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Originally posted by Ceria:
well, I told my boy about how I cheated on him and we haven't talked since. I miss him bad, but I'm surving. one of the guys I cheated on him with I thought I could date, but he seems cold and uninterested now...he took me on a date before stuff, I don't know. and the guy whose "list" I'm on. Well I saw him again today, and we had sex again. that's my kind of rebounding...casual sex, with someone you know doesn't want to date, and you don't want to date!
ceria,
maybe its better that you don't have a boyfriend. it seems as though you like having casual sex with several guys. this way you wont be cheating and wont hurt anyone. i've been cheated on and it kills your heart
xXx_JeNnErS_xXx
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I am just getting used to living with my boyfriend and i like life with him. I miss my mother horribly, though (i am the baby). I dont know how we are going to pay the bills, seeing how i am the only one working and the 1st is coming up around the corner. he went to look for jobs today. i really hope he finds one. if not he can always work at his dad's bbq place. i think he will just have to do that. he cant find much good work, he hasnt recieved his ged yet. i want a second job. that uti went away! thank goodness, now we can goose again... and i am waiting for my baby plant to grow. hope everyones life is great right now and stressfreeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
THeRaVeToY
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well... yeah.
i had a boyfriend for almost 2 years, and we broke up about a year ago... we continued to be *ahem* "friends." i swore up and down, left and right that i wasn't gonna date or get involoved until i figured out who i was... but he and i would still do our thing.
the last year has gone by in a blur. i start 3rd semester at UCONN-hartford next week, and it feels like i should be starting second semester. the only memorable time (except for the last 2 weeks, i'll get into that...) was about a month ago when i did backstage work for a local high school production of "anything goes."
i'm trying to get into the tech theatre program at UCONN, and sorta neglected the whole theatre aspect of my life... and it's been empty--the neglect was part of the reason for the missing 6-months of my life.
i also discovered that i was looking so hard for myself post-breakup that i was losing myself more. ever heard the song "love song for no one" by john mayer? if not, listen to it... it's so true it's scary. but get the live acoustic version with him talking in the beginning.
i was listening to that song on the way up to the asylum, for WET, and decided--because i was going by myself, my friend bitched out on me--that i was going to stop closing myself off to find myself, and let other people guide me along the way. well, serendipity stepped in, i ended up at the BL meetup. i didn't even have a watch on, i just wanted to sit down... and it happened to be in the right spot at the right time. i met a fellow BLer, who (due to my apathy for this site until recently) i had never met before. (i came to the realization that night that i'm oldschool, cuz my member registration only has 4 numbers
... oi, i'm gettin old 
)
so anyway, he asked me if i wanted to go elsewhere and dance, as the meetup wasn't really happenin, and we ended up chillin for the rest of the night... and the next night... and 2 nights after that... and so on. and i think he's just what i need.
i'm just paranoid of screwing it up, and of doing the running away thing i always seem to manage... but this time (unlike the last few) i'm not gonna screw it up, and i'm not gonna run away. he's tried convincing me that i haven't done anything to screw it up yet, and i seem to be doing things right... i'm just praying that they stay this good...
and that gas goes down to like $.25 a gallon, cuz i've driven 1200 miles in the 2 weeks i'lve known him. that's about 400 miles more than usual, and i'm not going to any of the normal places i hang... just job A, job B and his house.
so... yeah... things are actually looking really good right now i haven't stopped smiling in weeks.
i had a boyfriend for almost 2 years, and we broke up about a year ago... we continued to be *ahem* "friends." i swore up and down, left and right that i wasn't gonna date or get involoved until i figured out who i was... but he and i would still do our thing.
the last year has gone by in a blur. i start 3rd semester at UCONN-hartford next week, and it feels like i should be starting second semester. the only memorable time (except for the last 2 weeks, i'll get into that...) was about a month ago when i did backstage work for a local high school production of "anything goes."
