I have heard reports of those RC cannabanoids being very addictive and having strange side effects. I sampled some in the early JWH days and they were very strong. I see the appeal. I dont react well to cannabanoids much anymore but those JWH drugs were strong as hell and kinda neat. You sound pretty self aware so I wont press the issue anymore. Just wanted to voice my concerns but you seem to have a good head on your shoulders
MDMB-4en-PINACA, the compound I acquired a gram of, has a threshold oral dose of 20-25ug, and maxes out safely orally ~450ug for me. ~250ug or so and above is far too much already. Vaporized, I made 100mL of 744ug/mL vape juice and it's not the strongest, but I don't use spice necessarily for the PCP/DMT-like breakthroughs it can induce, but instead since it's a PCP-like cannabis experience. The sooner I can get this crystal into a safer RoA, the better I'll be. 1,100 (11 sheets) have been lain so far, 9 100ug sheets and 2 200ug sheets. The 200ug sheets were the first, but were a bit potent so I laid the next page at half the dose. I appreciate the compliment about having a good head on my shoulders, it means a lot to hear from somebody who cares and pays attention to detail, the way you do. Much like with benzos, I take breaks from MDMB-4en-PINACA and both THC-O and HHC continue to hit harder than MDMB-4en-PINACA (due to my low dosing of spice), and they all have unique characters. Once you factor in things like THC-V, THC-B, THC-H, THC-P, THC-P-O, CBN-O, etc. there's a fascinating diversity of cannabinoids that don't even touch upon the synthetic category, it's really fun to whip up interesting mixes of cannabinoids for different purposes. When I've got some cash to throw around, I'm going to grab something like 8 vape tanks with a little stand for them, fill one with DMT, and the seven others with cannabinoid mixtures like THC-B, THC-H, and D9, that's so mystical feeling that it makes mushrooms feel like Ritalin.
Oh damn, well please be careful with them. I'm glad to hear that your roommate is okay. An NBOMe death sounds like a horrible way to go out. Benzos have made me make rash decisions before though.
I'm definitely careful with them, but the problem with acquiring NBXXs in any form other than crystal is that you really don't know the potency or accuracy of intended potency per dose. I've been jumpscared by accidental hotspots in nothing more than NBXXs, and benzo blotter. Both are often HIGHLY inaccurate in my experience. Speaking of blotter, these last 11 pages I have been storing cannabinoids in (so I can hide them in book cover sleeves since I only need a page every year or two) were lain perfectly with a great dish and a well calibrated scale, and the sheet I've been testing so far seems to be astoundingly evenly lain. I intend on eventually whipping up and bioassaying a variety of N-benzylated phenethylamines that Heim, Trachsel, nor clandestine chemists seem to have explored yet. I find NBXXs as valuable as LSD and DMT, their poor reputation just ties back to the bad vibes of how they were deceptively sold as LSD at many points. The person who ate a ton of them takes super heavy duty anti-serotonergic drugs as antidepressants, and I suspect that it may have contributed to their survival, as well as the (17mg of flualprazolam that they were on).
Salvia is an interesting way to calm down the residual stimulation lol. Sounds like a very interesting experience.
I'm personally a huge salvia enthusiast, I find it incredibly calming and euphoric. Cultivating it is a fascinating and rewarding experience as well, most of what I've consumed was salvia that I grew myself. As a teenager, salvia and DXM were the first two hallucinogens I ran into, and both left me thinking "Huh, that was interesting but I'm not really sure what to do with it at this point in my life".
What were your first drugs, that you ran into in life?
Sorry for the short response. Graandaps service is early tomorrow. Gonna go to bed. I'll respond to this tomorrow when I have more time to do it justice
Gonna catch some z's but I'll talk to you later. Sorry to keep it short. I'll respond tomorrow or the following day. I really need some rest
Never be sorry about brief responses, not only am I an inherently ranty mfer but also life always comes first. I hope your grandfather's service went well!!
I say that if it's something that you're considering and have good knowledge of and practice with, that it's worth writing up
I'm 100 % about the community having as much information at their fingertips as possible. I've considered laying blotters of certain things like 25b-NBOMe and others. If you have the time and it's something that you want to do then I say go for it
I could do a writeup about laying blotter for sure, as well as a more advanced than usual guide to cleaning bongs at this point, I'm definitely going to have to get around to both of these. I'm currently writing up some trip reports from more meaningful or intense experiences I've had too, I might start a blogger page since Nervewing is such a muse of mine. If you ever have direct questions about any of these, or pressing tablets, don't hesitate to reach out!
