Sepher
Bluelight Crew
Difficult to remember exactly when I first IVed but think I'd had a habit a good 3, maybe 4 years even before I picked up a needle. I'd always said I'd never IV, cos that was proper junkie shit and even as a junkie myself we do like to maintain these little distinctions don't we? 8) Kept a fairly steady habit chasing around a gram a day for a good coupla years but my tolerance was such that I could barely even feel it any more, let alone get anywhere near a nod. I'd be out shoplifting all day to raise the money for the three bags I needed ( and the three for my g/f ) so I could chase up a couple of them a night and have one left for morning, and it was bloody soul-destroying watching my g/f gouching half-way through a bag while there's me blazing my way through over half a gram and feeling totally straight for it so I bought a pack of syringes on the quiet and started shooting from time to time when she wasn't around. First time I put 0.1 or so on a spoon and felt the rush I was done for really, cos Glory Hallelujah the nods were back! Started shooting more and more often, my g/f finding out pretty quickly and from that point I shot all my gear while she continued to smoke hers.
It was about the biggest mistake I made with H. Noone told me that the rediscovered high wouldn't last and that in a coupla months I'd be right back to square one, shooting a coupla bags a night and getting nothing from it again. Barely even felt a rush as it went in after a while unless I was rattling. Reached a point where I'd have to put half a g at a time on the spoon a coupla times a night to really get much of a nod, which was completely unsustainable even when times were good. When we split and I found it hard to make as much money thieving on my own as I had previously with her I was really knackered, cos I could barely even maintain my habit IVing, so no way I could go back to chasing. The last coupla years of my habit I seemed to be almost constantly in withdrawal or on the verge of withdrawal with only ever short periods of relief from it. Such a trap to fall into, so hard to get back out.
It was about the biggest mistake I made with H. Noone told me that the rediscovered high wouldn't last and that in a coupla months I'd be right back to square one, shooting a coupla bags a night and getting nothing from it again. Barely even felt a rush as it went in after a while unless I was rattling. Reached a point where I'd have to put half a g at a time on the spoon a coupla times a night to really get much of a nod, which was completely unsustainable even when times were good. When we split and I found it hard to make as much money thieving on my own as I had previously with her I was really knackered, cos I could barely even maintain my habit IVing, so no way I could go back to chasing. The last coupla years of my habit I seemed to be almost constantly in withdrawal or on the verge of withdrawal with only ever short periods of relief from it. Such a trap to fall into, so hard to get back out.