ControlDaddy
Bluelighter
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Except, I was on a bad comedown when I wrote that, and I am not sure it makes sense, or if it does, I am pretty sure it is depressing, or reckless for no reason. That is not how I like to be.I guess it doesn't hurt to live by the phrase "eat to live, don't live to eat". After all, food addiction is a thing, and at least that's one less thing you gotta worry about being addicted to. If what you're doing feels right and even doctors say your doing okay, then I suppose nobody can tell you otherwise. Its your body and your choice to do what you will with it, i always say, even if treating it like a temple isn't part of the routine. You do you. Its your right.
What I was trying to get across, is my stimulant use is manifold abuse, extreme, and dangerous. I do reach points where I am in hyperthermia quite often, which is a good indicator I am currently in neurotoxic dyshomeostasis, i.e. dealing myself brain and/or heart damage. Not what anyone should be shooting for. So, given that I am what I yam, I really have to do everything else I can to fight the damage meth can to to a body and mind.
So eating, sleeping, keeping cool, thinking positive, exercising (i mean, that one, I really should do but don't), bathing, hydrating, never indulging fear or doubt, while still checking myself for illusions of control in all these things I just mentioned, are of paramount importance to me. When you are talking about probable permanent brain and heart damage, a lack of appetite, a clenched jaw, a tore up dry mouth, a lack of interest, negative feelings about myself, all those things pale before the grisly reality of rapidly aging myself right now, as well as chopping off years far ahead, for good. So I eat, try to feel positive about it, and enjoy the flavors, aromas, full feeling, and knowledge that I am reducing harms by doing so.