I completely understand the having difficulty communicating and articulating those internal thoughts. Gender-Nonconforming is where I leaned for a long time. I have tons of feminine traits and lean in that direction but I also have a lot of traits that can be considered masculine such as natural athletic ability, passion for things like sports, my sense of humor, the way that I like to horse around, etc. Through out the years I've realized how unnecessary labels can ultimately be. I mean, labels are also very important when trying to understand ones identity, but there is no problem with forgoing them completely. There are a lot of people who don't fit neatly into boxes and that's okay
I agree totally about the utility of being able to care, or not care, about labels dependent on context. I suppose my issue is moreso with feeling like I lack the proper capacities to articulate the emotion if that makes sense. Working on it though! One thing that I really appreciate about gen Z folks and younger is that the concept of living by labels has kind of faded away into the past, it's a really liberating way to live life.
I'm in that same boat. Having a penis is not something that ever gave me dysphoria. It's other traits that do but I'm comfortable with having a penis and in fact I rather enjoy having one and like the way that it looks.
Yeah, reflecting on how I wrote the message I realized that I should've stressed that the point for most trans people is a term cis people probably never think of, "passing". To the cis readers perusing this thread, passing means being recognized as the gender that you feel you are, so a trans person presenting their appearance in such a way that they'd catch a "sir" or "ma'am" according to the gender they feel they are internally and therefore wish to physically express and be perceived as. I feel like the whole thing with passing is that it's such a hit of gender euphoria that it can go on to balance or even outweigh other feelings of gender dysphoria that occur if that makes sense, but I'm essentially no gender at all (idrk what that would even be called) so take this with the knowledge that I am not living the trans experience like 99% of trans people do.
I just don't have a great place to record vocals at the moment.
If you ever have questions about recording feel free to ask away, I used to work professional A/V back in college.
I feel MUCH MUCH happier and am already feeling much less depressed since deciding to transition. I've mad the right choice. I feel like it'll be a lot easier for me to enjoy hobbies and get back into them now that I'm not hiding from myself or the world.
It's amazing that you've find such happiness through better connecting with yourself, your future seems like it's full of happiness now due to making the right decisions to look out for yourself. It's an important thing that people often forget to do, act in their own best interests not out of selfishness, but out of love for those who love and care about you in your life. Sorry if that's a weirdly empathogen-coded thing to say, I tripped/rolled harder yesterday than I have in a long time.
Between getting back to skateboarding, as well as transitioning, some nail polish, fresh bearings, and a new deck may be in order soon! Gotta facilitate the growth however you can. I miss doing my nails, I should get around to that soon. Today I hand-packed prerolled cigarette papers with filters in them, 8 cigarettes for my fiance
@Felidaez, 28 filled with damiana that I infused at 35mg of MDMB-4en-PINACA versus 55g of damiana. It's weaker than I'd like for intense breakthroughs, but mild enough to be highly functional which is nice. I can always just shred the box mod if I'm really dying for a breakthrough, but given MDMB-4en-PINACA's safety profile I'm all good on pushing it, you know? DPT (both orally and vaporized), 3-MeO-PCP, 3-HO-PCP, and high dose cannabis (dabbing 1.5-2 full grams of crystalline THCa types of high) all compare to what this drug can do, I find it quite fascinating. I tested the blotter out last night, a 200ug tab that I cut in half made me dance so hard to music in my computer chair that I rolled/fell clean over the edge of my desk chair, and I almost impulsively crawl ran out of the house just to go hang out in the outdoors for a little bit.
The 25I-NBOMe/25B-NBOH experience that I had was one of the most intense trips/rolls of my entire life, easily a top 10 or 15, out of many hundreds total. As the trip wore down, I started trying to make some preweighed gel caps of compounds I like so that I don't have to weigh them out when I want to use them, "precapping" is a practice I also do so I can put them in labeled little containers with specific dates, to plan trips ahead of time. It's quite fun to do, setting aside a nexus flip for valentine's day, some LSD with just enough flualprazolam to chill out without killing the trip for Christmas, etc. can be quite rewarding imo and is an example of a healthy relationship to drugs as it spits in the face of compuilsive drug usage. The entire trip felt a lot like my consciousness was expanding both outwards and inwards, the visuals were at times completely overtaking my field of vision with designs similar to Persian rugs of paisely designs, mild color shifting, and intense distortion of things I saw as far as warping and bending. Sex on this experience was mind blowing, the way it altered the visuals was fascinating as well, it intensified them greatly. This experience made me feel incredibly empathogenic, open, connected, loved by and loving of those in my life, and the psychedelic side helped me work through many recent points of stress in my life, and reflect on the things that have been occuring that I'm proud of and which bring me joy. Overall, it was profoundly positively impactful on my mental health. At one point though I walked up to my mother and told her "Good morning!" with overwhelming enthusiasm, at 3:00PM which was pretty funny. My fiance and I are currently living here on some land that I'll be inherting, saving to put down a home out of metal containers, I'm super excited.