i'm trying to get into the tech theatre program at UCONN, and sorta neglected the whole theatre aspect of my life... and it's been empty--the neglect was part of the reason for the missing 6-months of my life.
i also discovered that i was looking so hard for myself post-breakup that i was losing myself more. ever heard the song "love song for no one" by john mayer? if not, listen to it... it's so true it's scary. but get the live acoustic version with him talking in the beginning.
i was listening to that song on the way up to the asylum, for WET, and decided--because i was going by myself, my friend bitched out on me--that i was going to stop closing myself off to find myself, and let other people guide me along the way. well, serendipity stepped in, i ended up at the BL meetup. i didn't even have a watch on, i just wanted to sit down... and it happened to be in the right spot at the right time. i met a fellow BLer, who (due to my apathy for this site until recently) i had never met before. (i came to the realization that night that i'm oldschool, cuz my member registration only has 4 numbers
... oi, i'm gettin old )so anyway, he asked me if i wanted to go elsewhere and dance, as the meetup wasn't really happenin, and we ended up chillin for the rest of the night... and the next night... and 2 nights after that... and so on. and i think he's just what i need.
i'm just paranoid of screwing it up, and of doing the running away thing i always seem to manage... but this time (unlike the last few) i'm not gonna screw it up, and i'm not gonna run away. he's tried convincing me that i haven't done anything to screw it up yet, and i seem to be doing things right... i'm just praying that they stay this good...
and that gas goes down to like $.25 a gallon, cuz i've driven 1200 miles in the 2 weeks i'lve known him. that's about 400 miles more than usual, and i'm not going to any of the normal places i hang... just job A, job B and his house.
so... yeah... things are actually looking really good right now
i haven't stopped smiling in weeks.Things are always a rollercoaster for me. Right when I think I'm getting things together, they fall apart. I've only recently come to acknowledge that there's only so much I can do to prevent these random things from happening.
I withdrew from a few classes in college and my parents refused to send me back. I was ready to take a semester off and work until I could afford it on my own. I knew this wasn't right for me, but I accepted my destiny and proceeded foward. My parents are sending me back to school now, and I couldn't be more excited.
Despite my car trouble, it's proven to be less costly than expected and the future again looks bright.
There are times I find myself a little depressed. I see it as cyclical and move on. It's this fresh attitude that is getting me by. I'm seeing change in myself; it's all for the better.
I'm single and looking, but I know it will eventually come my way. The majority of my stress is self-induced. It's time to end that.
Here's to a great life ahead!
~Erik
I withdrew from a few classes in college and my parents refused to send me back. I was ready to take a semester off and work until I could afford it on my own. I knew this wasn't right for me, but I accepted my destiny and proceeded foward. My parents are sending me back to school now, and I couldn't be more excited.
Despite my car trouble, it's proven to be less costly than expected and the future again looks bright.
There are times I find myself a little depressed. I see it as cyclical and move on. It's this fresh attitude that is getting me by. I'm seeing change in myself; it's all for the better.
I'm single and looking, but I know it will eventually come my way. The majority of my stress is self-induced. It's time to end that.
Here's to a great life ahead!
~Erik
lotsa things...
i just moved into a new apartment for my very first roomate experience. i was scared to do it, but it turns out that it was probably the best thing that could have happened to me.
i had to put my kitty, audrey to sleep last monday.
my brother is slowly succumbing to his cancer, at the age of 22.
my father is almost bankrupt, thanks to his ex-wife (my mom)
my mom has gone insane. literally.
i havent called the boy im dating in a week, largely because im an asshole.
my car is breaking.
my heart is breaking.
AND, i have a UTI, which just adds a little extra fun to the mix.
yey.
i just moved into a new apartment for my very first roomate experience. i was scared to do it, but it turns out that it was probably the best thing that could have happened to me.
i had to put my kitty, audrey to sleep last monday.
my brother is slowly succumbing to his cancer, at the age of 22.
my father is almost bankrupt, thanks to his ex-wife (my mom)
my mom has gone insane. literally.
i havent called the boy im dating in a week, largely because im an asshole.
my car is breaking.
my heart is breaking.
