I'M this close to killing myself. Mental health support forums are useless and i'm on so many on reddit. Even my own insurance doesn't wanna deal with me because i'm so crazy . I have no friends and this project is really my own outlet but whatever seems like people don't want NMR or are happy for what I have provided.
You guy's can deal with this on your own.
Maybe i'll return maybe I wont but whatever. Goodluck and i'm not trolling
Look, my friend. Im 100% certain, not a single soul or member here wishes you any harm or malice. Friction builds in heated debate.
I too have severe mental health issues. Long term severe clinical depression, largely chemical and biological in nature, the most extreme anxiety disorder- it genuinely threatens my life because I am dangerously underweight due to severe allergies and multiple chronic infections and so many other extremely unusual complications which make eating normally and sufficiently impossible for me.
I endure great levels of pain and suffering on a daily basis often to the point where reality is unbearable in terms of keeping that Focus and fighting through.
So I genuinely empathize with you feeling distraught and hopeless and down with a lack of support I also have been trying to get some support and the mainstream allopathic mental health system and establishment is pathetically dire when it comes to actually providing any sort of useful and beneficial support and certainly within a reasonable timeframe I mean I've been on a waiting list for some basic cognitive behavioral therapy for a year now and when I get there they will be squeezing me in and out the door in a fixed number of sessions and I'm really not even decided yet whether to even mention my drug use which is a huge massive part of everything going on in my life and without discussing any aspects of my drug usage the therapy could be potentially useless but at the same time I do not want to risk my doctor knowing I am taking drugs recreationally to treat my anxiety and depression because when it comes to my sickness benefits battles I need to his full support and I do not need the system refusing me acknowledgement of my genuine debilitated condition which is not caused by my drug taking.
So I know what it is like to be between a rock and an extremely hard place and I literally feel crazy out of my head at times admittedly because I've been taking so much acid in combination with other substances while suffering to a very high degree with at times life-threatening physical ailments.
I live with my mum who is 70 years old and we have no other family who are nearby or give a toss and my mum has done everything for me her whole life this is why I could not possibly consider suicide and I fight my hardest to recover my health so that I can look after my mum and give her the best life possible as we both age together and she needs me more in time.
Anyway I just want to say
@vash445 please just try to be a bit more tolerant, calmer, politer, more respectful, and just nicer when posting. If you could do this you would see a completely different reaction from the other members and nobody would be reproaching you even if they still doubted and questioned anything you might have to say.
I understand that you are suffering mentally and very easily frustrated and probably quite alienated in life in some ways but you have been coming across in a very caustic and confrontational tone and manner.
That is why we have this situation where you feel as though you have been unfairly interpreted and persecuted. It's simply a matter of respect and I'm sure that the other members feel that you have shown some disrespect by being unnecessarily aggressive and angry in some of your posts and expressions.
I genuinely only wish you the best my friend and all the happiness that can possibly be achieved with time and healing and positive thought don't give up. The future is never written well maybe it is but we won't get into that now lol!
Stay strong, but please realise- this forum is made up of very good and caring genuine and open minded people who are extremely accepting and non-judgmental and they expect to be treated and addressed in the same manner which you perhaps have not managed to do so as a result of your mental turmoil and losing your calm and perhaps not seeing things clearly we don't see things clearly generally as mortals especially when we are distressed and out of balance and there is no shame in that.