Hey everybody....I am glad that I found out about this site, a lot of helpful info...
I was on 310 ml of methadone for about 3 years because of my heroin addiction i would never get off of such a high dose on my own, "good" thing happened I got locked up...short story even shorter, I was sick for over 3 month, and I mean fucked up...I got out after doing 15 month and told myself that i will never put me thru this pain ever again.....and plus I am on parole so I get tested for opiads and coke...but not for benzos, so I started to take xanax about 3 bars a day which is 6 ml...after about one week I had a habbit and was dopesick....now xanax doesn't even do nothing anymore I really wanna stop but I cant , having bad WD.....so I dont wanna go back to methadone program, because than I would really never get off....I bought 125 ml of methadone of the street and took a cap yesterday and another cap today. its working, but I really dont wanna get hooked on meth....so I also bought some suboxin, but didnt take any yet.....I really dont know what to do, I wanna be clean again.....I would lock myself up at home and kick it, but I am working....anybody please help me with some kind of advise.......and is suboxin addictive as well...?