AND, i have a UTI, which just adds a little extra fun to the mix.
yey.
(((Drea))) So sorry to hear that, I hope things turn around for you as soon as they can sounds like it's needed
Good to see most other people seem to be having better luck
I have one piece of bad news - 1 of my flatmates failed his exams and is unexpectedly moving out of our flat . I haven't seen him in a couple of months and it's like going from expecting to live with someone to hoping you will stay in touch.
Me and my other flatmate (Dohpaz) are currently advertising to get a new one, hmmm how to find someone who smokes weed and does other drugs
And on the plus note another friend who has been away for a year and who we've sort of fallen out of touch with is gonna be here for a year
Fallen in with a crowd of people who go to afterparties at the end of clubs, which is a fantastic thing. Been meeting lots of people at them and doing more drugs than usual, no sign of comedowns yet which I'm very happy with .
Had a friend of my flatmates cousins to stay for the whole of August (which is the festival here - Edinburgh), that was really cool. Got stoned for almost the whole month, and if not that then drunk Absolutely brilliant but it's hard on the wallet
I've also been working, the work is not to hard and I can't really complain, it's irritating but I think it's helping me to enjoy and take advantage of my free time.
I've got a week and a half off now which I'm appreciating :D
I'm wondering whether to buy a dedicated scratch mixer with the money or to grow weed.
I passed my exams this time round and am looking forward to 3rd year though it will be loads of work and I have a lot of improving to do.
Well thanks if you've read all that, hope you're life has been enjoyable recently as mine has been
Good to see most other people seem to be having better luck
I have one piece of bad news - 1 of my flatmates failed his exams and is unexpectedly moving out of our flat
. I haven't seen him in a couple of months and it's like going from expecting to live with someone to hoping you will stay in touch. Me and my other flatmate (Dohpaz) are currently advertising to get a new one, hmmm how to find someone who smokes weed and does other drugs
And on the plus note another friend who has been away for a year and who we've sort of fallen out of touch with is gonna be here for a year
Fallen in with a crowd of people who go to afterparties at the end of clubs, which is a fantastic thing. Been meeting lots of people at them and doing more drugs than usual, no sign of comedowns yet which I'm very happy with
. Had a friend of my flatmates cousins to stay for the whole of August (which is the festival here - Edinburgh), that was really cool. Got stoned for almost the whole month, and if not that then drunk
Absolutely brilliant but it's hard on the walletI've also been working, the work is not to hard and I can't really complain, it's irritating but I think it's helping me to enjoy and take advantage of my free time.
I've got a week and a half off now which I'm appreciating :D
I'm wondering whether to buy a dedicated scratch mixer with the money or to grow weed.
I passed my exams this time round and am looking forward to 3rd year though it will be loads of work and I have a lot of improving to do.
Well thanks if you've read all that, hope you're life has been enjoyable recently as mine has been
I came back home for the summer to reconnect with my old friends from high school, but I've only seen most of them once or twice. Some of my best friends, as well as my Dad, tell me I'm a burnout, and I believe them, but when they tell me to get my act together it just makes me more hopeless.
I was robbed of over $500 at a festival two weeks ago.
I'm broke, jobless, and don't want to go back to school in the fall because it doesn't give me pleasure anymore (even though I go to Stanford).
Sometimes just getting out of bed in the morning is hard for me to do.
I have suicidal thoughts almost every day.
I think the world is going down the shithole and I can't do anything about it except watch the decay of everything and everyone around me.
All I can see in my future is a weary monotony of working for the government-corporate complex and being trapped in workplace politics, even if I go into academia, because I will have to ask them for money to fund the projects that THEY deem to be worthwile.
I find it extremely hard to trust people, including my family and my best friends.
I have no self-confidence, especially not with women.
I feel like a bullshit artist.
I was robbed of over $500 at a festival two weeks ago.
