who you want to be. and then, just when you're getting used to it, this false reality collapses and you're in the car, headed back to the real world.

i read to escape, but then the book ends. i smoke to escape, but then the high ends.

life is a challenge, and i'm not quite sure i'm enjoying it... but there's definitely something new and interesting every single day.

peace...

 

[Goddess]

nothing much is going with my life...married life is good . Wyrm and I still learning from eachother....you know? do and dont's.

our b-days are around the corner and i'm thinking of throwing a big bash . we'lll shall see.

also, i'll be taking a week off from work next month, wait in May...i'm thinking of going to Miami to visit my parents whom i haven't seen since Dec. mom, dad, brothers and sista...here i come!!!

that's all

 

[Only In Dreams]

I am living with my wonderful boyfriend.

I have the most awesome friends, Dayna, Jessica, Jen, Lien & Nicole.

I am going to Las Vegas in less than a month with my grandma and mom and I cant wait.

I own a brand new car. Honda Accord EX V6 :D (i am paying out the ass though)

I only have SIX classes left to take to graduate from Tulane University

I have a cute little dog

I am healthy, loved and feeling great.

Life right now is good.

 

[PixieGirl]

Its been awhile since I posted in here....and my life has been quite interesting.

- Someone I really cared about has decided that it is better for us to remain just friends, maybe we aren't right for eachother but I just hate that I wasn't a part in this decision.

- Slowly I am re-building a friendship with someone who has been a huge part of my life for the last 4 1/2 years, I really miss him in my life.

- My 24th b-day is on friday, I am kinda excited to celebrate with my friends. I need a day that is all about me right now.

- I have been breaking away from the "boys" and learning what it is like to have girl friends, its kinda nice. I have definately missed sharing stilly things with my girl friends that I never get a chance to talk about with the boys.

- I have been non-stop house hunting! Who would have thought I am getting a mortgage? Its kinda scary, I have to be responsible now!!!


Guess that is it for now....

 

[Sweetpea]

^

^Oh yeah it's our birthday its our birthday -by the way I registered at Bargain Lots. I await sitting on the veranda with you.

We started moving this weekend, my sister and I are painting every room- being creative, I've never painted walls before and it's been a long time since my sister has taught me something. it's been fun. I'm excited, it's comfortable and feels right.

The real juice is that I've been a junkie all week long- parties parties everywhere- and drama which ugh I hate it.. Enough for me as of now. My mind is suprisingly quiet. Damn if I ever said I couldn't go overboard. now gimme some cocoa

Very excited about our new home. Love surrounds me here.

 

[Dagny]

^^^ Girls night!!! YAY! I can not wait for it, and the fact that it is Jen's birthday is the bestest part of all! It's welllll past time the chicas got together in a room and forbade the boys to enter. We've talked about it over the years, knew how great it would be, and it's finally happening. Miss Pea, if you try to have any other plans (outside of the acceptable sickness, bad things, etc.), expect a knock on your door, for I WILL show up and escort you to girls night in San Diego.

Just remember ladies - and these are helpful hints for any woman who is having a girls night - the day after girls night is always hat day, bring a bathing suit because if we can we will find a hot tub, socks and hoodies for sitting outside with ciggies, and any pictures you have taken/developed in the last few months. Because you know that at some point you're gonna want to show them to your girls!

That being said, not much else is new for me that I feel is share-worthy. Being the person that I desire most to be is in my grasp again it seems, and I gave up a long time ago at trying to over-plan my life. So this growing up thing is gonna work out I believe, as long as my amazing friends continue to support, love and respect me. And as long as they're around to remind me that taking myself seriously is retarded.

 

[Mariposa]

^^^ I always enjoy your posts Dagny. You seem like an incredibly levelheaded, thoughtful and special person. I wish continued happiness to you and all my buddies in the thread!

I haven't been online much the last few days, I have been spending a ton of time with my new bf (the greenie ). I met his parents last night (!!!) and I think they liked me. I thought they were really nice, but I wasn't surprised... he is such an incredible person that he had to come from good stock!

I still can't get the idea of California out of my mind though, and I think my greenie knows that. We have not talked about it a lot, but I know he knows it's on my mind. He is so understanding. I don't think either of us wants to think about the possibility that I might not stay in sofla. It is a lot more likely that I will stay now, but I fucking can not stand this place. He makes it a lot better though. Part of me says I should bloom where I am planted and I know it's so premature to make a decision either way... but the fact remains that I am unhappy here. It is a beautiful day today though, sunny and 60 deg! The decision does not have to be made today and who knows, my greenie is a computer engineer and maybe I'll get lucky and he'll get a great job in Silicon Valley.

I'm going to watch my greenie play hockey for the first time tonight, he's on a team and is really good so I am going to play cheerleader tonight

I haven't been spending a lot of time either alone or with my friends lately and I think I need to strike a better balance between friends and other activities. I grew up an only child and I live alone, so some more "me" time is necessary in order for me to maintain my sanity.

