I'll send you a PM as soon as I can or change the settings. I had to change those because I would get random PMs from new users trying to ask me for sources and what-not.
I have samples of both and keeping them around shouldn't be an issue. We test all of them on multiple reagent test kits and have not noted much difference between batches. At best some will just take longer to react but there never seems to be a pattern between Meh and MDMA that we can find. Everything that comes through that isn't bunk/something else always tends to react as MDMA in testing. It is really frustrating.
MehDMA for me feels like a come-up that never breaks through to the magic. I would describe it as cold, underwhelming, and moreish. It reminds me a lot of Mephedrone in many ways but doesn't even feel as good as that. There is no push to do things on MehDMA for me. It feels a bit stoning and I'm content just laying around like I do on opioids. I can see why it would fool a new user because it does feel good just not as good as MDMA is supposed to feel. Even when I take MDMA in a home setting I want to get up and do things. For example I might get lost in a video game with good music, my skills at said game will improve because I'm thinking and reacting faster, I hear notes in the music that I wouldn't normally notice. MehDMA just puts me in a place where I feel fucked up, content, and willing to sit around watching TV for the duration. Now that I'm attempting to describe it I'm having a hard time.
One thing I've noticed about MehDMA is the fact that it seems to mimic the effects of dosing MDMA too close together. Unlike most here my tolerance has not been shot from years of use/abuse. I can still count the number of times I've taken MDMA on my two hands (quickly coming up on use 10 in 2 decades). MehDMA after a long break is like taking MDMA a few nights or perhaps a week after having taken it before. MehDMA makes me the feel the same way MDMA did when I attempted to take it for the third time in the span of one month. Basically, I just get a lot of side effects, minimal euphoria, and it all just seems like a waste. It feels different enough from the good MDMA that I know it can't be the same drug though. The sedation really is the main tell for me.
Don't get me wrong. Having taken good MDMA in a home setting multiple times I can tell you it's certainly possible to relax/lay around on it. The difference between Meh and Magic for me is the speed of my mind and the types of things I think about during the peak. On magic MDMA my mind goes really fast and I find myself thinking about all of the people in my life and how much they all love me and I love them. On MehDMA I don't get much of this and it's replaced by thoughts similar to opioids. By that I mean my thoughts seem more focused on myself and not the relationships I've built in my life. I don't think MehDMA could save a marriage.
I was lucky enough that I caught the tail end of the 90s MDMA that all of you seem to rave about. I can attest that there were a lot of magic in those tablets back then. When I came back to MDMA after decades away from it my first encounter was with MehDMA and Mephedrone. Not being one to like speed/cocaine I didn't find too much value in either of those. After some time I found my current source and when I took the first press I knew I'd rediscovered the good old magic. It's like night and day when you compare the two. Having built up a friendship with this source over the years we've both spent a lot of time talking about this problem. No one seems to have an answer for why some batches test clean and give every indication that they're good only to disappoint hundreds of people in one night. The problem has gotten so bad now that I know lots of folks that just refuse to use MDMA any longer. Some just switched to MDA, some just gave up on things all together or moved on to RCs, some probably wouldn't feel good MDMA at all considering how much they've taken in their lives. I think that's why this is so hard to pin down because there are just so many variables.
All I know is that I can feel the difference, everything I take is tested, and my history of use means I shouldn't be dealing with any issues of tolerance. Last year I gifted a press to someone and they called me from a show complaining how the pill did nothing and that I should complain to the source. They later complained to the source themselves. I kept the other pill and took it on vacation. It ended up being one of the strongest rolls I've ever had and that was with a bit of tolerance because I had taken MDMA a month or two before my trip. The pill tested at some 250+mgs which is double my usual dose. It should have blew that guys head off but he abused mints so much over the years that he couldn't feel anything anymore and his body would instantly reject MDMA when he swallowed it most of the time (he'd puke it out within minutes of taking any press or capsule).
I'll send you a PM as well. I'm surprised to hear you have Meh MDA. Perhaps we've just been lucky here and haven't ended up with any MehDA.
