Oldskipper
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8 Cans, some nice hash and a few yellows
Wishing you best with your mom brotherHey I feel I can participate and not just say kratom and cannabis. Tonight after a very rough day took 15 mgs of the Teva diazepam tablets (3- 5 mg tablets) that are from a prescription. Both parents get them and don't take them and they pile up. For years I left them alone even with several hundred around to be a good boy and not lift pills. I was good for the last 20 years. Well today I broke, dealing with hospice for my mother and other care facilities. No guilt either as I did good for years. Took them about 10 minutes ago with some kratom. We will see.
I have zero tolerance. 2 weeks ago Took .5 alprazolam also from a pharmacy and prescription. .25 mgs pills. This was after a trip. Even those I can feel .25.
Etizolam is still my favorite. Actually alprazolam feels like etizolam with a little diphenhydramine. (the old benzo insult! lol)
I am gearing up for some stressful weeks ahead so want to be wise over benzo use. Luckly I can't take the stuff 2 days in a row. I am always happy when they wear off.
Edit: So 25 minutes later I am getting the nice calm feeling. Wasn't sure 15 mgs would be enough but it most certainly is. Surprised how quick they kicked in. Seems as fast as any other benzo. Could be me.
Good to see you amigoHad a great day with my daughter but stressed asfff lol but enjoy the quality time
And now that she's in bed it's time to fuckin chill TF out
All on a fasted stomach plus no tolerance rn
Albuterol
1.5mg clonazepam
250mg butalbital
900mg gabapentin
100mg diphenhydramine
50mg promethazine
60mg DXM
Plus been absolutely chain smoking this 7 gram cartridge of grape apefeeling hypnotic and euphoric as hell and absolutely no demons in my ear feels good
Hope y'all are wellnow I'ma go watch something heady as shit and fuckin fly
y'all be safe
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You too I hope you're doing wellGood to see you amigo![]()
Gracias, Iโm hanginโ in thereYou too I hope you're doing wellI been busy asf cuz I got with a girl with a kid months ago and her father's a piece of shit so I'm full time dad now and I've barely had time to do what I want
but don't get me wrong I love my baby girl and id rather focus on her needs/wants over mine any day
Hope you have a good night![]()
Hola amigo,Feeling fuckin hypnotic as hellI got my legit scripts in today
now that my daughter is asleep with her mom (who is sober) ima medicate lol cuzI had a horrible day cuz I had a full breakdown today
full disassociated episode plus a PTSD episode the whole shebang so I'm dosing pretty high tonight cuz I'm still not fully out of psychosis and still paranoid as hell atill
Anyways to fix all that so far I've dosed on a fasted stomach-
Hella menthols all fuckin day with cigars and vaping
plus I've been chain smoking wax all day and night and had about 4 grams of super high quality Alien OG
7mg clonazepam 3 were SL 4 were oral
200mg butalbital
100mg diphenhydramine
25mg promethazine
60mg DXM
(!!! Do not mix benzos with barbiturates it can be extremely lethal !!!) I've just had these scripts for years so I know my limits very very well
Not to mention over a decade of being addicted to pretty much every gaba drug their is in the US
anyways I hope you all stay safe and are doing well![]()
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Very much appreciated my friendHola amigo,
Here with you with understanding on PTSD. Iโve been struggling with my PTSD symptoms so bad lately that I barely slept all week. Today is the first day that Iโm crashing out taking little naps here and there. But still so much adrenaline that I still canโt get a restorative sleep and keep getting jolted awake every time I drift off. Sorry I hope Iโm not complaining too much here, I just wanted to let you know youโre not aloneโฆ. PTSD can be so hard (and symptoms can be manifested in so many different ways in the people that have it)
Anyways, sending much love![]()