I'm broke, jobless, and don't want to go back to school in the fall because it doesn't give me pleasure anymore (even though I go to Stanford).
Sometimes just getting out of bed in the morning is hard for me to do.
I have suicidal thoughts almost every day.
I think the world is going down the shithole and I can't do anything about it except watch the decay of everything and everyone around me.
All I can see in my future is a weary monotony of working for the government-corporate complex and being trapped in workplace politics, even if I go into academia, because I will have to ask them for money to fund the projects that THEY deem to be worthwile.
I find it extremely hard to trust people, including my family and my best friends.
I have no self-confidence, especially not with women.
I feel like a bullshit artist.
protectedwfire
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Aweee, kewl! Congrats
Congratssiren
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Physix Media- Thank you. Whereas being diagnosed with herpes is nothing compared to AIDS, it still completely devastated me. Its also a kind of pain I would never ever wish upon another human being.. And then I found out that my best friend in the entire world also has it; she contracted it from her boyfriend. That same day I also managed to get kicked out of my house.
Thornton gave me the best advice of anyone. He told me to look at all the opportunities i have versus the ones I don't have. He's someone who is making a tremendous impact upon my life and i'm so grateful for his presence.
I'm still trying to learn how to ask people for help. I've been so stubbornly independent for the last few years of my life that it takes a lot for me to break down and ask for help from people.
Thornton gave me the best advice of anyone. He told me to look at all the opportunities i have versus the ones I don't have. He's someone who is making a tremendous impact upon my life and i'm so grateful for his presence.
I'm still trying to learn how to ask people for help. I've been so stubbornly independent for the last few years of my life that it takes a lot for me to break down and ask for help from people.
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Im moving out 3 weeks tomorrow and going to university which I am really lucky to be doing seeing as I never bothered with high school and I kind of knew I could get away without going and somehow id be ok and I am. Although I havent done any real work for years and in a way ive never done real work so I hope it isnt too hard for me.
not too shabby
Bluelighter
i've quit drugs, i only smoke and drink a lot now days.
i've also quit the dole and am apparantly a good citizen! with 2 shitty part time jobs and debts coming out of my arse.
i'm with the same guy i've been with for 5 years now and still dont know whats going on, but i'm pretty happy with that
confusion is sex
i have downloaded about 1000 of my favourite tunes which take up most the disk space on my pc.
new neighbours downstairs... noisy goddam speed freaks (just when i've quit, yay )with crappy taste in music and a bigger stereo than mine.
havent achieved anything i set out to but since i'm happy i couldnt give a shit.
my car still works but theres something wrong with the radiator.
have become quite antisocial.
not to mention been waking up before the alarm!
also have plotted many means of revenge on the lawnmower man who comes every monday at 8fucking30am.
and i know everythings gonna be alright
i've also quit the dole and am apparantly a good citizen! with 2 shitty part time jobs and debts coming out of my arse.
i'm with the same guy i've been with for 5 years now and still dont know whats going on, but i'm pretty happy with that
confusion is sex
i have downloaded about 1000 of my favourite tunes which take up most the disk space on my pc.
new neighbours downstairs... noisy goddam speed freaks (just when i've quit, yay
)with crappy taste in music and a bigger stereo than mine.havent achieved anything i set out to but since i'm happy i couldnt give a shit.
my car still works but theres something wrong with the radiator.
have become quite antisocial.
not to mention been waking up before the alarm!
also have plotted many means of revenge on the lawnmower man who comes every monday at 8fucking30am.
and i know everythings gonna be alright
Funky4Breakz
Bluelighter
Well to start things off...
I got a new job working with two close friends of mine at The Limited. YES! hehe
My bestest friend in the world since 3rd grade has been callin me off the hook. We hadnt seen each other in a little more than a year and half and I met up with her the other day, had a blast....and she met my fiancee! DOUBLE YES! hehe
Ive lost 10 lbs and have been working out with my friend Johnny who is buff as hell. heheh
My hair is growing out.