My 23rd birthday is 2 weeks from today, woo hoo! Maybe this year I'll finally get my shit together. :D

Sweetpea- glad you have found a place you like. Sometimes it's necessary to go on a bit of a bender-- just take lots of vitamins and try to make it a quiet week! Good luck with your move!

nephil- keep smiling great to see you happy!

trl- we'll catch up in the next couple days

MissTwitch- stay positive and remember that our entire country has your bf and all our troops in their thoughts. And let us know what your little one will be when you find out!

*sends positive energy*

 

[Sweetpea]

^ -the posa with the mosa I have a feeling life will be good to you no matter where you are You should come visit sometime.

Dagny

any pictures you have taken/developed in the last few months. Because you know that at some point you're gonna want to show them to your girls!

:D good idea

Miss Pea, if you try to have any other plans (outside of the acceptable sickness, bad things, etc.),

If I had other plans I'd flake to see you I can't wait to be with you guys.

 

[grapeape]

My 26th b-day is on thurs. eeek i'm old! i'm actually gonna go w/ freinds for it this year (the past 5 have sucked). I'm really excited- other than that, my life is pretty much exactly the same. same job, same bf. I really want to get back down to san diego- all of my friends are down there, and i miss having girlfreinds close by- i'm like one of the guys one of these days maybe me and miss pea will meet up.... and dags, next time i'm down in sd it's on!

 

[bisKi]

Started back at an old job, and began being more pro-active about managing and coping with the things in my life. Only worry now is trying to decide between continuing living at home or moving out. Moving out mostly to save my own sanity (too much headfucking), but the cons are the financial reasons simply that they'll cut me off financially if I do (money is their weapon).

The big worry is because of the amount I earn a month, but then the pro side is I will be financially independent, albeit barely scraping through..

 

[*LittlePrincess*]

Happy Birthday!!! to all the birthday girls! Seems a lot of you are getting older these days Congrats and best wishes have some fun celebrating for the rest of us!

It seems that everyone is so happy these days. It has brightened my day to come read that the people whose posts intrigue me most are doing so well. It seems spring is bringing good things for so many of you.

Pea - congrats on your finding a place! It must be a wonderful feeling to have a new place of your own. Its great to see your doing so well. Life brings good things to good people

mariposa - Congrats on your new greenie hun! Your kind words I always look forward to reading. I can't wait to hear how mush you love Cali... Who knows maybe my dream will come true and as I have said before, we could be neighbors God knows I am freezing my pregnant tush off in NY right now with all the freezing rain. Cali sounds so...warm I too wish you continued happiness girl!

Twitch - I know things are hard right now, but I also know we have made it through harder. Things will turn out great for you just wait. Come see me soon and call if you need anything!

As for my life, not much going on. I started working 3 weeks ago and I got paid today. I love the feeling of having my own money again I simply hate having to have help taking care of myself.

I will be car-less no longer in about a week or so. We will be traveling to Kentucky of all places to pick up a car. It's not the greatest thing but it will get from point A to point B which is all that matters right now.

It has been freezing rain in NY for the past 2 days. I'm so regretting moving from FL to no mans land up here. Who can live in such weather. I'm slowly getting used to having to start the car 30 minutes prior to leaving to defrost but I am praying for spring to show its face soon!

In the baby department, I am struggling with a major decision of possibly not putting the fathers name on the birth certificate and keeping the baby from him. I know it sounds ahrsh but I truly feel my child will be better of without having him around. However there are mnay repercussions to this action. Ive been trying to decide whats best for the baby. If I keep it from the father it may resent me for doing it later and wish its whole life it knew who it's father was. It will have questions that I may have to lie to answer. If I let him in the babies life he could possibly screw up another life. Then there is the chance of him taking me to court which I doubt he would do because he wouldn't want to waste his $500 on the paternity test he would have to pay for in order to take me to court. I just don't know what to do. I want to make the best decisions for my baby. They are always hard decisions. Any insight or advice on this problem would be greatly appreciated!

On a happier baby note...I swear my tummy grows by the day! I went shopping for maternity clothes this past weekend. Now there is no hiding this pregnant tummy from anyone I get more excited as the time nears to find out what it is. I am 16 weeks this week. One more month and they can tell what it is! I go for more blood work on the 8th I hate needles. They sure poke and prod at you a lot when your pregnant! When I get my next ultrasound I will post it somewhere for you all to see If it's a girl it will be Taryn Elizabeth and well if it's a boy it will be nameless cuz I can't find one I like. So suggestions on that are appreciated as well!

I have gained a new nickname at work these days they all call me "little mama" Cute I guess *shrugs*

I guess that's all my news for now, life is getting better slowly. I'm getting used to the fact that I am doing this alone. It's scary but what can I do...

~LP

*~*God bless our fighting troops*~*