1. Whats your age and your geographical location?
19, Georgia (Augusta area)
2. What is your experience with opiates, which ones do you use?
Right before I turned 15 I was making a pitiful attempt at being a weed dealer, one day my friend who had 37 percocet 5/325s wanted to trade. He didn't like them (what a fucking psycho
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
) and didn't realize they had any value so I got them all. I pretty much fell in love instantly and for the next few months took or snorted hydrocodone/percocet whenever it was around. Yeah I know, snorting percs and hydros was dumb but I like doing lines and I've always figured the more powder the more fun, plus I would pretty much drink water through my nose so that it would all go down and it didn't bother me at all. Then, I had my first OC40, right before the reformulation. Snorted the whole thing, had my first real nod, my dad walked in on me and knew, so I had to lay low and not use any drugs for a couple months. Got back to it though, and for the rest of my sophomore/junior years just kind of went steady in a cycle of occasional use, a few weeks of good luck and heavy binges, parents finding out, having to get sober, waiting for them to forget about it, and starting again. Tolerance stayed pretty much the same the whole time, until late in my senior year when I started stealing opana 10's and roxi 30's every day from my friend's medicine cabinet. I was always high on opana or oxy, always snorted it. Got arrested right before graduation, went to rehab, got on the Vivitrol shot, then after a few months came home and did a couple months minimum security jail time for my drug charges. Living with a bunch of junkies for 3 months of course ruined my sobriety. When I got out I found out another friend of mine got 360 roxi 30's a month and never kept much of an eye on them. This was a year ago, I started a 2 month long habit of snorting or shooting what peaked at a 310-420mg habit, and didn't pay a dime for any of it. Then my parents found me overdosed one morning, and made me get the Vivitrol shot again for 12 months. I've got 1 or 2 months left until no more of these dumb fucking shots.
Opiates I've used so far in order from most to least used: oxycodone, hydrocodone, oxymorphone, morphine, kratom, methadone, codeine, subuxone, hydromorphone, demerol, fentanyl
3. How often do you use opiates?
I'm on vivitrol and have been since last April, but at the end of every month right before my next shot i'll usually IV a roxi 30, morphine, or 1-2mg from a suboxone strip. I just get kind of a body high, none of the mental/emotional effects. As for the rest, I guess I already answered.
4. Why do you use opiates?
I don't think this is a question I could ever find the words to answer, but I know that probably everyone on this thread understands it. Opioids are an all-purpose drug, I could use them for energy and focus, for anxiolytic effects, for confidence and a better personality, for overall happiness, for making me feel more alive than anything else and intensifying emotions, for making me feel nothing, for nodding, for getting really fucked up, you name it. i hope nobody replies to this with some kind of "you're young, don't get back on it" response, i have fully learned and become aware of the nature of my addictive personality. my justification for the next time i use opiates after naltrexone is that i no longer know anyone i can steal pills from, and opiates are so expensive now i couldn't even afford to do heroin
occasionally with how little money i have. at best, i'll be able to get high twice a month. i know this justification is bullshit and that i'll end up finding what i want somehow, but i still make this justification.
5. What kind of drug scene are you in?
I'm not. No one in the pill/junkie scene will have anything to do with me because I just don't look right. Either that or they try to rip me off, I tell them to fuck off unless they're serious and I never hear from them again. I definitely look like/come off as someone who doesn't and never has done most of the shit I've done. So people who could be sources or using buddies for me either think i'm a poser or a cop. As a teenager I had a couple of friends who would use drugs with me, but for the most part I was in the whole straight edge/hardcore scene. Now my old friends I would do opiates with either don't use drugs anymore or I don't talk to them anymore. My girlfriend and handful of close friends just occasionally do whatever I'm doing, which is just drinking and occasionally benzos, psychedelics, or mxe when it's around (not often anymore).
6. Also, what kind of administration do you use?
Whenever I try and use anything being on the Vivitrol(naltrexone) shot I IV it because I figure no other way would make me feel anything at all. If I wasn't on it, I'd probably be snorting 75% of the time and shooting 25% of the time, at least that's where I left off.