Im so happy with life and my lover, my heart and soul...JERRY!
xoxox
I got a new job working with two close friends of mine at The Limited.
YES! heheMy bestest friend in the world since 3rd grade has been callin me off the hook. We hadnt seen each other in a little more than a year and half and I met up with her the other day, had a blast....and she met my fiancee! DOUBLE YES! hehe
Ive lost 10 lbs and have been working out with my friend Johnny who is buff as hell.
hehehMy hair is growing out.
Im so happy with life and my lover, my heart and soul...JERRY!
xoxox
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Doctor Love
Bluelighter
I got a new job working for Direct TV as a sales associate, I start Monday and am very excited!
Squeaks
Bluelighter
Well alot has happened to me since I last posted.... Lets see where do I begin.....
Well my life totally changed yet again right after this years Starscape.
I became super close with a select group of Bl'ers to the point that I am actually going to move just to be closer to one in particular.
I am still waiting tables but no longer where I should only because of partying too much(needed cheaper shittier atmosphere to humble me up).
I have become quite the alchoholic which I do not like but at the same time am not ready to fix just yet...
Maybe this move up the mountains will just be what the doctor ordered.
Some nice quiet rest, and relaxation(oh wait I said I was moving closer to Bl'ers didnt I scratch the rest lol j/k)
I will be moving up near Wilkes Barre Pa which should be a nice change from the busy city of Philly.
I am still very much fucked up in the head though in the relationship field. Do I take the chance or dont I is what I am thinking.
Inquiring Minds want to know
Well my life totally changed yet again right after this years Starscape.
I became super close with a select group of Bl'ers to the point that I am actually going to move just to be closer to one in particular.
I am still waiting tables but no longer where I should only because of partying too much(needed cheaper shittier atmosphere to humble me up).
I have become quite the alchoholic which I do not like but at the same time am not ready to fix just yet...
Maybe this move up the mountains will just be what the doctor ordered.
Some nice quiet rest, and relaxation(oh wait I said I was moving closer to Bl'ers didnt I scratch the rest lol j/k)
I will be moving up near Wilkes Barre Pa which should be a nice change from the busy city of Philly.
I am still very much fucked up in the head though in the relationship field. Do I take the chance or dont I is what I am thinking.
Inquiring Minds want to know
I'm still working a corporate job in the suburbs outside Philly, engaged, and living with my parents (d'oh!). I'm trying to play and write music as much as possible, but other things always get in the way...
...my job might be ending in a short while (no way to know...I'm a temp ), so I'm taking it as slowly as I can...and I'm REALLY looking forward to seeing Phish again at the end of the year It's so pathetic that a band can make me this happy.
All in all, things seem pretty good...now if it was only possible to shrug off a chemical imbalance that makes it hard to see the forest for the trees...details always seem to overwhelm the big picture...
...my job might be ending in a short while (no way to know...I'm a temp
), so I'm taking it as slowly as I can...and I'm REALLY looking forward to seeing Phish again at the end of the year It's so pathetic that a band can make me this happy.All in all, things seem pretty good...now if it was only possible to shrug off a chemical imbalance that makes it hard to see the forest for the trees...details always seem to overwhelm the big picture...
dj_make_me_dance
Bluelighter
I just started college again.. BLAH but I only have school on MOndays and Wensdays, so its not to bad. My job sucks, but most people do hate there job. Its the same job I have been working at since 15 so I am going on 4 yrs there. Its getting old a repetitive so I am ready to leave. But I think I am gonna wait till I get this degree done and get a better job. And I found someone that makes me happy... he has brought a lot of qualities(sp?) out of me that I didn't have *waves to Ryan* thanx!!!
*waves to Ryan* thanx!!!snitchienitches
Bluelighter
Originally posted by spinkle:
...and I'm REALLY looking forward to seeing Phish again at the end of the year
...
ME TOO, spinkle!!! yippee!! i am so excited it isn't even funny.
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