As the trip was winding down after I smoked some salvia to ground myself back to reality and feel more of that "be right here, right now" type of peace, when I was filling gel caps with 2C-B, I inevitably spilled a little bit. Not sure how much, but I've eyeballed (and weighed) doses of 2C-B unironically many hundreds of times and I would estimate it was between 15-25 milligrams. I decided to see how the NBXX experience created tolerance, so I cut this spilled 2C-B into a line and railed it. The pain knew no bounds, but the trip was nice, the only difference from if I hadn't just used NBXXs was that the 2C-B felt mildly more stimulating, and less visual, though it still had noticeable visuals (keep in mind I have mind-blowingly intense HPPD from how much I trip, too). I dosed the NBXX's ~7PM, the 2C-B ~11PM, and was asleep ~5AM. Before getting to sleep, I tested those two halves of the 200ug MDMB-4en-PINACA tabs once I'd felt the other things wear out of my system, and that felt unbelievably similar to eating 3-HO-PCP in doses between say, 15-25mg all at once. This NBXX experience is going to make me have to push my microdosing antics further out (3-4 weeks at least, for tolerance reset), but that's not a big deal. One time on 3mg of DOB (4mg gives me some scary cardiac symptoms) I had been tripping for ~36 hours, and I smoked a breakthrough dose of MDMB-4en-PINACA and collapsed, seeing countless people in white robes with black triangles on their faces (similar to the film The Void (2016)) surrounding me, but then they revealed themselves to all be the pagan god of The Green Man. Speaking of The Green Man, my fiance and I both saw him once during a mushroom trip (our first on Panaeolus cyanescens) and we didn't mention it to one another. A year or two later, he shows me a drawing of the entity I saw and my spine felt like it turned into a lightning bolt, that feeling of shock is profoundly difficult to articulate.
The Green Man encounter that my fiance had was just seeing him in the house, and thinking "damn, these mushrooms are heady". I though, was in the bathroom by myself staring into my own eyes in the mirror, as I tend to when I'm tripping super hard. I found it useful for meditating back when I would take monstrous doses of ayahusca daily for 8-10 months, so I figured I'd give it a shot here. We consumed 5g each of these Pan cyans, most people should never exceed 1.5-2g, and a standard dose is often 0.5-0.75g it turns out. We didn't know that though and just dosed them as if they were Psilocybe cubensis, which was a huge goof on our part. We've never had a bad trip/roll (I don't believe in them personally, nor does my fiance) but sometimes we certainly bite off more than we can chew. One of our first dates was splitting 34 tabs of acid and watching Stephen King's Stand By Me, hell, I even met him by introducing him to LSD (a single tab) in August of 2022. Back to the entity contact, as I was staring at myself in the mirror, the mirror was not reflecting my face, but instead the image of The Green Man, a man made out of plants with a skull like a deer, and he leaned his forehead slowly out of the mirror towards me. I did the same towards him, and we sort of "no-clipped" through each other if that makes sense. The areas that we made contact in, showed him growing fur that resembled my beard, I think he was trying to communicate some sort of influence that the symbolism of that figure has or has had on me. I grew up around a lot of Western occultism, LaVeyan writings and the folk magic from the area I grew up in (Midcoast Maine), so I feel like if this entity was just something I saw, it'd be normal. The fact that my fiance saw it too though, and that he did not grow up with the cultural exposure to that imgery that I had, is quite strange.
My apologies for the rantiness, I need to cut back on my bupropion consumption soon, maybe I'll replace it with ephedra tea for a while as I just stumbled upon a kilo of it that I had laying around. I also have a 5 kilo bag of HBWR that I need to extract from and test for activity soon, it's been sitting around for a while and I'm unsure how age would impact it given it's been dry, cool, and dark, which is how lysergamides optimally
should be stored. Sorry again for the wall of text, I'll get back on the topic of the thread. I nibbled a tiz tab earlier, but really didn't feel it so instead I just wore myself out by rolling ~44 cigarettes containing either tobacco, MDMB-4en-PINACA infused damiana, or salvia. Didn't get as much done today as I was hoping to, but I was also catching up on much needed sleep, so hopefully tomorrow I'll accomplish some more meaningful activities.
(at least in German the new gender police has absolutely violated the language)
